THE FORGOTTEN CD. by Sadie
Disclaimer: Thanks to all the OTHER people, who created CSI, it gives me something to write about. Don't sue me I'm only dreamin here. Thanks to ALL the great singers and songwriters who are contributing to this fic unbeknownst to them. I did take some poetic license with some of the words to tailor it to the story a little better too.
Summary: What happens when a CD is left in someone's truck.by accident or on purpose?. G/S..Please R/R
Spoilers: Post PWF and ITB ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- ------------------------------
It was another long shift. He was tired, but at least he could hear everyone again. It had only been a week since he came back after his surgery, he was supposed to be taking it easy, but that's hard to do in this job. He shuffled out to his truck knowing he had to do this alone since everyone else had his or her hands full tonight. He was on his way to process a robbery out in the burbs, 'at least this should be easy' he thought.
Jumping in the truck he realized the seat was a little too far forward and leaning back farther than usual. "What the hell?" He said as he readjusted his seat, then he noticed the mirrors and readjusted them too.
Then it hit him 'that's right, Sara had to drive this last night because hers was in the shop'. Last night had been his night off and tonight was hers.
He thought about her for a few minutes, thinking of the last time he had really spoken to her. "Sara, I don't know what to do about this." He didn't then, but he had been thinking about it a lot the last month. He had wanted to say yes, but he needed to take care of himself first before he could deal with her. He just hoped he wasn't too late. She had been in a decent mood since the accident. She seemed to smile more at everyone, everyone except him that was. She wasn't being mean to him, nor was she avoiding him, she just didn't associate with him unless it had to do with a case. Then it wasn't usually for help it was just to make sure she had everything covered. She actually seemed content if that was possible. It was soo hard to get a read on that woman sometimes.
When he realized he'd been sitting there for five minutes with the car off staring into space he figured he'd better get moving before they sent out a search party for him.
He was just pulling out of the lot when he noticed there was a CD in the player. 'That's strange', he thought, 'I know I didn't leave one in there, maybe it belongs to Sara.' He decided to hit play and see what kind of mood she'd been in last night.
He didn't recognize the song that came on, but he could tell it was a newer artist. One of those young women that couldn't possibly know the depth of some of the words they were singing. He snorted a little as he reached out a hand to turn it off, but some of the words had reached in and turned a light on inside his. He found himself listening attentively as though he was meant to hear this specific song when he turned the CD on.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ (Jewel - 2 find U)
If I asked u a question
Would u look me in the eyes?
Has our love been built on lies?
Well, why I'm asking
U see, the time is now
2 turn our backs forever
Or work this through somehow
And I want 2 see u
I want 2 feel new again
Hey, U
Do not walk away
Let's choose love, come on
What do u say?
Hey, U
Know that I would spend
My whole life all over again
2 find U
We've layered hurt on hurt
I've seen pain cloud your eyes
But we are bruised, not broken
Like a phoenix, love will rise
And do U see me?
Do u feel new again?
Hey, U
Do not walk away
Let's choose love, come on
What do u say?
Hey, U
Know that I would spend
My whole life all over again
2 find U
Look in my eyes
Kiss my mouth hard
Let your conviction
Reassure my heart
Promise me now
I'll promise U, too
I love u
Hey, U
Do not walk away
Let's choose love, come on
What do u say?
Hey, U
Know that I would spend
My whole life all over again
2 find U
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
He suddenly had the chills, had she purposely left this CD in here and stopped right at this song just for him to hear it? He pushed this thought aside as he waited for the next song to play. It sounded like the same artist, but the mood was a little different.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I ill come 2 u
In the still of the night
And I will crush u
With the burden of sight
And u will understand
The shadows in my heart
The fury of my conviction
Will cause your heart 2 quicken
And then, my dear
U will see u want me here
And when u wake up
U will see yourself through my eyes
And when u break up
You'll understand
Why it is I cry
Let me speak quietly
So your heart can hear
I will hypnotize and mesmerize u
With the sound of your own fear
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
He had arrived at the scene and was listening to the music when Brass came over and knocked on his window.
"Jesus Jim, don't do that, you nearly gave me a heart attack." He said as he turned off the truck and opened the door.
"What the hell were you doing Gil, you looked like you where hypnotized?"
"Sorry, just deep in thought I guess. What have we got?"
He processed the scene as quickly as he could, making sure he didn't miss anything. He was only running a few minutes over shift and he could get back to the lab, hand off the evidence to trace, AV, and DNA and wait til tomorrow to pursue the case any further.
An hour later he found himself standing by his car when he realized he had left the CD in the truck. He had decided on his way back from the crime scene that he would take it home and listen to it just to see how many of the songs he thought he could relate to there situation. Maybe he could get a feel for Sara's emotions without having to find out personally quite yet. He grabbed the CD out of the player and headed back to his car.
