Note: I'm sorry, I know a few of you are waiting for the next chapter of "Desperation" but I needed to get this idea out of my head before I can go on with "Desperation".

It's going to be very dark and painful especially for Olivia. And it is M rated for a reason so please don't read when you're sensitive to the subject of child abuse. Well, we all are, but some of us more then others. So when you're one of them then I'm apologizing for human cruelty and I'm glad that you survived, but I think it's better to stop reading this fanfic now.

Olivia was late today. She sprinted into the elevator and pushed the button several times and the same time she was asking herself why she did it. Normally she hated people doing that, cause every human person with an IQ over 50 knows that it has absolutely no effect.

When the elevator arrived on the SVU floor she sprinted out, threw her jacket onto her chair and walked as fast as she could, so it didn't look like she was running, to the interrogation room. Elliot already told her that they arrested the 75year old Grandfather of Samantha Perkins. A seven year old girl who they met the day before. Her gymnastic teacher brought her to the hospital cause she recognized bruises on the inside of Samantha's thighs.

Olivia walked to the two way mirror, Elliot was inside interviewing Samantha's grandfather. She stood next to Captain Cragen and started to apologize but he motioned her to listen to the interview. It was the silent accepting of her being late. Cragen was very easy going about things like that, cause he knows what his detectives are doing every day and he knows that the whole city of new york hasn't enough money to pay even one of his detectives the amount they deserve for what they are doing.

So she looked back through the mirror, Cragen turned the speaker on and she heard how Elliot said: "I understand why you did it, she is such a beautiful girl and she is so innocent and she has such a soft skin."

Samantha's grandfather had an absent smile on his face when he said: "They all have." Olivia turned around an vomited on the floor.

This voice, she knew this voice, she was sure she heard it before. Cragen turned around and looked shocked: "Olivia, are you okay?"

She couldn't think straight, this voice, she knew this voice. She felt weak and she wanted to sit down. Cragen walked out to call someone to clean up Olivia's vomit. Then he helped her to sit down. "Olivia what's wrong?"

Olivia flashed back to the time when she was eight years old. Three weeks before her mother brought a new man home. He wasn't like the other men Serena dated normally. He wasn't complaining that she has a child. First Olivia tried to stay out of his way, cause the guys her mother is normally dating don't like children. But Bill was really nice. When he was visiting them the first time he brought her sweets and he talked to her about school, her hobbies and her friends.

It was now three weeks that he was together with Serena and this wasn't normal either, cause one week was Serena's natural limit. And he even protected her one or two times when Serena was drunk and mad and wanted to use Olivia as her personal punching bag. Olivia really started to like Bill, one Saturday he went to the Zoo with her, the whole day. When she woke up Serena had a huge hangover, Olivia went to the kitchen crabbed some cereals and went back to her room, she knew what this Saturday would be filled with, she had to do everything to stay out of her mother's way.

30minutes later Bill appeared, he told her that he would go to the supermarket to buy some groceries for the weekend and he asked her to join him. She was thankful to get out of the apartment so she went with him. But they didn't go to the grocery store they went to the Zoo and they stayed there the whole day. He even bought her a little cuddly toy, it was a lion and she really loved it.

She was a little scared when they went back to the apartment, cause she thought her mother would be mad that she was gone the whole they without telling her. But when they came back home Serena was sleeping. Olivia thanked Bill and wanted to go to her bedroom, but Bill asked her if Saturday wasn't her bathing day and he was right, normally Olivia took a bath on Saturday evening. Olivia glanced to her mother's bedroom, when Serena had a hangover like this, it would be better to just go to bed and be silent, but then Bill said: "What when she recognizes tomorrow that you didn't take your bath this evening?" And he was right, Olivia didn't know what would happen then, she could be really mad at her about not taking her bath. Bill said: "It's okay, I'm going to help you and we will be very silent." He was smiling at her and was holding his hand out for Olivia to take. And she took it. He went to the bathroom with her and he let water into the tub. Then he turned around and helped her to take her clothes off, she felt weird about that, cause her mother didn't help her with that since she was two years old.

He was smiling at her and Olivia got goosebumps, she hold her arms protectively around her body. He laughed and said: "Oh, honey you're freezing let's put you into the warm water." He hold her up and put her into the tub. He knelt down and started to wash her back with a washcloth. Olivia closed her eyes and wondered if this is how it feels to have a dad. He goes to the Zoo with you, he protects you from your Mum and he helps you to do the Saturday bathing. He washed her hair and when the water went cold he put a towel around her and lifted her out of the tub.

He rubbed her dry and brought her to her bedroom.