I always kept to myself.I really had no choice,no one ever heard me when I tried to speek up..My name is Hailey Anderson,i'm a 16 year old girl that lives in La Push washington and part of a family of 10,yes,I have 7 other brothers and ,let's see,there's Karen,Matt,Sadie,Erin and the twins Mike and Mitch,and the newest addition to our family, ages rage from 21 to 5 is the oldest,she is pretty and smart,and currently at a collage that gave her a is older then me by 1 year,he is the big jock of the school,hangs out with the cool and pretty it's me...ThenSadie who is 14,but plans to step in Matt's foot is all about the sports and wears more brand name clothes then I Mike and Mitch who are 11,even though they look look exactly alike both wear glasses and are a lot smaller then everyone else their were born are into weird stuff like frogs...and spiders... is 5,she looks more like Karen every day,and truthfully,she kind of acts like her being so serious about school or is only 5 months at the moment but she is a pain at times.I get stuck babysitting a lot.I'm the only one who stays home enough to take care of them.I don't get heard a lot at my house.I mean I know my parents love me,but they don't have any time to mom stays at home,but with all the kids and after school activities plus cleaning,she never has time for anything,exspexially the other kids have sports or something she me...I don't really have anything except my piano lessons,which I drive family is pretty fortunite,my dad is a surgeon,so he brings in a good he was in the marines when he was younger so he still gets checks or something like that?I don't see my dad hardly at all,he is always at his job,mom is always busy,it's just the way things are.I go to La push high school,I like school and I'm good at it.I always get A's trying to get my parents attention,but it never 's not like I sit around in my room and feel sorry for myself,I don' goes on and you have to suck things up and move on with I wish I just had Sadie's was so popular in her grade and I feel slightly jelious of her,she is just perfect at if I looked like her,I could get Paul to notice , is my science course,every girl in the reservation drools over him aswell,he is just...Beautiful.I mean in a guy is tall,dark and handsome,what else would a girl want?But everytime I get close to him,I act like an idiot.I try not to but I I even tripped over and spilled salt water all over got kind of mad,but what was worse was that all the girls kept calling me names after that insident.I see Paul a lot,but he doesn't see me,ever,i'm like invisible to 's Matt's friend,they hangout here sometimes and I secretly spy on them as they play football outside or video games in the game is of course,a football player and only goes out with pretty cheerleaders or once a flag girl.I think i'm obsessed and it's not healthy when the guy forget's your name everytime he see's me.I sat down at our table in science,it was 11 o'clock,my favorite time of day.I tried not to look for him so I just got my books out.I heard someone sit beside me so I turned and automatically went brain dead,seriously.I was Hailey no more."What?"He asked annoyed at my staring.I looked quickly to the table."sorry,Paul.I got those notes you asked for."I studdered and leaned over to my bag pulling them regularly missed classes."Heather,right?"He grrabbed my notes."Hailey."I corrected him then looked forward to the ,he smelt,so can't you just ask him to come over sometime hailey?Why?because you're a chicken!Oh great,now i'm talking to myself.I tried to pay attention to the I would glance over at paul he would look bored out of his must not like school...he sure did miss enough of it.I could tell Paul was changing through the years,yes I've had a crush on him since 7th grade and also he'd been matt's friend since then grew a lot taller and built a lot of muscle,making the girls go more crazy about annoyed me but I never let it show.I mean like a guy like paul would go out with a girl like me?Not that i'd protest,but still it's just simple high school sucks.I got home,friday night.I knew mom and dad would be going out and guess who babysat?You guessed? when I got home,before I even had my books upstairs I had a baby in my hands."Watch the kids,will ya?"My mom asked putting in earings.I nodded and shifted the baby onto my hip and dropped my bookbag on the ground."Mitch and mike are with aunt Kelly,Erine's in the !"Then she was out the fridays were like dad worked in seatle,so my mom would drive down and they would meet up and go out to dinner.I sighed and then smiled at Josie,she really was a cute and Dad got back late,like and erine were sound asleep in their bed,me too.I got up early,like usual.I went down stairs around 7:30,no one was up of course.I got break fast and sat on the couch.I