A/N: So, I'm not sure if I'm going to expand this into a short multi-chapter or not. I kind of want to because I've got all sorts of ideas for these two. It might be a bit of a wait though because I'm working hard on completing Stumbling Home. So for now, I hope you enjoy this smutty little O/S
I do not own twilight or its characters.
"Hey, Bella, are you alright?" I asked after knocking gently on her closed door. She didn't answer, but I could hear her muffled sobs on the other side of the door. "Bella, love, I'm coming in. Okay?"
Without waiting for her to answer I eased the door open slowly. I peered in and saw the pathetic sight of my sweet girl curled up on her bed. She looked exhausted and so weary. Her eyes were rimmed in red, her cheeks were wet and flushed, and her hair was a wild mess of curls. Anyone else would look like a crazy mess in this state, but of course Bella looked sexy as fuck in her tiny tank top and sleep shorts. She looked over at me sniffling, clearly trying to calm herself now that I was here to witness her breakdown.
"Bella, baby, what happened?" I asked as I joined her on the bed. I couldn't help myself I had to comfort her in any way I could. Pushing the hair back from her sweet face, I began to gently stroke her head.
She looked up at me with watery eyes, so beautiful even in her sadness. "I'm going to be alone forever," she whispered.
My brow furrowed in confusion. I couldn't take the distance any longer. I scooped her up and cradled her on my lap as I leaned against her plush headboard. Alice had made this room over before she moved. A parting gift to her favorite roommate. I had to give it to her, the room was insanely comfortable and totally Bella.
"Baby what are you talking about? What happened to make you so sad?" I asked anxiously as I continued to stroke her hair.
She clung to me as a soft shudder passed through her body. I pulled a small blanket from her bed and wrapped it around us. After a moment she spoke, her voice soft and rough from crying. "Alice and Rose set me up with some guy they knew from Alice's theater group. I didn't even want to go, but you guys all had dates tonight and they were so pushy about it I finally relented." She paused and wiped her face on the corner of the blanket. My heart broke at the idea of her going out with some asshole because the rest of us were out passing the time with some girls Emmett had set us up with. I was back early because the chick he'd dug up for me, Jessica, was unbearably clingy and bitchy. I extracted myself as soon as I could and I was so glad I had.
Her soft voice continued, interrupting my thoughts, "So I let Alice set me up with James, against my better judgement. The asshole made me wait twenty minutes at Carney's; I was just about to leave when he finally showed up. I tried to give him a chance, but he just kept trying to grab my tits at every turn. I think he was drunk when he showed up, to be honest. To make matters worse, he found the waitress equally enticing and was pawing at her ass, which she didn't seem to mind. Anyhow, I excused myself, saying I needed the bathroom and left the creepy groper to himself."
I was floored. Bella was literally the most beautiful woman I knew. She was kind, funny and smart as hell. I knew she didn't date much, but she always seemed so intensely focused on her studies; it seemed like she didn't have time for dating.
"Baby, I'm sorry. Do you want me to kick his ass?" I asked.
"No, he's not worth it," she giggled, though I'd been perfectly serious. Bella was one of my best friends and I didn't like people fucking with my friends. Honestly if it hadn't been for that stupid pact the five of us had made when we asked her to move in with us three years ago, I would have made a move on her ages ago. But I'd given my word, we all had, that I wouldn't fuck up our living situation by getting romantically involved with Bella. It seemed the only solution when we all wanted her.
"Okay I understand you had a shitty night, but why does it make you think you'll be alone forever. That seems like a dramatic response to one douchebag don't you think?" I asked, looking down at her sad face, ghosting my fingers across her damp cheek.
She gazed up at me, her eyes wide and pained, "I don't know. It feels like I only attract pricks. Anyone worthwhile seems to see me as more of a sister than a potential girlfriend."
My breath hitched at the pleading look in her eyes. It took every ounce of my control to keep myself from kissing her in that moment. She needed to know that she was so worth loving, so wanted.
"Love, you are so beautiful and sexy." I said kissing her nose instead of her soft full lips like I wanted to. "You are so smart, sweet and funny as hell." I dropped another kiss on her forehead. "Anyone would be foolish not to see what an amazing catch you are."
