I Almost Do

by alltooweels

Based on Taylor Swift song, 'I Almost Do'. 'And I just want to tell you, it takes everything in me not to call you. And I wish I could run to you, and I hope you know that, everytime I don't, I almost do, I almost do.'

I almost did, every time I saw him , I almost did. I almost spoke, I almost told about how I felt. I almost called him when I saw his number in my contacts . I almost let my emotions get the best of me . I almost made it all but I could not. Because he had Alice , and I had Edward.

But that did not stop me from thinking about him, and also did not stop me smile every time I pronounced his name or heard. I could live without him, but I didn't want to. But I had to, because life is like that. You can not always have your cake and eat it too. He was happy with her, and I was happy with him. Or so said the appearances, I almost talked about my passion, my love. Almost, but never did. I knew I had not the courage to tear this family apart, I knew I would not dare hurt my best friend like that. But that didn't stop me from almost doing it. And that was what my life would always be. I'd be almost happy. I'd be almost full. But only almost. Because I knew that without him, I could not be completely smiling.

"You kept me waiting too long."

At least she waited and had him, I never got he. So I was like that now. Going through life, but never quite enjoying. Because I hadn't my love , my mate with me.

And so it was, that I was almost dead, just a body mingling with others.

I almost did, but almost is never enough.