Ok, so this is what's happening. I am redoing this. All of it. After I post this, I am going to delete all the chapters before it and make it the first as this is supposed to be the first. If you've read this before and are like "WTF no new update!?" you are wrong. I have changed the plot and story a little, as well as added a lot more story and changed it from 1st to 3rd person. A lot of changes going down. As soon as I post this, I'm also posting the second chapter I just got finished with. Sometime tonight or tomorrow the redone 3rd chapter will be posted, and then the fourth before we finally hit the new chapter. I'm in college and life is busy, I got writers' block real bad on Violent Roses but had a huge need to write so I'm doing so on this story. I'm so sorry to have kept Y'all waiting this long! I promise it's the same overarching story plot, I just changed a few details and added some more stuff. Please be patient and I hope you enjoy.

It was raining hard in the city of Shinganshina, a large capital buzzing with life as the sun glinted off skyscrapers and people rushed about. But not today, today it was gray. Rain hailed down on the citizens as they ran around the city. People yelled out for taxis and at cars that had splashed water on them while speeding by. All the hustle and bustle of city life lay still in a dirty alleyway between a bakery and a dollar store. It was like any typical alley, cold, wet and dirty enough that merely looking at the overflowing dumpsters and mildly dubious stains on the walls and ground would make anyway rush home for a long hot shower. Sadly, this wasn't the case for a small, cold kitten. His charcoal fur was drenched, making him look more like a drowned rat than a cat. He had no choice in the matter, the man who owned his mom separated them, with Levi being the runt of the litter he wasn't meant to survive and at the young age of 5 weeks, he was thrown out.

Another flash and rumble from the sky had the little kitten crying out again. Levi hated thunder, the scary loud noise doing nothing to ease his anxiety as Levi tried to sleep. But even sleep didn't come to the little kitten, for he feared that if he fell asleep, he would never wake again. His mama had told him about the permanent sleep, explained why one of his siblings would no longer meow, stand or open his eyes again. It was a sad day to learn about permanent sleep, his mama never was the same afterward and Levi could tell. He didn't want to die, he didn't want to never move again. He promised himself that he would stay strong and live dammit! He was small and defenseless, laying in that wet cardboard box, trying to curl up and ignore the scary thunder outside. His small cries were drowned out by the thundering rain or ignored as people walked past, his mewls of hunger forgotten when someone took a bite of food themselves. No one cared what happened to the kitten. No cared about him. No one cared about Levi. That fact alone made Levi cry louder.

No one loved him. No one cared about him. Little Levi was surrounded by angry thoughts, all demanding things he couldn't bring himself to do. Little did he know a little boy walked by, a little boy named Eren Jaeger. Eren was going to the dollar store to get some cheap stuff for his sister's birthday. He was sadly orphaned at a young age, the only family he had left was his adoptive sister. He currently lived with her and Hannes, his neighbor who decided to take in the duo when both his parents died. He loved his sister and wanted to give her the most with what they had. Despite the hardships, the 11-year-old tried to look at the bright side. He had money from his allowance that he saved up just for this. Some people looked at him strangely as they walked past, after all, he was a kid with a bright green umbrella and bright green rubber boots all by himself in the big bad city of Shinganshina, stomping through every puddle with a bright smile. He also wore a worn down brown jacket and red scarf, the jacket being his late father's and the scarf a gift from his mother for his seventh birthday.

Eren cheered as the familiar Daiso and Kyomi's laundromat signs came into his view, running ahead as he thought about what to get his sister. Over the loud pounding of rain against cement and impatient cars honking at each other, it was hard to hear anything else, but as Eren passed the alley in between the Daiso and the laundromat he stopped. What was that sound just now...? I swear I just heard something... He wondered and peered into the dank and dirty alley. There appeared to be nothing unusual about it, large dumpsters and small steel trash cans lined the walls, litter of all sorts strew about the sides of each building. Eren stilled for a few moments, straining to hear that odd noise again but shrugged when he heard nothing. Must be imagining things- wait! There it was again. Loud and high pitched, piercing his ears in a way that broke Eren's heart.

Slowly, Eren inched forward, still wary of his surroundings but wanting to help whatever poor creature was making that noise. He strained to hear it again, looking behind trash cans and under sopping newspapers until he found a box nestled into a corner next to the dumpster. Eren quickly opened the wet box and gasped. A little kitten was curled into the corner, soaked to the bone and shaking with fear and the cold weather. It was black as night except for a white ring of fur around his neck and a triangle-like shape on his chest. As soon as the box was opened, little Levi looked up and his grey eyes widened in surprise. Someone heard me and actually took the time to see me? He thought and stared into amazing green eyes. What was this brat doing? Is he here to help me?! He continued to stare up at the boy and slowly found myself melting into those warm pools of green and blue. Why is he here? He wondered and didn't even flinch when the boy reached his hand down towards his face. He held it out for him and Levi hesitantly sniffed it. He smells like the ocean and a warm meal, or perhaps the sun in a forest. It was intoxicating and he quickly licked the boy's finger. At the rough sandpaper feeling, the boy shot backward in surprise and took his hand with him, scaring the shit out of Levi with the quick and sudden movement.