When he had settled himself in at home, he popped the CD in his stereo and was shocked at how many of the songs were newer young women artists. 'I never realized Sara listened to this kind of music before', he thought to himself as he listened. He was sure he'd heard a few of these songs at Catherine's when Lindsay was around. He laughed at the thought that a child who hadn't even hit puberty yet and a full-grown woman with an IQ that just about matched his own would be listening to the same music. Which one of them was a little off the beaten path here he wondered? Some off the songs were kind of happy, but most spoke of confusion and anger. He wondered why there were so many different artists and types of music on this CD. He stopped it and took it out to look at the label then realized she must have made it herself on her computer from several other CD's. The only thing written on the front was "GG MIX". It was written in large red letters that were shaky and slanted on a severe angle. So unlike her he thought, then looked at the title again, "GG?" It couldn't be Gil Grissom? Had she actually put together an entire CD with songs about how she perceived their relationship, or lack they're of? He decided to finish listening before he passed final judgment on that issue. He was getting near the end and had encountered some very angry music. He was thinking of the lyrics as though it was her singing them to him, asking if he was happy now. He just looked at his hands in his lap and sighed. He wasn't happy yet; he needed her to help him find that happiness he thought.
A soft acoustic guitar replaced the angry music. It was however the same voice he'd heard on the previous song.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ (Michelle Branch - Goodbye to you - the Acoustic version that was used on Buffy)
Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by
I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
He sat there thinking about the sad but beautiful song he just heard and hoped to god it wasn't too late for them. He got up to turn it off when another song came on. He didn't realize there were anymore, but it seemed to be like a secret track. The space between it and the previous song was enough to give the illusion that the CD was over. He listened with rapt attention hoping this tune brought a better message.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
If tomorrow never comes
I would want just one thing
I would sell it to the stars and sun
I would write it for the world to see
And it's you
The light changes when you're in the room
Oh it's you
Oh it's you
If tomorrow never comes
I would want just one wish
To kiss your quiet mouth
Trace the steps with my fingertips
And it's you
The light changes when you're in the room
Oh it's you
Oh it's you
Oh it's you
Oh it's you
Oh it's you
Oh it's you
Oh it's you...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
When the last song ended he could feel the pounding of his heart against the walls of his chest. It threatened to break through at any moment, and kill him where he stood. It hit him like a brick that even though she wasn't leaving, if he didn't do something soon, he would lose her. She had never said it directly to him, but having heard the evidence on the disk he knew she must care for him. Dare he say even love him? He had a lot of thinking to do, but first he had to have a copy of this disk. He grabbed it and nearly ran to his computer to make the copy. That is if he could find a blank disk.
TBC .... maybe
Please r/r, if you liked it I'll continue it. Sorry, I know some of the songs might have been used before, but I hope I put a new spin on them.
Disclaimer: Thanks to all the OTHER people, who created CSI, it gives me something to write about. Don't sue me I'm only dreamin here. Thanks to ALL the great singers and songwriters who are contributing to this fic unbeknownst to them. I did take some poetic license with some of the words to tailor it to the story a little better too.
Summary: What happens when a CD is left in someone's truck.by accident or on purpose?. G/S..Please R/R
Spoilers: Post PWF and ITB ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- ------------------------------
It was another long shift. He was tired, but at least he could hear everyone again. It had only been a week since he came back after his surgery, he was supposed to be taking it easy, but that's hard to do in this job. He shuffled out to his truck knowing he had to do this alone since everyone else had his or her hands full tonight. He was on his way to process a robbery out in the burbs, 'at least this should be easy' he thought.
Jumping in the truck he realized the seat was a little too far forward and leaning back farther than usual. "What the hell?" He said as he readjusted his seat, then he noticed the mirrors and readjusted them too.
Then it hit him 'that's right, Sara had to drive this last night because hers was in the shop'. Last night had been his night off and tonight was hers.
He thought about her for a few minutes, thinking of the last time he had really spoken to her. "Sara, I don't know what to do about this." He didn't then, but he had been thinking about it a lot the last month. He had wanted to say yes, but he needed to take care of himself first before he could deal with her. He just hoped he wasn't too late. She had been in a decent mood since the accident. She seemed to smile more at everyone, everyone except him that was. She wasn't being mean to him, nor was she avoiding him, she just didn't associate with him unless it had to do with a case. Then it wasn't usually for help it was just to make sure she had everything covered. She actually seemed content if that was possible. It was soo hard to get a read on that woman sometimes.
When he realized he'd been sitting there for five minutes with the car off staring into space he figured he'd better get moving before they sent out a search party for him.
He was just pulling out of the lot when he noticed there was a CD in the player. 'That's strange', he thought, 'I know I didn't leave one in there, maybe it belongs to Sara.' He decided to hit play and see what kind of mood she'd been in last night.
He didn't recognize the song that came on, but he could tell it was a newer artist. One of those young women that couldn't possibly know the depth of some of the words they were singing. He snorted a little as he reached out a hand to turn it off, but some of the words had reached in and turned a light on inside his. He found himself listening attentively as though he was meant to hear this specific song when he turned the CD on.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ (Jewel - 2 find U)
If I asked u a question
Would u look me in the eyes?
Has our love been built on lies?
