Warning! this story will contain eating disorder! sorry
This was inspired by the story Loosing Control
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"How did this happen?" Collins asked again.
"I-I don't know…" Angel muttered letting the flow freely.
"Tell me" He said more firmly.
She took a deep breath and closed her eyes she remembered that day clearly it was her wake up call.
Angel was sitting on the couch just waiting for Collins to come home. It was a bad day period and he was the only thing that could change it around. When he stepped through the door she jumped up and ran to hug him.
"Hey" he sighed.
"Hi how are you feeling?" She asked and tried to kiss him.
He turned his head to shut the door forcing Angel to kiss his cheek "I'm fine..."
"What's wrong?"
"It's finales week everyone stresses out" he sat down and started to grade papers.
Feeling self-conscious Angel bit her lip and looked down at her outfit "So... what do you think of this dress?"
"Uh, it's nice" he barely glanced at it.
"Ok, well I'm just going to go check my uh…. Make up" She trailed off and headed into the bathroom.
She looked in the mirror not at her face but at everything else. Maybe the bitchy girls she met today were right maybe she was… ugly and this dress didn't look good on her. Maybe nothing did. Angel was tough most of the time, she could take a punch, most words don't affect her but there were a few that did. Ugly, unloved, and fat the girls she had met today used all turned around and looked over her shoulder at her butt.
I wouldn't kill me to lose a few pounds she thought. No! You're crazy you look fine! Just think about how Collins greeted you…. She mind trailed off about how he denied her kiss. He said this dress looked nice without looking at you. He loves you. Doesn't he?
She took a deep breath and stepped outside trying to act normal.
"Hey Collins what do you want to do tonight" she started to rub his shoulders.
He shrugged it off "I don't know Ang I have a lot of papers to grade."
"And you don't have any time for a break?" she laid across the table.
"No Angel, I don't" he was getting frustrated.
She tried to stay calm "Well can I least have a kiss to tie me over?"
He half rolled his eye and gave her a quick peck it felt meaning less.
"Happy?" he asked once he pulled away.
Trying to force the tears back she nodded and started to leave the room.
"Um, I forgot did say that you like this dress?"
"Yes, it looks fine on you, whatever."
She went back to the bathroom and cried the girls were right. It's true Angel had gained weight since she knew Collins but that's because there has been more food in the house. But she never thought it would bother Collins.
Well maybe if I cut back on eating for a while I can get back on track and I can even look better.
Continue or not to continue? that is the question