Law and Order: SVU

Summary: When Olivia receives some upsetting news, who knew that happiness would be round the corner? And will a certain blue-eyed Detective help her out? Elliot and Kathy got divorced so set in Series 8 after Olivia came back from undercover.

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Best Friends or a family?

Been a mom is a big deal to most women; some put their careers first, some put their families and partners first. But what if you wanted that family but it was too late? What would you do? Turn to your work partner of course! That is exactly what 41 year old Detective Olivia Benson did; after discovering there was very little chance of ever conceiving, she had broke down in front of Elliot Stabler, her partner of 8 years.

She had just got back from a four month undercover stint in Oregon for the FBI; she had missed Elliot, and the rest of the gang, incredibly but it was what she had to do. She didn't have a choice; she just hoped that Elliot would be able to forgive her for abandoning him when his marriage to Kathy was in tatters.

The first time they had seen each other was when she was assigned to be his handler after he had beaten up a homeless witness who couldn't talk; he was pretty shocked when he'd heard her voice and even more surprised when she'd walked in with a new hair style, but by the end of the day, it was as if she'd never left.

Working in Oregon she'd had a lot of time to think and she came to the conclusion: she was in love with her partner and she wanted nothing more than to be a mom.

When she had been told the heartbreaking news after a trip to the doctors, she was devastated; she headed back to the precinct in a blur, she couldn't recall how she'd got there. She sat at her desk and sighed as she started her paperwork; she glanced up and saw Elliot staring at her, knowing something was upsetting her. Instead of pretending everything was fine – her usual defence barrier – she legged it out of the squad room and up to the roof, her safe, thinking place; she wrapped her arms around herself and shivered as her sobs wracked her body.

She felt a jacket been put around her shoulders before been turned around; she bent her head and hid it in her hands in an attempt to stop Elliot from seeing her cry but it was too late. He lifted her chin, wiped away her tears and pulled her into his strong arms as he kissed her hair; she buried her head in his shoulder and gripped his shirt in her hands. She took a while before she finally started to calm down; a part of her didn't want to move because she knew she'd have to explain her emotional outburst in front of him. She sighed and wiped her eyes as Elliot helped her put her jacket on properly; she slowly looked up at him as he took her hand and led her to sit on the bench.

"Liv, are you okay?" he asked, with concern.

"I'm fine" she replied, reverting back to her defence barrier.

"No, you're not"

"Please, don't El…I can't…" she whispered as the fire door leading to the stairwell opened and Captain Don Cragen stepped through.

"We got a case"

As Don disappeared, Olivia was grateful for the interruption in the conversation.

"Liv?"

"We've got work to do" she said as she headed for the fire door.