Kokoro
Hi Everyone! Before we start, I would just like to give you a warning
THIS SHALL BE FILLED WITH ANGST!
There, now that thats out of the way, please enjoy this story. I have written it a little differently, because it will be all Yuuki's POV, but occasionally flick to Zero's...AND -for once- this story will take place BEFORE Yuuki is turned into a pureblood.
** I do NOT own Vampire Knight. Matsuri Hino, the sadist does**
* Yuuki *
Bm-Bmp,Bm-Bmp,Bm-Bmp...
The heart beat is fading...Every monotonous beat seems to lose a little flicker of light...Eyes glaze over, locked on some unseen entity...My heart is cold, freezing over ever so slowly...My heartbeat moves my body, I shudder slightly, feeling the numbing sensation clasp my heart. My throat closes, I writhe and struggle to breathe...It's no use though. My heartbeat suddenly speeds up again, pounding wildly in my chest. I get lightheaded, and start drifting to another reality...I stand up, and blindly move for the door. The hollow feeling pierces my chest, growing stronger, gripping my heart with a vice. Then, without warning, my heart bursts inside my chest almost, I stagger, and collapse onto the cold, hard ground. My body moves, but not of my own will. My heartbeat staggers, the hollow pain grows even stronger...The heart implodes again, I lurch again, clawing at my chest. My fingernails rip my skin open, sending waves of pain through my body. I claw at my throat, feeling the skin tear open. Hot blood runs down my neck, burning the fresh wounds I created. My hands go to my arms, and I grasp them tightly, and curl into a ball. My nails dig into my flesh again, the biting pain only adding to my shaking. One tear starts making it's way down my face, followed by another, and another
...
Then...everything is still...
Everything is normal...Quiet...Peaceful
Only a small twinge remains, to remind me of what has happened...
I remember what happened earlier that day. My thoughts linger over the feelings, the sensations. But I can't think of that right now. I must be strong, even though I don't have much time left...How will I break this to him? I can't imagine what will happen when I finally tell him...Tell the one man I fell in love with so long ago...That I only have 20 days, before my heart gives up on me, sealing me in silence...
Dai Suki, Zero...Soshite...Gomen-nasai
-72 hours earlier -
"ZERO!" I called out, before landing on him, tugging on his hair. His eyes snapped open, and once peaceful brows, were set in their world-weary crease. He looks mild- very annoyed with me. I merely grin, and get off of him. After, I extened my hand towords him, offering to help him up. He completly overlooks this gesture, and gets up himself. Turning around, he glares at me.
" Yuuki, what the hell were you thinking?"
I grinned again, and said
" You need to wake up! Class is over, it's time to make our nightly rounds"!
He groaned, and trudged over to the Night Class gates. With many glares from Zero's end, and frantic pushing from mine, we suceeded in keeping the Day Class girls at bay. I got knocked over in the process though. Brushing off my uniform, and standing back up, I blew my whistle. The girls covered their ears, and pouted/wailed at me. I merely proceeded to push them back. If they ever jumped one of the Night Class students...Bad things could happen...
Finally, Zero got pissed off enough to bellow
" ALL DAY CLASS STUDENTS BACK TO YOUR DORMS NOW! OR YOU'LL ALL HAVE DETENTION FOR A WEEK!"
It worked like a dream. The girls scampered away from him and soon, the courtyard was clear. We glanced at the building, bathing in the golden sunset, before turning in opposite directions. I saluted him, and jogged off to make a perimeter. The air had turned cold with the evening. All the trees were rustling in the breeze, along with the tall flowers and vines. I looked around, and seeing nothing but empty darkness, ran along. An owl hooted, startling me. My heartbeat sped up, pounding in my chest. After circling around again, my hand on Artemis, I calm down. I walk now, still trying to calm down. I walked slowly, taking in the sights. The sky was a mixture of indigo and cerulean, with the full moon hovering low in the blankets of thin clouds. I couldn't see the stars yet, which made me a little sad. I sighed, and ran my hand through my short brunette hair. When I peered out into the forest again, I saw, as before, just utter blackness. It made me a tad uneasy, and I gripped my arms gently.
The wind picked up, and froze me. I suddenly wished I had a certain someone with me. He was warm and gentle, though cold and unyielding on the outside. I picked up my pace, and ran across the open field with the cast iron gate shooting down the middle. I glanced up briefly. The moon was floating high in the sky, softly illuminating the world below. a countless amount of stars were smattered equally against the midnight sky. I ran faster, warming myself up. I heard a crack in the forest, and froze in my tracks. Another followed, and without another breath, I uncapped Artemis, brandishing it. I heard a 'whoosh ' behind me. I pivoted sharply, and looked all around. I cna feel my blood churning, and my grip on Artemis gets tighter. I pivot again, scanning the void of light , looking for movement. My breath catches when I see a pair glowing red eyes. I watch in horror as a figure slowly emerges from the darkness. His hair is knotted and nails are like talons. The slasher smile only increases my terror. Yet I can only utter a single phrase as he advances on me.
" Level E..."
