The Name of this Feeling is-
An Owari no Seraph fanfiction
When exactly did this start again?
If Mika had to guess, he'd need to try to explain what this even is.
'This' used to be a question at the very beginning when he met Yuu-chan. A shy, quiet little child that hid behind his mother's back and all Mika could see of him was bright green eyes with the spark of curiosity still simmering in them.
'This' used to be Mika's name, garbled and unsure from Yuu's lips, cheeks puffed out when he realized he couldn't say it properly. The pout when Mika taught him how to say his nickname; easier to say but to Yuu-chan, it was admitting defeat.
'This' used to be the games they'd play, from bottlecaps to board-games, cards to consoles, make-believe near a lake. Mika always ends up being the princess because he was the 'pretty' one and Yuu was the 'strong' one and Mika doesn't have the heart to tell him that, since he was older, it should be the other way around.
'This' used to be the strange, jumpy feeling in his stomach whenever Yuu-chan called him pretty.
'This' used to be the dread in his heart when he realized that they were growing up, growing distant from each other, as Yuu-chan started to form more friends.
They didn't see each other as much, Yuu-chan's smiles are a bit more strained and the silence between them grows as their talks become shorter and so much more awkward.
'This' is a terrifying, exhilarating dream that Mika dreams one day where he wakes up with tears in his eyes and that same hollow, ache in his heart. Touching his lips, feeling it shape Yuu-chan's name over and over.
'This' is love.
'This' is love with his childhood friend.
Had Yuu-chan realized this before? Seen this for what it was before Mika ever did?
He's moved far away, far from the house next door.
He hasn't called or texted once.