Désirer
What do I see when I look in the mirror of erised?
The first time I saw the mirror of erised was in my 5th year. It was 7 years after Voldemort had been defeated. The whole battle against Voldemort had never really affected my family, it was still completely intact. We were one of the older wizard families. We were wealthy and my father worked for the ministry. I was one of the top students in my year, I had a wealthy powerful family, and a circle of friends. I always had whatever I wanted. I had always thought I was happy, and why shouldn't I be? It wasn't like there was anything I needed.
I remember, it was in divination class that my teacher, Professer Cassiandra, brought it out. She showed it to the class and asked us to guess what it showed. She told us what her professer had told her about the mirror, that the happiest man in the world would be able to use it as a normal mirror and see himself just as he is. When no one tried to guess, she told us the answer. The mirror shows us our deepest desires. She asked us in turn to look into the mirror. I had no idea what I would see.
Did you know that she was wrong? The teacher that told her was too. The mirror of erised shows you your heart's deepest desire. But just because you are happy doesn't mean you don't have desires. And just because you don't have desires doesn't mean you are happy. Do you know what I see when I look into the mirror of erised? I see myself looking into the mirror of erised. I don't mean I just see myself as I am. I literally see myslelf, staring into the mirror of erised. I can't see what my mirror self is seeing in the mirror. But my mirror self looks awed, as if I'm seeing all my dreams come true. I looked into the mirror that day and realised that my deepest desire was simply to have one. I had lived my life knowing what to expect, getting whatever I wanted. Everything had always been easy. I never had a desire or a dream. Everything in the world I could want, I already had. So in a way it didn't make sense that I should want to desire something I couldn't get. But all my life I had been deprived of desire. I never had anything to work towards or to want. I never had a passion. I never had anything I worked hard for, never knew the reward of succeeding at something you've been working hard at a long time. And it was this that I wanted.
After my experience with the mirror, I realized why I wasn't happy. Everyone needs to have dreams. I look down at my trunk, which is packed. Tomorrow, I am leaving for Albania to fight dark creatures there. My parents think I am crazy. I have a job offering at the ministry of magic. But this is my choice, my path. As I prepare to leave for my destination, I look up at my normal mirror and see what has long been my deepest desire. I see my face staring back at me. There is uncertainy in my eyes, and a smile on my face.
What do I see when I look in the mirror of erised?
The first time I saw the mirror of erised was in my 5th year. It was 7 years after Voldemort had been defeated. The whole battle against Voldemort had never really affected my family, it was still completely intact. We were one of the older wizard families. We were wealthy and my father worked for the ministry. I was one of the top students in my year, I had a wealthy powerful family, and a circle of friends. I always had whatever I wanted. I had always thought I was happy, and why shouldn't I be? It wasn't like there was anything I needed.
I remember, it was in divination class that my teacher, Professer Cassiandra, brought it out. She showed it to the class and asked us to guess what it showed. She told us what her professer had told her about the mirror, that the happiest man in the world would be able to use it as a normal mirror and see himself just as he is. When no one tried to guess, she told us the answer. The mirror shows us our deepest desires. She asked us in turn to look into the mirror. I had no idea what I would see.
Did you know that she was wrong? The teacher that told her was too. The mirror of erised shows you your heart's deepest desire. But just because you are happy doesn't mean you don't have desires. And just because you don't have desires doesn't mean you are happy. Do you know what I see when I look into the mirror of erised? I see myself looking into the mirror of erised. I don't mean I just see myself as I am. I literally see myslelf, staring into the mirror of erised. I can't see what my mirror self is seeing in the mirror. But my mirror self looks awed, as if I'm seeing all my dreams come true. I looked into the mirror that day and realised that my deepest desire was simply to have one. I had lived my life knowing what to expect, getting whatever I wanted. Everything had always been easy. I never had a desire or a dream. Everything in the world I could want, I already had. So in a way it didn't make sense that I should want to desire something I couldn't get. But all my life I had been deprived of desire. I never had anything to work towards or to want. I never had a passion. I never had anything I worked hard for, never knew the reward of succeeding at something you've been working hard at a long time. And it was this that I wanted.
After my experience with the mirror, I realized why I wasn't happy. Everyone needs to have dreams. I look down at my trunk, which is packed. Tomorrow, I am leaving for Albania to fight dark creatures there. My parents think I am crazy. I have a job offering at the ministry of magic. But this is my choice, my path. As I prepare to leave for my destination, I look up at my normal mirror and see what has long been my deepest desire. I see my face staring back at me. There is uncertainy in my eyes, and a smile on my face.