Angel isn't a vampire yet and there both in high school teen angst and torn relationships
What hurts the most?
Today had to be one of the roughest days I have faced yet. My whole world completely was torn away from me and I hadn't noticed it in till it was too late.
I walked from study hall with willow and Xander. They were both in a frenzy because one of the teachers had set them an asseiment and they were paired up, of course willow was in change and Xander followed. We walked to the library to see if Giles was there but he wasn't , willow thought this was a perfect opportunity to get some work done so she said she would meet up with me later and then both Xander and Willow went on their hunt for something or another.
I left the library and walked across the yard and under the arch ways. Today seem to be a normal day sun was shining it was a nice humid warmth and everything felt calm, I so pose now it was safe but later as always in Sunnydale everything would change and the once the calm sunny little town would turn in to a town of disspare and darkness in till of course I took over and put the undead vamps back to there eternal slumbers. I always did find that I good slaying before bed took all the cares of boys and school away not just a angry I couldn't realize.
I kept walking from each arch way and pillar that's when I saw them. Liam Angelus and Cordiella chase better known as Angel and Corzilla (ok maybe not so much Corzilla but to me she was.She made my blood boil and skin crawl) it's fair to say I hate her and have done scence I moved to Sunnydale. Usually I didn't or don't get jealous of girl or what they have but this girl was different seen as she had the only object of my affection I have ever truly been in love with in my entire life, and that was Angel. But of course neither she nor anyone else never new about my out of this world infatuation to him. I'm not the type of girl who allows her self to fall in love …bad things always happen when I do.
I watched from a far. They were holding each other and she was tight in his embrace. If only that was me I thought to myself I wondered what it would feel like back in his embrace would he still be warm and almost homely if only for a moment. I guess now I would never no... What I had before was long gone and never to be mine again. To angel and myself it was no secret that in the past we had something but him and myself sworn never to speak of it. You see when I first came to Sunnydale I was quite and low key trying to just live life like a normal teenager but of course as always a boy would have to come into the equation which would turn my life in even more turmoil. I guess I was just like any of the other girl in Sunnydale High when it came to Angel. He was everything that a girl would want and he knew it. It wasn't any surprise that when he wasn't with Cordy he was with any girl that was to throw herself at him. The only reason in all honesty they were together was because they looked good and most the time the affection they where to show each other was just for Cordy to let people acknowledge that he was hers and only hers. Bottom line was she didn't love him she just played him. Most of the girls took their chance but got shot down but not before him making them believe that they loved him which wasn't always his fault it was just what he was capable to do, although of course I would be lying if I was saying he didn't use it to his advantage. As you can properly guess I was soon to be one of these girls although this time it didn't play out like it usually does it was… I guess turned around. It wasn't something I intended on happening in fact even though I had feeling for him I would never allow them to surface in fact I would lie to myself when it came to him, I think that was the reason why he was the one to start the torment that followed me I didn't want to love him it just happened and I still wish to this day the feels would go.
Because now whenever I saw them together I was on the verge of crying or killing her.i turned around leaned against the pillar and tried to hold back my tears but I couldn't. For a good few minutes silent tears where running down my face. A few people saw but I didn't care I tried to hide them after a while but it didn't work. Eventually I pulled myself together. I left my pillar and went to walk to class and of course they would have to pass me. There was three girls I didn't recognize gigerling when they saw him and practically staring at his ass while he passed with Cordy.All she did was turn give them a look and pull him in to a kiss.