Author Note: I don't own Harry Potter nor the songs, Good Enough by Evanescence and Girlfriend by Avril Lavigne are the songs used, I decided to use some of my favourite songs as songs that Harry has made up and played, though as we all know that isn't true. The italics are the characters thoughts and bold italics are the lyrics for the songs. Enjoy, review if you want... Oh this is set after OOTP and does not follow HBP or DH!
The Piano Player's Sight;
Under your spell again.
I can't say no to you.
Crave my heart and it's bleeding in your hand.
I can't say no to you.
Shouldn't have let you torture me so sweetly.
Now I can't let go of this dream.
I can't breathe but I feel...
Good enough,
I feel good enough for you.
Drink up sweet decadence.
I can't say no to you,
And I've completely lost myself, and I don't mind.
I can't say no to you.
Shouldn't let you conquer me completely.
Now I can't let go of this dream.
Can't believe that I feel...
Good enough,
I feel good enough.
It's been such a long time coming, but I feel good.
And I'm still waiting for the rain to fall.
Pour real life down on me.
'Cause I can't hold on to anything this good enough.
Am I good enough for you to love me too?
So take care what you ask of me,
'cause I can't say no.
Harry sat in the Room of Requirement his black and silver grand piano in front of him, sitting on a cushioned black leather stool. He pushed the keys down from the bottom of the piano to the top, in a smooth manner. C scale three times; right hand, left hand and contra-motion, then he flawlessly changed into his song 'Good Enough' singing where he had it written down. "ARGH FUCKING STUPID CHORD…" Harry growled out, then pushed the keys down with a force that he normally wouldn't use with his piano, the chord he was trying to play came out perfectly and rung out around the room. "Drink up sweet decadence. I can't say no to you, and I've completely lost myself and I don't mind. I can't say no to you. Shouldn't let you conquer me completely. Now I can't let go of this dream. Can't believe that I feel… good enough!" The sweet, serene voice echoed back to his own ears slightly shocked that his own voice could sound so smooth, so sexy, so in time with the twinkling of his piano. His heart and brain pumped with the song, his eyes closed simply feeling the song, feeling his fingers caress the keys.
"I honestly have no clue as to where Harry has been going each night, he will leave just as curfew starts to come around and Ron has told me that sometimes he doesn't come back into the dorms until 1 or 2 in the morning… Frankly Headmaster I'm worried about him, his so tired he doesn't seem to be able to stay awake in class. He's so withdrawn that his barely talked to anybody this year…" I said pulling a strand of my hair behind my ears, and waited patiently to hear what Headmaster Dumbledore had to say.
"My dear girl, I thank you for helping and I can assure with Ron, Luna, Ginny and you that we can get to the bottom of what's making Harry go on night-time wanderings…" He thanked me for my time and said to go down to lunch. I couldn't help but worry for my friend; I couldn't understand what was so important that Harry had to shun us all to hide during the night as well.
"Ron… I need to talk to y…you… Where's Harry?" I asked concerned since I didn't see Harry at the Gryffindor table with Ron. He shrugged then mentioned something about how he had to go do homework at the library.
"I've had an idea, we ask to borrow the map and find out where his going during the night, and wait until he comes back and confront him, agreed?"
"Agreed…" I shook Ron's hand then said, "Let's do it tonight…" He agreed that we should do it earlier since Harry's eyes were becoming darker and his hair even more messed up.
"Harry; can Ron and I borrow the map?" I was shocked to hear Hermione say that to me but I wished I didn't have to give it to them.
"Sorry, what do you want it for…" I asked rather harshly, I didn't want them finding out where I went, because they would find out about my love of the piano, my love for things unnatural. Hermione smiled at me and Ron started turning red.
"Well 'Mione and I were thinking we could go to Hogsmeade to celebrate our relationship sometime soon but we didn't know where we needed to go…" I had to agree that there was no way I would get out of not giving them the map.
"Okay, but I want it back when you're done with it…" I murmured then turned back to the fire in the common room staring at the fire crackling.
Later that night when Hermione said she was going to bed and Ron gave up trying to get me to play wizard chess, and just before curfew I stood and left the Gryffindor tower. "It's not an addiction, it's a habit because I can stop whenever I want…" I got to the room where my piano was and I sighed staring at it.
"It has to be an addiction I don't think I could stop, it's become like breathing I don't even realise I need it until I stop…" Slight breathless laugh, "Talking to myself again bah, who cares?"
The sound of robes rustling and then the silky voice replied my rhetorical question, "I care, Mr Potter…"
Silky voice again, "I care that you are out after curfew, I care that you may ruin a precious piano such as that…" This time I turned around as expected there stood Professor Snape in his black robes glaring at me.