I pulled back again, meeting her eyes so that she could read the sincerity there. We remained like that for long moment, our eyes locked. She seemed to be searching for something as she stared intently at me. Her hand came up and softly caressed my cheek. I couldn't help but lean into her palm. A contented sigh escaped me before I could suppress it. My body had been fighting this attraction for years and now that she was this close to me some of my reactions were beyond my control.
Something new flashed in her eyes, bewilderment mixed with determination, maybe. I wasn't sure, but in the next moment she leaned in and pressed her soft lips to mine. I was helpless against such temptation. I returned her kiss with all of the love and lust I had been containing for years. And Bella met my lips with equal intensity. I pulled her full bottom lip into my mouth and nibbled on it like I'd longed to for ages. These lips that had haunted me for so long tasted just as sweet as I imagined they would. She moaned softly as I slid my tongue into her warm mouth. She moved across my lap as I caressed her tongue with my own. With her legs straddling my hips my hands instinctively found their way to her luscious thighs.
I loved Bella's body. It had tormented me for years. She was a tiny little thing with delicious curvy legs and the most amazing ass I'd ever seen. She had this sweet innocence that made you think of one of those coy, forties pinups with impossible proportions. Without my permission, my hands slid up further under the soft, tiny shorts she was wearing and grasped her perfect ass. I groaned as I realized she wasn't wearing anything under her shorts. Bella moaned and ground herself against my painfully hard erection, causing my hips to buck up in response.
Something in that movement made both of us suddenly aware of how quickly things had escalated. We each pulled back, our eyes locked as we each fought to control our breathing. The tiniest smirk on her lips was all the encouragement I needed; I lunged forward, capturing her lips again and pushing her back onto the bed. I hovered above her, my hips resting between her legs as I continued to explore her delicious mouth. I felt her hands travel down my chest and rest at my waist. It took me a second to realize that she'd started undoing my belt.
I pulled back to catch her eye again. She looked so certain, I decided to stop questioning this. I leaned down and kissed along her jaw and down her throat. Just as I was beginning to leave open, wet kisses along her cleavage, I felt my pants come lose. I helped her slide them down my hips, but I got distracted by her glorious tits. Her tank top had pulled down as we struggled with my jeans, and her left nipple was now peeking out. I captured it in my lips and sucked on the hardened nub. Bella moaned out my name in response which was my new favorite sound. Her top came off quickly after that and I had to take a moment to appreciate my first unobstructed view of her breasts. I traced my fingers lightly over the subtle tattoo under her right breast. I wanted to ask her about it, but now wasn't the time.
"Edward," she whined, letting me know how impatient she was getting.
I smirked at the sound and whipped my t-shirt off and tossing it across the room before pulling my pants and boxers the rest of the way off. I reached down and slid her little shorts off slowly. I wanted to savor her; I'd waited so long.
"Baby, you are so fucking gorgeous." I said, leaning down and kissing her navel. "Do you have any idea how fucking sexy you are?" Instead of answering me she moaned loudly as my fingers slid down to tease her dripping wet lower lips. I let my tongue travel along her navel and down to the top of her bare pussy. She smelled amazing, sweet and musky. I couldn't wait any longer. My tongue plunged into her wet heat and I was lost. I was dimly aware of Bella's hands gripping my hair and pulling me against her. I sucked and licked her swollen clit as she writhed beneath me. I slipped my arm beneath her and lifted her hips to give me better access. My fingers slid into her and I began to thrust them in sync with my mouth on her clit. Her moans got louder and felt her inner walls begin to quiver around my fingers. Adding a third finger I bit down slightly on her swollen clit causing Bella to clutch my head against her as she came hard around my fingers.
Continuing to lick and suck gently, I let her ride out her orgasm. I slid my fingers out of her and licked them clean. Bella watched me with hooded eyes. She seemed dazed as she watched my movements. Gripping my arm she guided me back up her body attacking my lips with a searing kiss. Her hand gripped firmly around my cock. The suddenness of her move caught me off guard and I bucked into her fisted hand.
"Fuck baby," I cried as she pumped me with languid strokes.
"I need you inside me now," she stated with conviction. I could only nod and groan in response as she continued to work my cock with her hand.
"Condom?" I asked. I really didn't want to run down the hall to my room right now, but I somehow doubted she kept any in her room.