He laughs, a horrible psycotic laugh. Licking his extended fangs, he looks at me, scruitinizing me.
" You look good, little girl. Give me your delicious blood!" And he charged at me. His moves were lighting fast, and almost instantly, he clawed my arm. Stopping to lick the spare drops of blood on his horrid, jagged fingernails, he squealed in delight. I grasped my arm, feeling the blood drip down my wrist. But biting my lip, I held Artemis again. He came at me again, each move spastic and unorganised.
A wild beast...Drivin past the brink of insanity...
I slash at him with Artemis, and I cut his fingernails off. He howled in pain, before moving in an even more sporatic way. I manage to jab him in the shoulder. I delivered a heavy dose of electricity to his abdomen. But then I felt another set of hands grab my throat, and slam me into the ground. A fist hits my chest, while the other clamps down even harder. I look into a twin set of crazed eyes. The first guy gets in my face, and runs his fangs down to my throat. I squeeze my eyes shut, while coughing hard. I felt the tip of his fang sink into my neck...
... They dig deeper...
BANG!
He explodes into dust. The vampire strangling me barely has time to blink before Zero fires another round directy in the middle of his forehead. My neck was released, and I coughed uncontrollably. Zero was at my side in an instant, lilac eyes clouded over with concern. My eyes are watering as the adrenaline rush wears off. I shiver, and hug my sides.
" Yuuki..." was all he said before scooping me into his arms. I couldn't help but cling to his chest. I blearily looked up at him, before pressing my face into his chest. I sobbed, and wrapped my arms around his neck. His grip around me tightened, drawing me closer. I felt his body warmth seeping through his jacket, mingling with his scent. I felt a strange sense of calm wash over me. I put my ear over Zero's heart, and listened to the steady " Ba-Bump, Ba-Bump " in his chest. His steps were almost in time with that beat, rockimg me to sleep. I could only revel in the feeling of protection and comfort Zero provided. He brought me to his dorm, and went inside the bathroom. After setting me on the counter, he turned to get a washcloth. I missed his warmth immediatly. But he returned after a few seconds. I watched him take off his jacket, and roll his sleeves up, before filling the sink with warm water. He looked at me, eyes filled with an emotion I couldn't place. I stared into his eyes, trying to see into his soul. But I saw nothing but a diamond strength mask, with padlocks almost. His heart was a heart closed to me. I looked down at my lap, hands clenched.
" Yuuki...Take your jacket off. I need to wash your wound". His low silky voice pulled me from my reverie. I complied, taking off my semi-shredded jacket. With a gentle touch, he rolled my bloodied sleeve up , revealing my gash. With extreme care, he dabbed around the skin, removing the blood. I winced when he accidentally pressed into my wound. He murmured an apology, before rinsing around it some more. After a while, he cleaned my arm wound. Then, he pulled my bloodstained collar back. I grimaced when I heard his breathe in sharply.
" He bit you"? His voice was edged in vemon. I looked at him weakly, before nodding.
Silence reinged in the room then. I figeted with my skirt, rubbing my hands together. The, I was encompassed in Zero's arms. I was pressed to his warmth, and I quicly wrapped my arms around his abdomen. He had one hand on my back, and the other on my head.
" I'm so sorry, Yuuki...If only I had gotten there sooner...I'm sorry"
I looked up at him, and I tried to say something, but he pressed his finger on my lips.
" Don't make excuses for me, Yuuki. Just forgive me." He sounded heartbroken almost. He let go of me, and without another word, wiped the blood off my neck. After dressing my various cuts, bruises and other injuries, he picked me up again.
"Zero, I can walk you know"I said, trying to lighten his stern expression. He stopped, and without looking at me, said
" Just let me do this for you ." He started walking me to my dorm room. I didn't say anything, I only snuggled into his arms more. I felt a faint fluttering in my chest. I looked down, and placed a hand over my heart. The fluttering only lasted for a moment though. We arrived at my dorm. He opened my door, and walked in. After setting me down on my bed, he stood up. I grabbed his hand, holding it firmly. He looked down at me, before stooping down, and hugging me again. My heart fluttered some more, but I ignored it. After he hugged me, he whispered " Sweet dreams " in my ear. Then, he left. I stared at my door for a minute, befre gingerly standing up to change into my nightdress. I clambered into my bed, and pulled the covers over me. I thought of the nights events, particularly the fluttering. It bugged me a little, but I shrugged it off.
Bm-Bmp, Bm-Bmp, Bm-Bmp..Bm-BMP! BM-BM-BM-BMP! BU-bmp...bu...-bump...BMP!BMP!BMP!BM-BMP!
I clutched at my chest, tossing in my bed. The fluttering ceased soon after. I sat upright, clutching at my chest. There was a hollowness in my chest almost. I looked around, and sat there. After a while, I laid back down, and slowly drifted off to sleep.
Bm-Bmp
Bm-Bmp
Bm-Bmp
~ Twenty Two days left ~
A/N- Well...I'm guessing your going to be mad at me for that...But...I have some consolation to offer! I'll really move my butt on this one, so you don't have to wait!
Please review! It makes my heart happy!
Goodnight!