"You have no idea how long I've been playing this piano for, Sir!" He snorted at this but I continued, "And you have no idea as to how good this makes me feel, dock points if you want but really I am still inside…"
"Not in your bed asleep…"
"Would you believe me if I said I couldn't sleep?"
"Would you believe me if I said I couldn't believe you would play piano?" And I'm still waiting for the rain to fall. Pour real life down on me. Cause I can't hold on to anything this good enough. Am I good enough for you to love me too? So take care what you ask of me, 'cause I can't say no.
"I'd believe that you ruminate that I can't play piano, yet this song proves otherwise…" The banter continued until he bent down and kissed me full on the lips and I in shock opened my mouth his tongue claimed mine as his own. Gasp, moan, and pant, somebody pulls away and I am suddenly hit with the revelation that Snape just kissed me.
"That shouldn't ever happen again sir, now please leave so I can play my music and forget this ever happened…" I said as kindly as I could. I started playing the piano, the notes deep and loud, reverberating through my chest, humming like a sobbing child. I began to cry from the sadness the song was sounding to be, "Because I… I… I can't say no to you!" I sung some of 'Good Enough' to this new tune, it was slow, deep and sad. I played a fast, Latin dance song and felt better heading back to the common room about ready to collapse.
"HARRY THERE YOU ARE!" Hermione jumped to her feet and hugged me tightly, "I MISSED YOU SO MUCH…" Ron looked ready to kill but sat in the armchair staring towards me.
"Err… Hermione, Ron, what are you two doing up?" This certainly wasn't going as I had planned I was back before they should have been there both of them didn't know I left so they shouldn't have… Oh those bastards they had my map of course… Oh fuck how to explain this say you needed to think… "A pleasant surprise of course though…"
"Harry, mate I think we need to talk…" Ron said in a gravely serious matter. Oh fuck…
"Sure; what about?" I joked, and earned a glare from both Hermione and Ron.
"You see we noticed your lack of sleep and we were concerned then tonight we saw you and Professor Snape in the Room of Requirement and…" Hermione started off but Ron jumped in front of her. And I'm still waiting for the rain to fall. Pour real life down on me. Cause I can't hold on to anything this good enough. Am I good enough for you to love me too? So take care what you ask of me, 'cause I can't say no.
"Look mate we know what's going on between you and Snape!" He growled out, there was nobody in the common room still it was slowly getting light.
"S…Snape…" I laughed slightly then it became a hysterical laugh I could see both Hermione and Ron's faces through my hair and managed to calm down enough to talk. "There's nothing between Snape and I, he found me in the Room and we fought (verbally 'Mione) and well that's it he left and I came back here…"
"Bloody hell Harry don't you see his corrupting you! You've been out every single night when he has, you've been going out before curfew and coming back to get about 5 minutes of sleep before you need to get ready for classes I can tell that you couldn't fall asleep straight away so your not getting ANY SLEEP!" Ron kept going, "YOU ARE SO SELFISH, AND HOW COULD YOU JUST LEAVE YOUR FRIENDS LIKE THAT HARRY? HOW COULD YOU JUST DUMP US FOR THAT BLOODY GREASY OVERGROWN BAT?" Hermione jumped in here, telling Ron off about respecting Snape's authority.
It took a while but they finally gave up and let me stay down in the common room sitting by the fire staring at the fire crackle. Hiss out a sigh in parsel-tongue I swear scaring all the first years now up and ready for a Monday morning at Hogwarts. "Potions second up after Transfiguration Harry!" Somebody reminds me, Ron makes a comment about how nobody can eat after that and I shiver slightly this would be the first time seeing Snape after the k-k-kiss. Great just what I need a Snape out for my head, wonder who will kill me first Snape or Voldemort? "Harry are you even listening to me?" Oops I wasn't and now Hermione will go on a rant about how important it is to…. "HARRY!" I jump and realise Hermione was talking to me during my mental blank.
"Sorry Hermione it won't happen again…" I say though slightly convinced that it might.
BANG! The Potion's classroom door slams open bashing against the wall, making it way back to the door opening. "Open your text-books the potion is on the board…" Snape spat out, his eyes lingering on mine for a brief moment then he stalked up to his desk and sat down marking papers. I pulled out my text-book and turned to the page, Wow his letting us brew Veritaserum must be doing this to get back at me… "MISTER POTTER! STAY BEHIND AFTER CLASS FOR YOUR ABISMAL BEHAVIOUR!"
I wished I could just skip class to go to my piano, wince slightly at the pain in my finger; fuck just cut myself, mmmm I'll just take that knife nobody will notice… I thought to myself and groaned faintly when the bell for lunch rung. Everybody swiftly ran out the door the last person banging the door closed as if sealing my doom.