"I'm covered and clean…" she said simply.
It took me a moment to realize what she was offering. "I'm clean. I promise." I said. "Baby are you sure? I can grab one from down the hall."
"I'm sure. I want to feel you inside me. Only you." God I loved this girl. She owned me. I wanted to tell her, but that was scary as fuck and I wasn't sure I could handle her rejection if it freaked her out. Instead I opted to show her. I kissed her deeply, trying to communicate everything I felt for this amazing creature into the kiss. As our lips slowed, I lined myself up at her entrance and began slowly pushing inside her warmth. She was so fucking tight. We moaned in unison as I entered her fully. I stilled above her for a moment, just savoring the warmth and completeness I felt. I placed soft kisses along her neck as I started slowly thrusting my hips. As we began to move together, it felt so natural, so right. I wanted to tell her everything. I wanted to tell her how I'd wanted her from the moment I saw her. And how I'd loved her before I'd known her a week. I wanted to tell her how hard it was to stay away from her and that there hadn't been anyone else since I'd met her. I wanted to tell her everything, but the words got lost in our movements.
I was lost in Bella moaning my name as she gripped my shoulders and locked her ankles behind my back, pulling me harder against her. My hand gripping her hip slid down to grasp her perfect ass.
"Yes!" she cried as my fingers slid between her cheeks and caressed her gently there. Her eyes were dark and the look on her face was nearly frantic with lust. I'd never seen anything more beautiful in my life.
"Harder!" She cried desperately, "Please Edward! More!"
Something primal in me took over at her pleas and I began thrusting hard and fast into her small body. She met my thrust with equal passion. Unrestrained moans spilling from each of our lips. When I felt her walls begin to flutter around my cock I knew she was close.
"That's it baby. Come for me" I groaned low in her ear. " I want to feel you come on my cock." At that she cried out as her body shuddered. Her grip on my body tightened as her nails dug into my back. My own thrusts became erratic as I came hard inside her.
Our labored breathing was the only sound remaining in the room. Bella's grip on my back with her arms and legs loosened, but she didn't let go. I pulled back from the comfortable spot at her neck that I'd nuzzled my face into. Her expression was slightly dazed, but also apprehensive, cautious. I hated the uncertainty I found, but I knew it was my fault and I had to fix it as soon as possible. I'd spent the last few years pushing this beautiful creature away despite my love for her. Of course she's confused.
I leaned down and placed a slow loving kiss on her lips. I need her to know how I felt, even if she couldn't return my feelings. She should never doubt mine again. I pulled myself from her body and she whimpered in response. I lifted her to the center of the bed and draped the blankets on top of us before pressing her firmly against me.
"Bella, I never meant for that to happen, but I don't regret it. Do you?" I asked quietly as I stroked her hair.
She lifted her head slightly from my chest to catch my eye, "I could never regret that Edward. Never." She said quietly, but fiercely.
I smiled softly. "Good." I swallowed deeply, steeling myself for her reaction. "There's something else you need to know." I paused to gather my courage. Her breath caught and her face looked so vulnerable. Any apprehension I felt was pushed aside by concern for her. I needed to man up and tell her or she would assume the worst. "Bella, I…I love you. I've been so in love with you for so long. I know you probably don't feel the same way for me. I just need you to know that, so that there's no confusion."
Her forehead scrunched up and I could see all the questions forming, but she seemed to be having trouble verbalizing them. Her mouth opened and she inhaled as if she was about to speak, but nothing came out. It was excruciating waiting for her to gather her thoughts. After more than a minute of silence I couldn't take it anymore.
"Bella, you're killing me here. Please say something," I begged.
"but how?" she asked, "You always kept things so very….brotherly. You give me nuggies and call me kiddo, even though I'm only four years younger than you!" uh oh, Bella was getting pissed. This was not a good sign. Bella didn't get angry often, but when she did you better watch the fuck out. She sat up so that she was leaning on her elbow and looking down at me. I tried not to let my eyes wander down to her bare chest, but it was fucking impossible to ignore.
"Edward, we've lived together for three years! And you made it very clear to me, on more than one occasion that you did not find me the least bit attractive!" she accused.
