-WARNING-
May contain violence, tragedy, some angst maybe. Also make sure your up to date with the manga, since there might be a few spoilers within then again only people who have read up to the recent chapter might be the only ones able to pick up the spoiler. Any other things that you need to be warned about will be placed here, read with caution!
-NOTE-
Pandora Hearts is my newest favorite read, I still love DGM but right now I have become busy and I have also gotten some writers block on my story unfortunately. Don't worry once I am all moved to my new home and everything is sorted I will try and update on my DGM fanfic. I wont make any promises though. I apologize for the lack of updates. Anyway I'm going to try and write a Pandora Hearts fanfic for now to help me out in drawing inspiration, don't know how long it will last however. I do hope you enjoy it. Not much is happening on this first chapter but things will be rolled into gear on the next one.
Enjoy!
-CHAPTER ONE-
~*NIGHTMARE*~
The day's sun shined through the curtained window of a pastel green walled room, sitting near the window is a girl of fair skin, almost like porcelain, with long glistening chocolate brown colored hair that almost seemed lighter in tone as the sun's light hit it, her bright green eyes stared at the nothingness as she daydreamed. In the eyes of many she looked like a model, she would look more so if she dressed in more feminine fashion that could show off her long athletic legs that carried her far whenever she ran. Usually when she wakes up this early in the morning to watch the sun rise to greet a new morning she would be exercising, feeling the crisp coolness on her flesh as she races down the sidewalk of the park near her home. However Arianna Roux, was feeling rather bored, no empty of emotion is more like it. Lately life has felt conflicting for her, painful.
"Arianna! Breakfast!" a woman shouted.
Glancing up at her clock realizing that by this time around everyone is awake, everyone meaning her father and her step mom.
Sighing, she got up from her chair and looked down at herself. Long wavy hair tied back in a black ribbon with a plain black t-shirt and baggy denim pants with a studded black belt along with sneakers. Satisfied with what she had on she walked out of her room and entered into the hallway before heading toward the dining room where her family awaited. Her father Greg reading his newspaper, and her step mother Rhoda with her pregnant belly. For a moment she took in the scene, this was a scene that might be more cheery if only she wasn't there.
Sounded pessimistic but its true. Before Arianna's mother divorced her father, brutally saying that she didn't want to have Arianna since a woman was less desirable if she has a child by another man, her mother had hinted at another thorn to be. Arianna's dad might not be the man within this room, which only made her father distant. In the end though Greg became happy when he started to date Rhoda, a woman he had met during a business meeting. Now they are happily married with a baby on the way.
Ever since the divorce Arianna has found herself depressed and uninterested in the things around her, she honestly tried to be helpful to her step mom but everything felt so incredibly awkward, she felt like a foreign body in a perfectly healthy body.
A vicious bacteria that needed to be eliminated.
She knew that they probably didn't think this way but Arianna couldn't help but feel this way herself, which was why she was glad to finally have graduated from high school and was ready to go to college. The plan had been to finish writing up a form for a grant that didn't need to be paid back, with this she will have money for a good school that has dorm rooms, plus with the money she has saved up she could afford good food, if she invested wisely and got a good job she would have her own place to live in no time at all. They wont have to ever seen me again, but honestly I would like to see the baby, she thought somberly.
"Thank you Rhoda" she half whispered as she started to eat her breakfast.
Rhoda pulled up a smile, "your welcome".
The three ate silently, silverware clattering on the china was the only sound, not even a singing bird could possibly lighten the mood in this sunny room.
Finally Rhoda cleared her throat, "so…tomorrow's the big day! What do you have planned for today?"
Arianna shrugged when the blond asked, "I think I might shop a little, you know get a look at the town before leaving it behind. I already finished the grant form, all I need to do is send it to the school so they will be all ready for me. My luggage is ready as well, so there's pretty much nothing else to be done".
