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I stood in front of my mirror. There was a dark girl in the reflection. Her hopes were high but everything seemed to be destroyed. Her whole life could go wrong from one simple statement. Whether or not to tell everyone. Their reactions will change for sure. The Titans. No longer teen. Beast boy, the youngest, have finally gone into his twenties. We were all either twenty, twenty one or two. I was twenty one. I couldn't believe how long it had been in this tower from when Cyborg had built it. The years went so quickly. I sighed. It was about time I told them, I had known for two weeks. I was five weeks pregnant.

Robin and I had been together for three years. A good friendship one year before that. I still couldn't believe it. I had to tell him first. It would be unfair if I told him at the same time. I had that sensation in my gut again. Butterflies. Only this was more intense. I was so worried. What if he didn't want this child? What if he left? I still couldn't understand it all. What would happen? Would we get married? Would I have to get an abortion? I really didn't know. Maybe I would tell Robin tonight. After dinner. After all, it was New Years Eve. I had to let him enjoy it just in case it was bad news. To me I was thinking it would be gorgeous, a little baby. I didn't want to know what everyone else was thinking. Oh well. I think I should straight up say it tonight, after the fireworks.

Oh god. I couldn't believe it still. I had to sit down.

I lay down on my bed and put my left hand on my gut where I guessed the baby was. I wondered if it was going to be a girl or a boy. A little girl that had telekinetic powers, she would have short hair up to her shoulders. Short black hair. She would be short like her mum. Soon I would be a 'mum'. I snickered at the term. Immediately what came to mind was a woman with an apron on, cooking spoon at hand in a bee hive hair style. Typical stereo types. I wonder what I would look like if I wasn't from Azarath, if I got married and had a kid. A little terror, a little boy. He would play with trucks and practise throwing the boomerang at a tree. He would sneak into his dads closet and take out his old gadgets.

I was interrupted by a loud bang on the door.

"Yes?" I said sitting up.

"Can I come in?" It was Robin.

"Sure."

"Listen Rae, I was thinking if you and I wanted to go to the park bench for the fireworks. Sound good?"

"Sounds perfect Robin." That was perfect, I could tell him in private there.

"Good. Come out for dinner soon, Cyborg's BBQ smells delicious!"

"OK, I'll be out soon." He smiled and closed the door behind him. He was the only one I trusted in my room. Possibly Starfire too. I sort of don't want Cy and BB in my room mostly because of what happened before… When they went into my mind.

It's really amusing. If I think about it, we're like one big family. Cy is the dad because well he's mostly suited as a dad. Starfire is the mum, always worrying, Robin is the big brother and Beast boy is the little baby! It's perfect. I never really thought where I would fit in, maybe as a big sister… I wasn't sure. I felt like I fitted in, like we were all family. I remember the large charade that BB pulled when we were teasing him. He left for a day then came running back. His excuse was that he missed his PS2. I have to say, in that day we missed him. Things weren't the same. Everything was quiet apart from Starfire's sobs. A family isn't a family when someone's not there. I at first didn't believe that, because of my family. My mother, my father, the monks. That wasn't my family. My mother was my mother, my father was nothing and the monks didn't care much about me. They were just interested in my future. They didn't care what I ate, how much water I drank, for all I knew they wanted to kill me. It made sense, I mean, seeing my future they might have thought it would be best. But they couldn't because of the law.

"RAE! FOOOOOOOD!" Yelled BB. The emphasis on food was what gave it away.

I walked out of my room and saw through the glass of the tower our balcony. I remember Cy was so proud when he added it. It overlooked the sea. He made it just for the BBQ. I could smell it and geez, it did smell great. I was so hungry. I thought about the baby, might not be very healthy for it at all. What was I thinking? I was getting too attached. I might have to get abortion. I couldn't think too highly of it.

"Rae, do you want steak, ribs, sausages or… tofu?" Cy asked. I figured I should probably just let them know I was still myself.

"Tofu."

"…Really?"

"No! I'll have steak thanks."

"Phew Rae, you had me going there." Cy understood my wicked sense of humour. I let out a fake smile. His suspicions dropped that I was not myself. I walked over to Starfire who was arguing with BB.

"What's going on here?" I asked sighing.

"She started it! She threw a sausage at me!"

"I did not do such a thing BB! It was an accident, friend! Please forgive me!"

"It wasn't an accident! You threw it at my face, dude!" BB was wiping his face down again. I laughed and told them to just forget about it. Starfire seemed content about that and went to talk to Cy. BB stayed next to me munching on the ribs.

"So, where's Robin?"

"Oh yeah! He told me to tell you that he was going to set up. He told me that you'd know what that meant…"

"Thanks." He was obviously already at the park bench. I should probably meet him there after this steak. It was already quite dark. When we had all finished, BB went inside and challenged Starfire to a match on PS2. Starfire, over the years, had become very good. She had won a couple of times against Cy and many times against BB. BB and Starfire were really good friends. I always told Cy that they should get together. Cy, the father, was with Bumble bee from Titans East. They were really cute together. I overheard Cy tell BB that she was coming over here for the fireworks soon.

I should probably go to meet up with Robin.

"Cy, I'm going to go meet up with Robin, we'll both be back after the fireworks."

"OK." He was so cool about everything. Everyone knew that if they wanted something difficult they should ask Cy. He would always say yes.

I went back into my room and took my jacket. We gave up on wearing uniforms some time ago. I wore just a black top and denim shorts. I took my big blue jacket with me. I slipped on my sneakers and went out the door. I flew over some houses and breathed. This wasn't going to be fun on my side. Should I tell him before the fireworks? No. After was better. I had a bad feeling about this.

I saw Robin sitting casually on the bench watching to his left the tower. Possibly wondering when I would come. I surprised him and lowered myself on the bench. He jumped up when he saw me.

"Oh! Rae! You scared me!" He chuckled.

"Sorry, I couldn't resist," I said smiling.

"I thought you weren't going to come! The fireworks should start in five minutes."

"OK." Five minutes until they start. Approximately two minutes later, they'll stop and ten seconds later he'll be horrified.

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