From The Bottom Of My Broken Heart
"Never look back," we said
How was I to know I'd miss you so?
Loneliness up ahead, emptiness behind
Where do I go?
Quinn Fabray, she was head strong and knew who she was and what she wanted. However the reflection in front of her told a different story. Her black mascara was smudged down her eyes, her long blonde hair was tangled and messy, her rosy red cheeks were stained from the tears she cried, her eyes were red and puffy, as was her nose. Even the pink dress she wore was wet from her tears. Quinn began to wipe away the tears and began to fix herself up. This was the second time she'd had her heart broken by the same guy all because he didn't love her as much as he loved another. Finn Hudson was the guy she'd been with since the end of sophomore year, her first love and the one she wanted to spend the rest of her life with it. Everything was perfect until junior year. She'd made the biggest mistake of her life by sleeping with Noah Puckerman, Finn's best friend. Not only that but she lost her virginity to him, something which she had wanted Finn to have and things got even worst when she found out she was pregnant. It wasn't just Puck that was the problem it was Rachel Berry. Quinn hated the girl with a passion. If Rachel hadn't of been in their lives Quinn and Finn would still be a happy and perfect couple, but because of the Glee Club and with Rachel and Finn being the best singers it was inevitable. Quinn sighed her heart was breaking and it was so hard having to face the two of them, but for the past four months Quinn had been doing what she does best. Putting on a front when deep down she was hurting.
And you didn't hear
All my joy through my tears
All my hopes through my fears
Did you know, still I miss you somehow
Quinn walked into Glee club with her best friend Santana. Although the two of them had their ups and downs the past months Santana had been a rock to Quinn and was there for her, as Quinn was for her following her coming out as a lesbian. When Quinn entered the room her eyes fell upon Rachel and Finn. Rachel was resting her head on Finn's shoulder and her hand was linked with his. Sometimes when Quinn saw the brunette she wanted to just go up to her and slap her or punch her, she just wanted to cause pain to her like she had done to her, but she knew that would not been a good idea and she would only go down in Finn's estimations. One thing that had always annoyed her though was Rachel had slept with Puck too, which led to Finn wanting to get back with her, however a few weeks in he had forgiven Rachel and realised that he loved her more than he did Quinn. It was something which Quinn knew too but she was hoping that given enough time with him and once Rachel was out of the picture, Finn would be able to love her the way if not more than he ever did Rachel. Finn was all she wanted, but she had lost him and it would something that she simply couldn't take.
From the bottom of my broken heart
There's just a thing or two I'd like you to know
You were my first love, you were my true love
From the first kisses to the very last rose
From the bottom of my broken heart
Even though time may find me somebody new
You were my real love, I never knew love
'Til there was you
From the bottom of my broken heart
Throughout the lesson Quinn just could not take her eyes off Finn, and her eyes were burning into the back of Rachel's head. She thought back to the time when her and Finn got together. She was playing hard to get and Finn loved it he would keep coming back for more, but Quinn knew she had him exactly where she wanted him. He would of done anything for her and to be with her. Funny how times change. She suddenly felt a nudge and looked at the culprit Santana, looking into her eyes she could see she was upset and concerned for her. Santana then gave her a glare telling her to stop. Quinn knew she was right she was only making things worst for herself, but she would do anything for it to be her on Finn's arm.
"Baby," I said, "please stay.
Give our love a chance for one more day"
We could have worked things out
Taking time is what love's all about
Quinn stopped by her locker to pick up a book before she went home. After shutting the locker door she came face to face with Rachel. The brunette looked tense and at unease. Quinn barely acknowledged her and was about to turn away from her.
"Quinn, wait" Rachel begged as she walked in front her of "I know I'm the last person you want to talk to, but I could do with your advice"
Quinn scoffed "And why would I want to help you?"
There was a moment of silence between the two. Quinn shook her head, she didn't want to be anywhere near Rachel and she had things to do. She walked away from her.
"Because Finn proposed to me!"
Quinn stopped, she was absolutely shocked. She slowly began walking back towards her. "And you're telling me this why?" Quinn demanded to know. It was bad enough that she was still in love with Finn, but to be told that he had proposed to Rachel. It was too much. Without thinking Quinn raised her hand and slapped Rachel across her face. Rachel looked up in shock at Quinn and brought her hand to her face to soothe the stinging sensation.
"You know what I think. You and Finn will never work long term because you both have different dreams and ambitions, you both want different things from life. You say you both love each other now but your young, you don't know where you're going to be in two years' time, let alone ten." Quinn said trying to control the anger which was boiling inside of her. "If you say yes. It'll be the biggest mistake of your life" She warned.