"That's good! But we're going to miss you, aren't we?" Rhoda looked over to her husband, who only made a 'mm-hm' sound. This made Rhoda frown a little, obviously this woman tries and seems to legitimately love Arianna like her own child but her father seemed to still be sore from the divorce five years ago.
Why did you do this to me mom? She thought miserably.
The divorce wouldn't have been so bad. She thought that she could visit the parent she didn't end up with, she could still love both her parents like she always had, she could have had a good life even if they had split. No, instead she was given this result.
After she finished breakfast she got up and put her plate away after cleaning it, "do you need help with dishes?"
"Oh no dear, you didn't even have to clean your own plate. I may be due in about a month but I can still handle simple tasks" she said with a bright smile.
"Alright, if your sure. I'm going to grab my purse and head out, would any of you like anything from the store?" she inquired.
Rhoda waved a hand while the other massaged her belly, "no I'm alright, you just enjoy your day. Hang out with friends, do whatever you want, its your day so celebrate all your accomplishments".
Her father didn't say anything, however Arianna nodded and forced a smile. "Thank you Rhoda".
So she went to her room, before grabbing her purse she went to her computer and started to finish a few things on the form, once complete she sent it in and closed the window when it was done. In a few hours there will be a confirmation notice. I have no really clue what I want to do, but at least I've gone to college I can get a decent career afterwards and when I know what I want to do I can attend school to train for it. Wont be a problem, its not like I'm going for something that special like a doctor. Suppressing a sigh she got up from her seat and grabbed her purse before heading out of her room.
"See you guys later" she called.
"Good bye Ari! Have a good time".
Arianna walked into the living room to make her way to the front door, she found that her father had moved himself to the living room. For a moment she watched him watching television, keeping an eye on stocks. Long ago when she was a child he would have bolted from his seat to give her a big hug, tell her he loves her and call her his little rose glory. A nickname he made up from the meaning of her name which can mean 'holy glory' or 'silver', combined with a flower admired for its beauty. Her father was always a giant to her, in fact her favorite game was to pretend she was friends with a friendly giant that protected her from dragons and evil witches. He knows your heading off…but. "G-good bye Daddy, see you later" she spoke with hopeful eyes, please turn around and smile.
"Good bye Arianna". That's all, nothing special.
With a disappointed frown she opened the front door and slammed it shut, even though she wasn't in her jogging clothes she ran anyway. Running and running as if it could solve her sorrow or ease it in some way.
When she finally stopped she found herself in the park, panting. Its okay, when I graduate from college my dad will surely show love for me again like he use too. After all I'm not mom! I'll return, besides even if I'm not his real daughter he can still love me and I have the power to be a good daughter.
Arianna began to endlessly wander without stopping, she had no real aspiration to go shopping with friends. After all she had no real friends, she use to before things went sour at home. After that she felt scared to make friends, what if her 'friends' actually didn't like her either? So in middle school her friends slowly drifted from her, then in high school she became a sort of wall flower, not noticed enough to be bullied not liked enough to be befriended. If she actually spoke to people she might have a ton of friends, in fact in elementary school she was that one girl who got along with just about everyone. From the too cheery to the outcasts. If any of these people picked fights with one another she stayed away from the fight, since she wasn't exactly the fighter type and probably wouldn't be able to properly defend someone.
I'd just be trouble for them if I started defending random people.
She's a selfish girl. Not a hint of justice within her being.
"Maybe the library would be good for me" she muttered as she walked toward the library building.
She walked inside, greeted by the familiar librarian at the front desk. Arianna gave a quick nod before moving to one of the shelves, picking up a random book she flipped it open and began to read. Books are great, I can be in a different world for a bit, a perfect and harmless escape from reality.
Hours passed in the library, finally she shut the book and got up from the crowd. Wincing slightly at the numbness, she hardly had noticed her limbs falling asleep on her.
Now I'll treat myself to a few snacks.
Arianna waved good bye to the librarian as she headed out of the building, her feet leading her to a fast food restaurant.