Well, why I'm asking
U see, the time is now
2 turn our backs forever
Or work this through somehow
And I want 2 see u
I want 2 feel new again
Hey, U
Do not walk away
Let's choose love, come on
What do u say?
Hey, U
Know that I would spend
My whole life all over again
2 find U
We've layered hurt on hurt
I've seen pain cloud your eyes
But we are bruised, not broken
Like a phoenix, love will rise
And do U see me?
Do u feel new again?
Hey, U
Do not walk away
Let's choose love, come on
What do u say?
Hey, U
Know that I would spend
My whole life all over again
2 find U
Look in my eyes
Kiss my mouth hard
Let your conviction
Reassure my heart
Promise me now
I'll promise U, too
I love u
Hey, U
Do not walk away
Let's choose love, come on
What do u say?
Hey, U
Know that I would spend
My whole life all over again
2 find U
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
He suddenly had the chills, had she purposely left this CD in here and stopped right at this song just for him to hear it? He pushed this thought aside as he waited for the next song to play. It sounded like the same artist, but the mood was a little different.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I ill come 2 u
In the still of the night
And I will crush u
With the burden of sight
And u will understand
The shadows in my heart
The fury of my conviction
Will cause your heart 2 quicken
And then, my dear
U will see u want me here
And when u wake up
U will see yourself through my eyes
And when u break up
You'll understand
Why it is I cry
Let me speak quietly
So your heart can hear
I will hypnotize and mesmerize u
With the sound of your own fear
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
He had arrived at the scene and was listening to the music when Brass came over and knocked on his window.
"Jesus Jim, don't do that, you nearly gave me a heart attack." He said as he turned off the truck and opened the door.
"What the hell were you doing Gil, you looked like you where hypnotized?"
"Sorry, just deep in thought I guess. What have we got?"
He processed the scene as quickly as he could, making sure he didn't miss anything. He was only running a few minutes over shift and he could get back to the lab, hand off the evidence to trace, AV, and DNA and wait til tomorrow to pursue the case any further.
An hour later he found himself standing by his car when he realized he had left the CD in the truck. He had decided on his way back from the crime scene that he would take it home and listen to it just to see how many of the songs he thought he could relate to there situation. Maybe he could get a feel for Sara's emotions without having to find out personally quite yet. He grabbed the CD out of the player and headed back to his car.
When he had settled himself in at home, he popped the CD in his stereo and was shocked at how many of the songs were newer young women artists. 'I never realized Sara listened to this kind of music before', he thought to himself as he listened. He was sure he'd heard a few of these songs at Catherine's when Lindsay was around. He laughed at the thought that a child who hadn't even hit puberty yet and a full-grown woman with an IQ that just about matched his own would be listening to the same music. Which one of them was a little off the beaten path here he wondered? Some off the songs were kind of happy, but most spoke of confusion and anger. He wondered why there were so many different artists and types of music on this CD. He stopped it and took it out to look at the label then realized she must have made it herself on her computer from several other CD's. The only thing written on the front was "GG MIX". It was written in large red letters that were shaky and slanted on a severe angle. So unlike her he thought, then looked at the title again, "GG?" It couldn't be Gil Grissom? Had she actually put together an entire CD with songs about how she perceived their relationship, or lack they're of? He decided to finish listening before he passed final judgment on that issue. He was getting near the end and had encountered some very angry music. He was thinking of the lyrics as though it was her singing them to him, asking if he was happy now. He just looked at his hands in his lap and sighed. He wasn't happy yet; he needed her to help him find that happiness he thought.
A soft acoustic guitar replaced the angry music. It was however the same voice he'd heard on the previous song.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ (Michelle Branch - Goodbye to you - the Acoustic version that was used on Buffy)
Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by
I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
He sat there thinking about the sad but beautiful song he just heard and hoped to god it wasn't too late for them. He got up to turn it off when another song came on. He didn't realize there were anymore, but it seemed to be like a secret track. The space between it and the previous song was enough to give the illusion that the CD was over. He listened with rapt attention hoping this tune brought a better message.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
If tomorrow never comes
I would want just one thing
I would sell it to the stars and sun
I would write it for the world to see
And it's you
The light changes when you're in the room
Oh it's you
Oh it's you
If tomorrow never comes
I would want just one wish
To kiss your quiet mouth
Trace the steps with my fingertips
And it's you
The light changes when you're in the room
Oh it's you
Oh it's you
Oh it's you
Oh it's you
Oh it's you
Oh it's you
Oh it's you...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
When the last song ended he could feel the pounding of his heart against the walls of his chest. It threatened to break through at any moment, and kill him where he stood. It hit him like a brick that even though she wasn't leaving, if he didn't do something soon, he would lose her. She had never said it directly to him, but having heard the evidence on the disk he knew she must care for him. Dare he say even love him? He had a lot of thinking to do, but first he had to have a copy of this disk. He grabbed it and nearly ran to his computer to make the copy. That is if he could find a blank disk.
TBC .... maybe
Please r/r, if you liked it I'll continue it. Sorry, I know some of the songs might have been used before, but I hope I put a new spin on them.