I looked down, knowing she was right, but unsure of how to handle her anger. I wasn't sure what I expected, rejection maybe, but not this. I couldn't remember seeing her this pissed before and I had a feeling she was just getting going.
"Seriously Edward! Last New Years! I kissed you and you fucking turned your head and gave me your cheek!" I winced at the memory. Bella had been drinking and I was pretty sober because I was keeping an eye on her as usual.
"Bella you'd had a lot to drink that night. It was so hard to push you away, but I had to. You see that right?"
"No I don't see that! Last summer at the beach you flirted with that blond chick all day and fucking left me with that asshat Mike while you went and made out with her in the water. Then you left with her and I had to get a ride home with Rose and Alice. Excuse me if I have trouble believing you're in love with me!" Damn, that sounded bad when she put it like that!
"Hey, that's not how I saw that day happening, okay." I pleaded with my eyes for her to see my side of things. "Alice told me how you and that Mike douche were dating and I believed her. I may have been a bit jealous and acted stupidly with that blond chick. Her name was Kate by the way and she was really nice and understanding when I apologized for using her later that day. I felt horrible for treating her and you like that. Kate was cool. She said she could see how into you I was and that she was just having fun making out with me with no expectations. I know it was stupid, Bella, but it fucking hurt to see you with him! I didn't know until much later that Alice was full of shit and that you didn't want to date that kid. I'm sorry if I hurt you."
Her eyes softened a bit at my explanation and I raised my palm to her face, caressing her cheek gently. "Why did you do it, though?" she asked. "Why did you push me away if you felt so strongly for me?"
I sat up against the headboard, raking my fingers through my hair. "Fuck Bella, I have a feeling you are not going to like what I have to tell you." She sat up further and to my disappointment pulled the sheet up around her torso hiding herself from me. I sighed and continued. "When we first met you, when you first came asking about the open room in the house, we almost didn't rent the room to you." She looked surprised and a little hurt at this. I could tell she was going to interrupt me so I placed my fingers on her lips and said, "Just let me get through this, okay?" She nodded and I continued, "Like I was saying, we almost didn't rent the room to you because we all found you extremely attractive and we knew there would be issues if you started dating someone in the house. Someone, I think it was Jasper, suggested that we should just all agree not to pursue anything romantic or sexual with you. That you were completely off limits to us and that would help us avoid any issues. I know it sounds stupid…it probably was really stupid. But we all thought it made sense at the time.
"That was before I realized that I wasn't just attracted to you. When I realized that I loved you I probably should have just come clean with everyone, but I didn't think you could feel the same way about me so it didn't seem like much of an issue."
She was quiet for a long moment. At some point she'd taken my hand on her lap and started toying with my fingers. She looked down at my hand and continued her absentminded touches as she considered my confession.
Suddenly she snorted. I looked up at in confusion as she started to giggle uncontrollably.
"What's so funny?" I asked.
"Oh. My. God." she said between gasps of laughter. "You're the only one who actually followed through on the pact. You're too honorable for your own good!" she kept laughing, but as the meaning behind her words sunk in I felt my stomach drop.
"You mean you've hooked up with other people in the house?" I asked, unable to keep the hurt out of my voice.
Her laughter stopped immediately. "No, I just meant that they all tried at one point or another to get in my pants. They were all unsuccessful…until now."
I couldn't help the crooked grin that crossed my face.
"Well, I did make out with Alice and Rose once when I was having a really rough time, but it didn't feel right. They wanted me to try a threesome with them, but they're so in love with each other, I just found the whole thing depressing. Like I was getting a peek into something special, but I'd never really be a part of it, you know? Anyhow, we just shared a few drunken kisses and I may have fondled Rose's gorgeous tata's a bit, but that's all." She just shrugged and looked up at me as if we were discussing this week's grocery list.
I'm sure I looked like an idiot with my mouth agape and my eyes wide, but really, how was I supposed to react to that!
When I regained my wits I shook my head a bit and said, "Okay so we'll get back to that story at another time." She just rolled her eyes at that. "You're telling me that every single one of our roommates has made a play for you and I'm the only one who took that pact shit seriously?!"