But you put a dart
Through my dreams through my heart
And I'm back where I started again
Never thought it would end
Quinn got into her car and cried. How could he do this? Without thinking Quinn turned on the ignition and drove. She knew that this wasn't a good idea but she had to, she had so much to say to him and she wanted to say it now. She pulled up outside the house and marched over the door and proceeded to press the door bell, using more force than needed. Once the door was open she removed her finger from the bell and looked up and him. He could tell she had been crying and she was mad.
"How could you Finn!" Quinn sobbed gently before asking him again angrier and proceeding to smack her fists against his chest. Finn grabbed hold of her and too her inside and into his room. "Rachel told me you proposed to her" Quinn screamed. "How do you think that makes me feel, you know how I feel about you, and for you to do this after everything we've been thorough. You've already broken my heart, but now it just feels like your ripping it out from my chest"
Finn didn't know what to do or say that would make Quinn feel better. He wasn't going to apologise for loving Rachel, but he was sorry that this is what it was doing to Quinn. Deep down Quinn would always be special to him, she was his first love and they had been through a lot. But compared to Rachel she was just average to him. Finn hugged her but was soon pushed away by Quinn.
"What is it about her Finn?" Quinn sobbed once more "because it definitely isn't because she's prettier than me"
"I just find her amazing and she's different" Finn said but knew that those simple words were already breaking Quinn even more.
He looked over at her, her face with covered with tears and her eyes were red and puffy. She had her arms folded across her chest and she wore a cute pink summer dress. She was beautiful, but that's all he could see her as, beautiful.
"Quinn" Finn said as he walked up to her and wiped away the tears from her face "Your a beautiful girl, any guy would be lucky to have you, but that guy isn't me and you will find him one day"
The touch of his hands on her face made her feel warm inside. She studied his face he was so cute, he was her Finn. This isn't the way it was supposed to be. With his face being this close to hers Quinn couldn't help herself and smashed her lips upon his. Finn was stunned by slowly began to feel himself respond and placed his hands on Quinn's waist, and deepened the kiss. Quinn brought her hands to his face and her fingers began to work through his hair. She pushed him towards the bed and broke off the kiss to remove her dress, but Finn stopped her.
"No Quinn. I love Rachel" he said as he tried to get Quinn off him, but she wouldn't allow him to.
Quinn rolled her eyes and proceeded to take her dress off and brought his hand to her breast "Tell me you don't want this" She said in a seductive manner and once again brought her lips to his and this time kissed him with all the love and passion she felt for him, and she smiled when she felt him respond. She broke away and smirked "Tell me that means nothing to you."
Finn sighed and handed Quinn back her dress. "Quinn stop it. I'm with Rachel!"
Quinn frowned she was practically throwing herself at him and he still didn't want her, he still wanted her. She put her dress back on and without looking at Finn or saying a word to him she left. It was over for her and Finn, it was only now that Quinn realised.
You promised yourself
But to somebody else
And you made it so perfectly clear
Still I wish you were here
18 months had passed now and Quinn was enjoying her studies at Yale. She was making loads of new friends and enjoying going out partying and drinking, which had helped at times. She would still keep in touch with some of the old gang including Santana, Brittany, Mercedes and Puck, but everyone else she had lost contact with and for Finn and Rachel she had not said a word to either of them since her encounter with Finn. Last she knew the two were still engaged and were due to marry later on in the year. Today she was returning to Lima to see her mother and to catch up with friends. She was wheeled her suitcase onto the train and took a seat to herself by the window, where for the next five hours she would enjoy the view or probably play doodle jump on her iphone and listen to her music. An hour into the journey Quinn was already getting bored; she looked at her phone messages and saw she had two new ones. One was from her mother and the other from Santana. She started to reply to them but was distracted when she heard someone call her name. The voice sounded so familiar, like one she hadn't heard for a while. She was hoping that when she lifted her face to face whoever was there, it wasn't who she thought it would be. She looked up and was greeted by a pair of warm chocolate eyes, and a cute smile that only he could give. Finn Hudson her first love and the guy she just couldn't get over.
"Never look back," we said
How was I to know I'd miss you so?
A/N - Had this story/idea brewing in my head for a few weeks now. It's based on a Britney Spears - From The Bottom Of My Broken Heart and I just thought it would work well with this concept. Disclaim - I do not own Glee or any of the characters. I hope you guys liked it and leave a review and thank you for reading.