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A/N: The lyrics are italics which is a letter to Austin.
'Thank you for the roses that you sent me.' Ally writes silently, even her sloppy scribbles elegant and curvy. She closes her eyes, chest aching as she continues silently. 'They're beautiful.' She smiles slightly, her eyes falling on the red, pink and yellow rose bouquet as she picks up the card lying on the table that had come with the flowers.
'And you asked me to think of you.' She glances at the picture sitting on her mantle. 'You know I will.' She stops. Stands. Walks into the kitchen. Grabs her phone and a glass of water. She walks past a forgotten picture of her and Austin. She presses her forehead against the wall and wraps her free arm around her stomach, futilely trying to hold herself together.
'Your note just said, "I'm sorry. Please forgive me."' Ally continues writing ten minutes later, after her sob attack was over. Her hand trembles and you can visibly tell that it's effected her writing. 'I always do, I but have to let you know the way I feel.'
'I left you this message so you'll know..' She braces herself, not quite ready to tell her love to basically give up on her for a while. Fully aware that he could move on in the few months that she wants to be alone.
'Sometimes lovin' me, just means leavin' me alone.' She closes her eyes, a large breath being released as she writes, 'So please don't call every time you think of me..' She bites her lip, her mind made up about telling him everything. 'Cause I need some time alone to kill this pain..'
'You should know that I don't give up easily,' She thinks back to the time when she had once walked up on stage, even though she had stage fright and pronounced that she loved him. More than any girl in the world could ever love him. 'but sometimes for things to grow, they need some rain.'
'Sometimes lovin' me just means leavin' me alone.'
She looks down at the letter, her heart aching, yet feeling strangely relieved and light as she continues to air out the rhetorical skeletons in her closet.
'I left you this message so you'll know,' She closes her eyes, writing down the nine words that seem to echo through her mind every day.
'Do not come by every time you miss me..' Ally smiles, her heart still pained but feeling relieved as she writes slowly, 'Cause I need some time alone to kill this pain.'
'You should know that I don't give up easily, but sometimes for things to grow, they need some rain, sometimes lovin' me just means leavin' me alone..'
Ally walks slowly, her hood pulled over her head as she stops at the door. She takes a deep breath, and puts the letter through the mail slot, turning and walking from the door as fast as she wills herself to walk away.
"Ally?" A voice startles her and she turns, eyes landing on Dez. "Oh. Hey, Dez." The red-head smiles. "How are you? Are you here to talk to Austin? Why don't you come in?" Ally smiles kindly, slowly backing away as she says, "I - I um, can't. I was just dropping something off. I have so many things I have to do - maybe some other time." She smiles at him and nods, turning her back to him and walking away.
"He misses you, you know." Dez says, a small smile on his face. Ally bites back her tears as she keeps walking, not once looking back.
'Sometimes lovin' me just means leavin' me alone..'