I hate who I've been.

The things I've done.

The me I've been.

I'm a serial killer.

A trigger-happy fiend.

Who's lost control,

And every time I nail those hands.

I turn my head,

And pretend not to hear his cry.

I'm a night feeder,

A living, breathing lie.

Behind this mask,

I hide the scars.

This consuming thirst.

This lust I cannot control.

I hate and love to feed.

In ambivalence I remain.

Please take it and kill it.

Raise for me a mighty steed.

A strength where I once failed.

Teach me abstinence.

Teach me restraint.

Show me the beauty hidden beneath.

I struggle, I scratch, I bite,

But my enemy is too strong,

And he's got a hold of me.

Please someone help me up.

I'm so close to giving up.

PLEASE!…Please!…..please help!…….