She ordered some food, then sat alone at a booth waiting for her number to be called. Nowadays she was way past caring if she looked weird eating by herself with a dazed look in her eye, ever since she started getting money from a witnessing job on the side she loved to eat by herself. It gave her father and Rhoda plenty of bonding time.
When her food was ready she quickly grabbed it and sat back down. As she ate she imagined what the baby would be like, Rhoda wanted it to be a surprise so she didn't ask about the gender of the child. If it's a girl I can be the cool older sister, then again they say boys are easier to manage then girls since girls can be rather catty.
Either way when the baby is born I will send a nice present, then when I visit I will buy a big plush toy. Arianna's heart warmed at thinking of the child, this child will be new to the world and deserves everything good from the world. I know what its like so I won't let a new member of my family suffer, even though I know Rhoda will always be there since she's much better in personality then my own. I will love my new brother or sister with all my heart, they can come to me if they have any problems.
After she finished eating about an hour later she paid for everything then went to a nearby convenience store to buy cheap snacks, then her feet took her to the park where she sat on the bench and watched as the sky turned darker and darker. What a beautiful sun set, she mused.
Night enveloped the skies as the sun hid itself to light the land on the other side of the globe, on this side the moon slowly crept up to meet the stars. Where she was going would she see such beauty? What kind of constellation would she be able to draw?
She lifted a finger and began to trace the stars, "Big Dipper….Little Dipper" she muttered as she found them.
What do you want to do career wise anyway?
"I'll pursue art perhaps, after all I am excellent at it, I'm also a good writer so I can write a novel or two. Graphic design deals in art of words and images so maybe that's what I'll be, I'm not exactly the kind of person who would associate herself with numbers since that's where my faults lie" she talked to herself like this sometimes. It almost made it feel like there was another person around, there's no one else in the park so there's no one to call her insane for speaking to herself.
Ask a question.
Answer aloud. A good way to organize your thoughts.
You have the ability to have friends, why be alone?
"I have flimsy reasons as to why I prefer to be alone, maybe I want to prove a point either that or I have idiotic fears of betrayal. The latter seems more likely".
Why not confront your dad?
"I'm afraid of what I might hear".
You'll never move forward if you fear everything.
"I admit I am a coward".
You make no real impression in the world, keep this up because of one betrayal and you'll lead a pathetically lonely life that's completely meaningless.
"I know, I'd like to try".
What would you do if you were suddenly in a different world? Would you be boring there as well?
"Probably".
'Why not test this? A foreign element might be interesting'.
Arianna flinched from the bench, almost falling over on to the hard ground. Whoa…that…that wasn't me!
The last question had a foreign voice, distorted like a scream under water, echoing like being in a long dark tunnel. Was it male or female? She couldn't quite tell, it was almost as if she was hearing all types of voices all at once, resounding within her head like an orchestra.
Gulping she got up, quickly stuffing the remains of her snacks into her big purse. Ha! I've lost so much of my mind that now even my inner voice sounds different. Seriously this entire question yourself then answer thing is going to stop, only crazy people do it anyway. There are other ways to organize your thoughts.
Shaking her head she decided that it was now time to head home. Voices suddenly popping in her head was just too strange, now it was time to get rested up and prepare for the drive then train ride to her destination. As she walked away, Arianna was completely unaware that something had been watching her the entire time.
She didn't know that she was about to be sucked in darkness and become a part of a different story.
That's it for now! Yeah this character is a little depressed but I love to see growth when it comes to character development, where a characters thoughts about themselves is ultimately tested as well as them developing to become a better person. So I personally can't wait to see how this character grows!
Also. To those who have had gone through the entire divorced parents thing I wish you all the best, things seem terrible now but never let bad things affect how you view the world, plunge straight forward with no fear. (At least that what I told myself when it happened to me).
Again huge apology if you were following my Black Angel story! Hopefully I will think of what to do next soon!
