Hello! Welcome to my small fic. This was suppose to be a very angsty Add story but some how it became a one word drabble. The story will be centered around Add and with cameos from the Elgang! Hope you all like it, and Reviews will be loved!
Warning: Will contain swearing, violence, straight/homosexual shippings. There are NO specific pairings in this story.
Monochrome Monologue
"The past may dictate who we are, but we get to determine what we become."
1) Escape
He wondered what would happen if he didn't escape from that hell hole. Would he still be alive? The simple answer would have been no, but Add couldn't help himself but keep on pondering about it. He kept on wondering during his insomnia, during his breaks, during missions, during showers and almost every single breathing moments. Why? Because it was his motivation to live, his anchor to his insanity.
2) Monochrome
The world is either white or black. There was no inbetweens, that is what his younger self believed. But as Add grew up and learn the truth about reality and the world he is in, he realize that the world is more than simple white and black. There is no good people and there is no bad people. Because he isn't white nor black. He is grey. He is a bad person but yet with a good intent at heart.
3) Blood
Add hated the colour red with a burning passion, maybe because it reminded him of that moronic Elsword. But because it reminded him of his parents. White stained with pools of crimson red. It made him felt angry, angry at why he couldn't do something to prevent it. But now the crimson blood red made him happy, excited, because it is evidence of his power. The blood of his enemies is the prize after his hard work of getting this power. It tells him that now is he no longer who he is back in the past, he is a new person. Stronger and better than before.
4) Secret
Everyone has a secret that they can't tell. And Add is no exception to it. He has a dark secret himself that no one should know, and he makes sure that no one knows about it. Until they reached the Underground Chapel. Now his secret of being afraid of ghosts are out for everyone to be laughed at and mock. But surprisingly no one did mock him for it. He was glad but he wondered why, was it because of pity or understanding?
5) Magic
It is one of the greatest mysterious in the whole world. How is Lunatic a magic class and yet Mastermind a physical class? The Elgang wondered and wondered and even had made some outrageous theories about it. But both Lunatic and Mastermind turns a blind eye to the bunch of morons (especially the red one). Why? Because it amuses them. They'll never tell them their secrets, sometimes you should just never judge a book by it's cover.
6) Clean
Add can not believe that such an obnoxious, annoying, moronic, simple minded person could ever exist on the world. He does not understand what part of "don't touch me you filthy mongrel" does Elsword not understand. Now his usually perfectly white and clean lab coat is filthy with that moronic dumbass' germs - Add briefly wonders if the other's stupidity is contagious - and dirt. With a defeated and annoyed sigh, Add took his lab coat off and stared at his coat sadly. Hopefully it doesn't stain, because as clean freak (though he refuse to admit it), Add would murder that moron and wash his coat in his goddamn blood.
7) Lost
He's lost, and he won't admit that he's lost. Looking around Add could not find his supposed team mates. Oh well, its not like he needs them anyways. He works faster and better by himself anyways, but what he did not expect is to see a ghost standing one meter from him. Well fuck. This is the rare time where Add wish those annoying teammates of his to be here, although he is now nineteen, he is still afraid of ghost like a five year old. Some things will never change.
8) Cry
The first and last time Add had cry was when his parent died. After that incident he had never shed a single tear, or was it that he couldn't? His heart had became too broken and cold to even feel any emotions, his had cried all his tears out and now nothing is left. Besides, crying is for weaklings, and Add is no longer the weakling that he is when he was little. He had grown up and had became much more powerful than before. But he did cry, he cried when the Elgang celebrated his birthday with him. He didn't even know how they knew about his birthday because he didn't even remember it himself. That was the first time Add had cried tears that had nothing but joy in them.
9) Puppy Love
Love is such a tedious thing, he never did understand the concept of the thing called love. But yet it amuses him, he could see it, those puppy eyes from the red headed moron. And it was no surprise to him that those love filled eyes are directed at the purple hair mage. But it was a bit sad because Elsword had become blind to a certain somebody. Add notice those lingering and longing stares from Eve and of course she loved the red hair moron, but as usual, he only has eyes for the purple hair mage. It's quite amusing to watch, this triangle love. But Add doesn't care about this silly puppy love, he has better things to do.
10) Sleep
First it was Rena, then it was Chung. Was it that noticeable? Sleep is for the weak and Add has better things to do than sleep. He has research, planning, sample collecting and other fancy things to do. Sleep is time consuming and useless. Then again it is not like he can sleep in the first place anyways, nightmares always and forever will haunt him. What is the point of sleeping when it rejects you every single time? So what if he got a few minutes of rest before jostle out of the peaceful slumber due to his nightmares? He finds it annoying how concern they are about him, he is a hundred percent sure that actually no one cares but does it on an act of pity. Add doesn't need sleep and damn he does not need anyone's pity.