Disclaimer: Not mine but a girl can wish.

Warning; may cause confusion, hatred of author and temporary insanity.

As long as you do not have these symptoms… I'm doing my job wrong.

Oh and SLASH and swearing.

Author's note: This originally had two parts but I've changed the story it was too confusing so I've separated them (you'll get what I mean if you've already read it).This is the AU set at the start of season 2 where Nick remembers that Stephen and him were together but no one else does. There is no need to read the other to get the story as they are literally opposite's ;). The other part is now called "Un-break my Hart"

Stephen's POV

I sighed, I've fucked up this time. I've been married to Nick for 3 years and we've been together for 4 more, hell we had been friends when Nick was married to Helen.

I should have told Nick but truth be told, I was scared it's one of the few times I've ever felt afraid of something.

When I first met Nick I was attracted to him immediately, hell the guy was hot in a roguish sort of way and when Nick smiled it lit up the room but Nick had been married, unattainable.

Even Eight years later Nick hadn't known.

I'd once told a mate roughly what had happened and they had told me I'd done it to end the marriage but I know the real reason I'd done it, Helen was the closeted I could get to Nick, I hate to say it but I… I love Nick Cutter.

Nick had been the first to act on these feeling.

Nick had understood that I had been hurt in the past and found it had to say these sorts of things and Nick had still loved me anyway.

I'm terrified of what is going to happen now.

I hadn't trusted Nick and I had only made it worse when I hade failed to trust Nick about Claudia Brian thingy.

When Nick had gotten back to ARC he no longer had his ring on.

I'm not stupid enough to think that what I had with Nick would last because that's exactly the truth I "had" it and now I've lost it.

My past has ruined my relationship with Nick.

The only reason Nick hadn't broke it off with me was probably because Nick clearly thought I couldn't handle it.

Well I'm not going to let that happen I'm going to confront Nick Cutter.

IF Nick is going to break up with me he is going to at least have to do it to my face I at least deserve that, so I picked up my car keys and left.

I am going to Nick's house right now to fix this mess.

Author's note 2: If anyone has any ideas on how this should go please tell me. Especially about whether ARC or even the rest of the team should know about the marriage.