"JUST WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE? OH THAT'S RIGHT THE GOLDEN BOY, SAVIOUR OF THE WIZARD WORLD! YOU'RE INEPTITUDE FOR POTIONS IS GOING TO COST YOU, NOW GET UP HERE AND FACE THE CLASSROOM DOOR!" Snape yelled at me, and I jumped slightly not moving, "NOW!" Again I didn't move, "IF I HAVE TO MAKE YOU MYSELF…" This time my legs moved automatically, until I was standing between him in his chair and his desk, staring at the door. His hands touched my thighs, "You are such a bad boy…" He growled out, my body being crushed against the desk, oh god, oh god, oh god this can't be happening, this just can't be… I didn't want my first time to be like this… I… I… ARGH! My thoughts were going wild while Snape stood behind me his hands still on my thighs; I shook my legs but only succeeded in making his hands slide up to my hips.
"YOU'RE NOT GOOD ENOUGH TO PLAY THE PIANO, NOT GOOD ENOUGH!" His voice was harsh, raspy, like he'd just… Like he'd just had sex… I shivered at the implications. Not good enough, not fucking good enough! how fucking dare he, I'll… I'll… ARGH, I'll show him… Yes I'll show him. Then he slapped my inner thighs, fire burned and I hissed in pain biting my lip letting blood dribble into my mouth. "Show me, show me that you can play that damn piano beautifully and I'll forget about you trying to steal that knife for whatever reasons you wanted to…" My legs went weak I had never ever played for or to anybody it was something I kept private but refuse him now in his fury he might do more then just embarrass me.
"O-Okay… W-W-When?" I hated how my voice shook but took no notice. Snape hit my inner thighs once more explaining that he would see me tonight in the Room Of Requirement ready to listen to a song.
For the rest of the day I was trying to think of which song to play 'Good Enough', 'London Beckoned', 'Whatsername', 'Nobody Knows' or "Don't Cha" or his most famous "Do Do's and Whoa Oh's" and "Girlfriend". It was beginning to get maddening when I finally made my way back to the common room I told both Ron and Hermione I was going out, wouldn't be back and to not go looking for me I seriously hoped they wouldn't. Then I fled to the Room Of Requirement to practise my piano playing before Snape got there, "Hey, hey, you, you I want to be your girlfriend…"
She's like so whatever
And you could do so much better
I think we should get together now
And that's what everyone's talking about!
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I don't like your girlfriend!
That's Right! No way! No way!
I think you need a new one
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I could be your girlfriend
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I know that you like me
No way! No way!
You know it's not a secret
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I want to be your girlfriend
I can see the way, I see the way you look at me
And even when you look away I know you think of me
I know you talk about me all the time again and again
So come over here, tell me what I want to hear
Better yet make your girlfriend disappear
I don't want to hear you say her name ever again
(And again and again and again!)
She's like so whatever
And you could do so much better
I think we should get together now
And that's what everyone's talking about!
No way! No way!
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I know that you like me
No way! No way!
You know it's not a secret
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I want to be your girlfriend
"Hey; Hey. You; You! I know that you like me. No way, no way! You know it's not a secret. Hey; Hey. You; You! I want to be your girlfriend…" I sung in tune to the pianos rhythm. I shut my eyes playing completely by ear, "No way, no way; hey, hey!" My other senses picked up Snape entering the room other then my sight considering I was both facing the piano and with my eyes closed. "Come in sit down, listen and shut up!" I said before I launched into the song. I sensed rather then saw his shocked and slightly outraged look on his face until the first few notes were played then his emotions started changing towards the music. I can see the way, I see the way you look at me
And even when you look away I know you think of me I know you talk about me all the time again and again So come over here, tell me what I want to hear Better yet make your girlfriend disappear I don't want to hear you say her name ever again (And again and again and again!) She's like so whatever And you could do so much better I think we should get together now And that's what everyone's talking about! Hey! Hey! You! You! I don't like your girlfriend! No way! No way! I think you need a new one Hey! Hey! You! You! I could be your girlfriend Hey! Hey! You! You! I know that you like me No way! No way! You know it's not a secret Hey! Hey! You! You! I want to be your girlfriend. In a second you'll be wrapped around my finger
Cause I can, cause I can do it better There's no other So when's it gonna sink in? She's so stupid What the hell were you thinking?! He was staring at me by the time I had finished the song, my body dancing on the stool, hips swaying; fingers flying over the keys in a bond with my emotions.
"You… You… You can actually play piano…" He stated in complete shock, I smirked and spun around on the chair.
"Yeah but you already knew that… How about a deal, I help you with piano, you help me with potions… Deal?"
He growled, eyes narrowing, then his eyes glazed over from staring behind me towards the piano, "Deal… I'll meet you each Friday night at 9pm…"
I smirked then said, "Indeed, and I'll meet you in the Potion's classroom Wednesday night at 7:30pm…"