Title: Then and Now

Author: GEM

Date: 11-12-12

Pairing: Olivia/Fitz

Rating: T

Summary: Olivia had made decisions in her life. Some she is proud of, others she is not. Fitzgerald Grant had made decisions in his life. Some he is proud of, others he is not. Every decision comes with consequences. Olivia/Other Olivia/Fitz

A/N: This is my first Scandal Fan Fiction. Your comments are greatly appreciated.

Disclaimer: Scandal is Property of Shonda Rimes and ABC et al. The song Jar of Hearts

is Property of LAWRENCE, DREW C. / PERRI, CHRISTINA JUDITH / YERETSIAN, BARRETT NOUBAR. No copyright infringement is intended

Chapter 1 The Senator

2006

Olivia sat on the couch nursing her second glass of wine. She couldn't take this any longer. It had been four years...four years of broken promises. There with always be time for you Liv. I just need this time to be great. My country needs me and I need you to support me. You can have your career and us too. Olivia looked down at her ring finger after downing her glass of wine. The ring was beautiful there was no doubt about that. The Proposal was Perfect but it wasn't enough anymore.

2003 New York

Edison Davis was never sure of anything in his life as he waited on the observation deck of the Empire State Building. He met Olivia a year ago at a campaign event and that is when his life began. He couldn't stand to live another day without her in his life.

"Good Evening, Senator." Olivia said as she stepped off the elevator at the top of the Empire State Building.

She was a vision in a black satin dress, her smile was a bright as the stars in the night sky. "Good evening, Miss Pope. I see Cyrus delivered my message. Thank you for joining me." Edison offered her any arm as they walked to the look out. "It's a beautiful night. Don't you think? Almost as beautiful as you.

"Cyrus did indeed give me the message. I was stuck in depositions all day. Edison...Why are we here? I'm starving and you promised me dinner before your flight back to Washington."

Edison smiled. "I did, didn't I. Well, we'll get to that in a moment." Edison reached into his pocket. "First." He got down on one knee and open the small box in his hand.

"Olivia covered his mouth with her hand in shock. When Cyrus had told her to meet Edison here she had no idea that this was going to happen.

"Olivia Pope Will you Marry me?"

"Yes." Olivia whispered as Edison pulled the ring from the box and slipped onto her finger.

Olivia thought that night in New York would led her to happiness but it didn't. Sure they were happy for a while but as time passed. Edison became more entrenched in Politics and his image. As a fixer Olivia understood why it was important but Edison was becoming controlling at least when that were in public together. Olivia had pride in her work, faith in herself, but Edison Davis had a way of making even the strong willed Olivia Pope second guess herself and her actions. Now almost four years later. Olivia was certain if she stayed she would lose herself for good.

I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time

Olivia put down her newly empty wine glass and picked up the phone. "Cyrus." Olivia tried her best to hold back her tears...her body ached but she knew what she had to do. "Is that spot at the firm still open."

"It's yours if you want it. Are you okay Olivia?"

"No, but I will be...call them and tell them I'll be there next week."

"Olivia, you know you can always talk to me right?"

"I know, I'll see you in the office next week."

"You can't go. I won't let you!"

" It's too late I took the job and I'm going!" Olivia screamed as Edison came toward her.

"You're mine Olivia you can't just leave me, switch parties, go and would for some big city corporate, Republican Lawyer! You belong to me Olivia Pope!"

"I belong to no one and I am apolitical...Edison you should know that by now." Olivia picked up what was left of her belonging and walked out the door, slamming it behind her and leaving Edison to Rage all by himself.

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?