"Well, Jasper hits on me whenever he breaks up with a girl. He gets all melancholy and asks if I want to enter into a friends with benefits arrangement with him. Obviously I've told him no. As for Emmett, he gets really affectionate when he's drunk. He's tried to get into my pants pretty much every time we've partied together. It's one of the reasons I don't go out with you guys anymore. I know it doesn't mean anything to him. I'm just female and convenient."
"Wow. I'm gonna fucking kill those guys for making me agree to that shit. They know I wouldn't go back on my word. And they made such a big fucking deal about how jealousy could break our friendship. God, even Alice, who made me feel like I could never be worthy of you because I was such a whore the first couple years after I moved out here. She told me you weren't the kind of girl who would go for a player like me. That shit hurt…" I trialed off, trying to calm myself down before I became too pissed at my friends. It hadn't escaped my notice that Bella still hadn't responded to my confession of love. She'd only questioned it.
After another moment of quiet between us she asked, "You thought you weren't worthy of me because of your past?"
I shrugged, "Baby, from the time I was nineteen until pretty much the day I met you, I would sleep with anyone I found remotely attractive and willing. I never led girls on, but I also wasn't interested in anything more. I'm not proud of it and I honestly haven't slept with anyone since the day I met you-"
"You haven't had sex with anyone since you met me?" she asked incredulously.
"Well not until tonight… no." I responded nervously. Maybe she missed the part where I'd said I was madly in love with her and had been since I'd known her. How could I fuck someone else when all I could think of was her? I'm not that big of an asshole.
"But you go on so many dates. What about all those girls?"
"Emmett's always dragging me out with him, mostly playing wingman. I never went home with any of them. Early on I tried to kiss a couple of girls, but it just felt…wrong. So I kept things really casual, friendly, but nothing more. Emmett and Jasper never noticed, they were just looking to hook up with whoever they were with."
"But what about Tanya? You dated her for a month." She asked confused.
"I tried with Tanya, I really did. She was so…enthusiastic." I paused, trying to sort out my thoughts. "That was about a year after you moved in. I thought you were heading home for the summer and I could use the time to get over you. Tanya had been flirting with me and asking me out for months. Finally, I just gave in.
"We went out on dates, but I always kept my distance, ending the night with a kiss on the cheek. At first I think she thought I was just being a gentleman, taking it slow because she meant something to me. In reality, I couldn't stomach anything more with her. And then you got that internship and decided to stay the summer. When I went out with her I couldn't think of anything but getting back here to you so we could hang out.
"I let it drag on so much longer than I should have. She never really cared for me, that's why it took so long for her to get annoyed about the complete lack of physical intimacy in our relationship. She decided that I was gay. She told me she was okay with that and offered to marry me and be my beard as long as I kept her in a comfortable lifestyle and didn't make her sign a pre-nup."
Soft giggles surprised me. "I'm sorry," Bella laughed, "it's just that I was so upset about you and Tanya getting serious that I got drunk and made out with Alice and Rose." She was full out laughing now and I just stared back at her in shock.
"Why were you upset about me dating Tanya?" I asked, interrupting her laughter.
"Well I was jealous, of course," she stated simply, as if it were completely obvious.
"Bella," I wrapped my arm around her waist and pulled her flush against my side. "Are you saying you had feelings for me?" I asked hopefully.
She looked down shyly and said quietly, "Yes." Looking up at me through dark lashes she bit her lip and then made the ache in my chest loosen with her next words. "I've always had feelings for you, Edward. I love you too. I've loved you since that first night you helped me unpack my books and we talked about literature until three in the morning. How could I not fall in love with you after that?"
I took her face between my hands and kissed her soft lips slowly, lovingly. I wanted her to feel in our kiss how much I loved her and how deeply I had longed for her. Catching my breath, I pulled back and rested my forehead to hers.
"Baby, I love you so much it aches. Please tell me you'll be mine," I pleaded. "Please tell me we don't have to ever go back to the way things were. Because I will always be your friend, but I want so desperately to be much, much more to you. I want everything with you."
I felt her smile against my hands as they rested on her cheeks. "I want to be with you too, in any way you'll have me." She said before leaning in for another kiss.
Just then we heard the loud bang of the front door shutting downstairs followed by the booming voice of our roommate Emmett. "Hey losers, is anyone home? Are you geeks already in bed for the night?"
At that Bella snorted and fell into a fit of laughter and I couldn't help but follow.