This is taken place Post Eclipse. So if you haven't read it sorry it this ruins it for you. This is my first fan fic. I am so nervous. Anyway please R&R even flames accepted (I need the sour with the sweet).
Disclaimer: disclaimer- disclaimer: I own nothing but my own idea. All the character and the story line etc, belong to STEPHANIE MEYERS.
Bella's POV (will be mostly)
Charlie took the news about the wedding way better then I was expecting. I thought Rene would have been more approving. She went crazy. First she screamed at us for like twenty minutes. Then she asked me if I was pregnant. I laughed at her and told her that I still hadn't done anything. We told them that we still didn't have a date but we were planning to do it before my next birthday. Charlie pulled me to the side and asked if about Jacob. I winced at the name. I was trying to prove to myself that all I needed was Edward but I still continued to think about King Solomon. I only cried when I was by myself now so that no one would say anything. Here I was still lying on the couch in Edward's room. Rene and Phil were coming up in two weeks to help with the wedding. I gave her Alice's phone number so they could talk. It had been almost a month that I last saw Jacob. Since then besides getting dragged with Alice and the talk with Charlie I have been here on this couch.
Alice was having way too much fun planning for the wedding. And although I wanted this (I did want this right?) my mind kept wondering away to my dad, and mom and Jacob. I winced at the thought of his face. I just keep on hurting him. Why do I keep on thinking about him when I have what I want! (I did have want I want right?) I continue to doubt myself and all my decisions. I sighed and rolled over.
Just then Edward walked into the room. He glanced over at me with a raised brow. I had been lying on the couch for almost the whole day. It was early afternoon now. I hardly even ate anymore.
Um, Bella? Are you ok?" he asked walking softly to my side. I shuddered and just nodded my head. It was times like these that I was glad that he couldn't read my mind. I looked at him and my eyes were full of guilt. Now I am going to hurt him too.
"What are you thinking about? Is it Charlie?" he was so concerned. I wiped at the darn tears swelling up in my eyes and nodded again. He smiled softly at me with those golden eyes. I sat up slightly on the couch and looked at him. He was staring at me so lovingly. I did not deserve this. And for some reason I couldn't get Jacob at of my thoughts. I blushed because I was letting my mind wonder to Jacob with Edward right in front of me. Edward smiled completely misinterpreting the signal. I sighed and smiled back.
"Bella, I actually came to get you. Charlie called and wants to talk to you. I think that it has something to do with that dog." He muttered. I gasped! What would Charlie have to say about Jacob? I know that this could not be good. I noticed that I was frozen. I started biting on my nails.
"Breathe Bella. It's going to be ok. I promise I won't let anything happen to you." Edward said instantly at my side holding onto my arm. I nodded again. I rose slowly from the couch and crept out the door. My mind was racing through the possibilities of what this was about. At the door I stopped abruptly. I wanted to apologize, to hide in a closet or -what was going to happen-cry. I wasn't scared
"Uh, Edward. I think I should go to my dad alone. You don't mind do you?" I ended softly with a bit of embarrassment. Edwards face harden and he was about to say something but shut his mouth and nodded.
"I'll drop you off and you call me when you are ready for me to pick you up" He slowed said to stop his voice from rising into a growl. I blinked then nodded quickly and continued to his Volvo. He beat me to the door and opened it. I smiled gently at him and he grinned back. His eyes were not their usual golden. They were swirled with red and black. I knew he was not happy about me going alone but I think that I owe Charlie that much considering how I left.
We drove in silence and when we got to Charlie's house, all the lights were on and there was another car in the driveway. I nervously glanced at Edward to read his expression but his face was still hard and blank. I could see that he was clenching his teeth. He turned to me and kissed me hard. It left me breathless but worried. He was at my door in seconds and opened it for me. I couldn't help but think that I still didn't deserve him. I took a deep breathe and got out. I turned toward the door when he grabbed my waist and pulled me to him. He kissed me like he was never going to kiss me again. That made my stomach knot up. I could feel the tears starting to sting but I blinked them away furiously.
"I just want to tell you that I love you Bella Swan no matter what you choose." He said swiftly and before I could answer he was in the car and gone. I turned to walk to Charlie's house again. I open the door and saw Charlie sitting on the stool. I heard other voices that were not the TV.