was flipping channels when a half naked Paul walked infront of me and into the kitchen.I started choking on my I just see that or am I going crazy?Paul is in my house...without a shirt on?Okay,this is is worse then bad,this is amazing!That doesn't really make since,but now,i'm frozen on the I look,or should I keep watching the t.v?Did he even see me cause he didn't look over?He walked back infront of me with a cup or orange joice in his hand and went back up though we aren't allowed to have any drinks upstairs,I was too toungue tied to say anything,like I would were pretty boring for me.I would get up early hang around the house,clean or sometimes go hiking,then saturday night at 5 i'd go to my weekend job at Lenny's Ice Cream Shop.I worked every saturday when no one else wanted to,5 to I close up the shop and go ,we would all go to church in the morning and it would of course be crazy with all the kids,then home and I would go up to the beach just to get away from the push beach wasn't like the picture perfect hawaii sean people think beaches have to ,La Push beach was grey but two islands in the distance were almost invisible from the low of people thought of this place as prison growing up,but for me it's paridise.I love it and I never want to leave this beautiful place I call wasn't any different then any other school came and I smiled as I walked to the class.I wiped my stupid grin off before walking into it though.I got to our counter and Paul was suprisingly already there.I glaced at him through the corner of my eye but he didn't even was before class started and everyone was talking while the teacher talked to some other teacher."Hi,Paul."I heard Kianna's voice was of course beautiful,but had a mean,nasty streak in her."Kianna."he smiled at her.I wish he would do that to me.I frowned and tried not to stare at them."What are you looking at freak?"Kianna leaned around Paul and I wondered what i'd done worng as I blushed and looked to the counter."Who are you?"Paul asked and I looked up at his voice."..."I cocked my head to the side."Your lab partner."My voice cam eout in almost a whispered."You are?"he asked nad I nodded."Oh."he shrugged and went back to Kianna."I guess I didn't see you,Kianna is the only girl I see."He said as she leaned into him and they started kissing.I was hurt beyond did he have to hurt me over and over?Why is life so cruel?The teacher cleared his throat and Kianna giggled and seperated from him and walked back to her lab partner.I felt horrible the rest of the dissed by your crush is bad enough but getting dissed then he kisses his girlfriend that you hate is even worse.I know,I know,why do you like him?I just do...I can't help can't I be like Kianna?Captain of the cheer squad with a pretty face and a curvy body to go along with it.I was skinny,not the good skinny but the annoying skinny.I just don't gain weight,and guys like a girl with curves,as in a butt and lunch I went to my usual deserted table in the corner.I stared at my food,not hunger when I heard a small voice."may I sit here?"I looked up to my suprise and saw a girl with short brown hair and wore looked awkward standing there for an answer so I nodded sat down quickly and laid a book infront of eyes skimmed the pages as I saw the book's name."Vampire Diaries?"I asked and she looked up almost supried.I was trying to make conversation,she looked scared,and i've never seen her before."I love the series."She said and I nodded."Are you new here?"I asked and she nodded."Just moved in with my uncle."She said and I nodded."I'm hailey."I held out my hand and she took it and we shook."Kim."She said and I smiled."Nice to meet you."I took my hand back and we sat kind of awkwardly there."DO you live here?"SHe asked and I nodded."yeah,just down the street actrully,so where are you from?"I asked feeling more confident now."Texas."She said and it was just now that I noticed her southern accent."Oh."I went back to my food and age a bite out of my this day wouldn't be so bad after all...maybe i would get a friend,it's about time,only took me half of high school.I came to find out that Kim had a couple classes we me.I showed her aroudn the school after school until she said she had to started walked and I ran up next to her."Want a ride?"I asked and she smiled and got into my car and I drove her to her was a smaller house and plain,very obviosly no woman figure lived here...I wonder why she lives with her uncle anyways?"Thanks for the ride."She said and I nodded."You want me to drive you tomorrow morning?It's no big deal,it's on my way."I said almost desperate for a real friend and I think Kim would be a good choice."Sure!"She smiled and closed my door."I'll pick you up at 7:45?"I asked through the open nodded and i waved."See ya."I pulled out and back home,to the hell hole.