Summary: My feelings for someone, put into a Loveless situation.
Disclaimer: All Loveless characters belong to Yun Kouga.
Soubi sighed, dangling a round locket by its chain. It was a symbol that he loves Ritsuka with all of his heart and soul. He'd put a picture of Ritsuka on one side, along with them together in the other. Except, no matter how often he would love for Ritsuka to ask: 'what's in the locket, Soubi?' the boy never would. He doubted he's even glanced at it.
He doesn't understand the large amount of love Soubi desires to give him. Although, how can he with his life still in pieces from his only brother's "death". That's still not an excuse though, to ignore the fact that he's loved though and he's hurting not only himself, but ones who do love him.
"Ritsuka, if I could only hear those words," he whispered into the darkness, only the moon's glow shining in. "Please.. just one time.. say 'I love you'." He looked up at the ceiling and sighed again. He rolled over in his bed, slamming his face into a pillow. He needed Ritsuka, not just wanted, needed.
It amazed Soubi how one person can just make you smile, without even thinking about it. Just seeing them brightens your day. Also, that, that one person can make you hurt and don't even recognize it. Is this 'love' just a cruel, sick joke that someone is playing on us all? Is that honestly all we want in the world, is to feel that emotion, when knowing that all it does is lead into pain? Those without this feeling of love feel empty, their hearts become cold, and shut the world out.
Is that what you've become, Ritsuka? Someone who doesn't want to feel love and hates everyone else for it? I'm nothing like him, Ritsuka. I won't leave you or want to kill you. You're my hope and the only thing I need to keep living. Just don't fully break my heart, okay?
This is the edited version. Proof-read. Originally posted: 7-10-07.