"Forgive me father for I have sinned."
A white candle was lit and placed on the night drawer. Other than that the room was dark. He took a deep breath before placing his hands in prayer on top of the bed. Lips trembling. The blonde locks almost hid his tearful eyes.
"I'm not a good christian after all, though my love for your grace is heavy."
At those words he closed his eyes and felt fear. This was way to cruel, why did hetempt him with such unholy things?
"I…I'm not sure why you test me, I've done what I can to avoid these…dirty feelings. Man and woman are bound to raise a family and find happiness in that. I'm waiting for the right and yet…"
He sighed and opened his eyes, looking at the ceiling as if he could actually see the one he was talking to.
"Why? Why do even men attract my eyes?"
There was no answer and it felt as if something crushed his heart. What was the point in prayer if you never got any answers?
"If I'm doomed to be homosexual, why did you even bother creating such a law?"
Tears searched their ways down his cheek. It was the same, night after night, a cry for help to someone who never said a word back…