"You scared me! I thought you were going to bite me..." Eren exclaimed before his beautiful eyes widened. "Oh my! You must be hungry and cold! Poor kitty... Here!" He murmured before taking a red scarf from his neck. Levi stood as best as he could but found his legs felt quite numb. He moved towards the boy a little more, curiously trying to smell the boy now but the sent of rain completely overpowered him. Eren carefully leaned down and wrapped the warm red fabric around Levi's body, cooing when he felt the kitten stiffen in fear. Levi expected the worst, not taking his eyes off the hands that descended upon him, ready to strike at any moment. What's happening right now? Why is he... being nice to me? His scarf was warm and Levi's cold, wet form soaked it in. Wait! Why aren't I feeling the rain? He looked up and sure enough, the boy held his bright green umbrella over him. Now the boy was being soaked but that didn't seem to sway him at all.

"Stay here kitty. I'll go get you something to eat! I will be right back so don't move, ok?" He said happily before turning and running out of the alleyway. He left his umbrella over the kitten as Levi started to get warm in his scarf, his little paws making muffins into the soft fabric as he began to dry. Why is he helping me? I was nothing to him yet he's going to get me food? He even gave me his scarf and his umbrella, knowing he'd be cold and wet in my place. But why? As he pondered it in the comforts of the red scarf, the boy came back with at least 10 cans of cat food in his hand and a carton of milk in his other one. Holy shit he bought all of those for me!?

"I'm back Kitty! I have food for you too! In all sorts of flavors as well!" He exclaimed as he parked himself next to Levi's box. He was soaked and shivering slightly but that didn't change the smile on his face as he began opening a can of food. Maybe... Maybe this boy is just that thoughtful. Levi's heart warmed at the thought and he stared at the smiling face above him. I wouldn't mind going home with this brat. He seemed nice enough. He watched him open up one of the seafood flavored ones and his stomach growled painfully. When's the last time I actually ate? Too long for me to remember. As soon as he put it down in front of him, Levi was lapping it up, eating quickly in case he decided that the abused cat wasn't worth the food. In case this was a twisted game where he was only playing around and this was actually a cruel joke.

"Hey... you need to slow down! I heard that if you're hungry and you eat too fast that you can get a heart attack! Well... for humans anyway. Can cats get heart attacks? Huh. Anyway, I'm not taking it away so just slow down. There's plenty more where that came from. Now... what should I call you...?" He trailed off and Levi did as he asked and slowed down. Levi found himself slowly relaxing as he sat in the middle of his bundle of scarf and under the boy's umbrella. This brat is not half bad. But I already had a name, so how was I supposed to tell him what my name is without turning into a human?

"I know! You have black fur and it looks really soft and fluffy... so... Kuppuru! I'll call you Kuppuru! How does that sound?" He asked and sat down next to his box. It wasn't bad. But it's not my name. Well... I have no means to tell him that so I guess Kuppuru will have to do. Levi meowed and nodded his head which makes the boy smile widely in awe.

"Wow! You're smart too! That's amazing! Oh my! I completely forgot, where are my manners eh? My name is Eren." He said happily and continued to watch the wet kitten eat. Eren noticed that the kitten was merely on the scarf, so he took a moment to somewhat tuck the kitten in by folding the fabric over his small body. Poor kitty, how has he survived this long in such cold weather?! Levi began to purr when he felt the boy cover him in blanket, body vibrating so hard he feared he may fall over. Eren. I like it. Maybe... just maybe... he might take me home. I certainly wouldn't mind going home with the kind human. He was nice and he was happy which made me feel happy myself. Eren took out a small bowl and poured milk into it before placing it before him.

"Kittens need milk, right? I don't know if cow milk will help a kitten but it's better than nothing." He murmured and wiped his water soaked hair away from his eyes. He was still shivering and Levi knew that if the brat didn't get warm soon then he would get a cold. So, he meowed loudly to stop Eren's rambling and get his attention back to him. His eyes immediately find his as he looks over the kitten. "What's wrong?" He asked and Levi tried to push the scarf over to him. He seemed to understand what the kitten was doing but all he did was smile.

"No. It's ok I'm fine. I'm not the one living in a cold wet box. I want you to keep it Kuppuru."

Dammit, why was he so sweet? Eren stood and looked out at the wet street before sighing in defeat.

"I'm sorry, I have to go home now. I'll come back tomorrow to open up the other can of food ok?" He asked but it was in vain since Levi still couldn't answer.

"Jyaa ne Kuppuru!" The boy waved before running off. He's going to come back! I can see him tomorrow! Levi purred lightly and fell asleep in the warm scarf under his new umbrella, dreaming about warm, loving sunshine with green eyes.

~ HRoH ~

It became a daily occurrence for his sunshine, Eren, to come and visit him. Levi doesn't know when, but he soon found himself calling Eren his sunshine quite often. He understood why though, he brought light into the storm that was the kittens' life. Eren made Levi warm when he was cold and… he really liked his presence, and him. He brought color to his otherwise dark and cold days. He always came around the afternoon so that Levi could eat some of the food he bought him. At first, he would only stay to make sure Levi ate before leaving, but now he stays longer and longer every day. Levi found himself looking forward to his visits and feeling sad when he eventually had to leave. I really wanted him to take me. I don't care where I just want to stay with him and see what the life of a house cat is like.

Eren talked about himself and told the curious kitty about his life when he wasn't taking care of him. Levi found out that like him, he was orphaned at a young age and does all he can to help his sister and his neighbor named Hannes pay for them. He loves the color silver and the ocean very much. His family is from Germany but he doesn't remember what it was like there. He likes tea and at one point he even brought some for the kitten to try, even though he didn't know if it was ok for him to have it. Surprisingly, Levi liked it a lot and ended up drinking the whole cup, which Eren found hilarious for some reason and wouldn't stop laughing for 5 minutes.

Levi liked the sound of his voice as he spoke of all the trouble he gets in. His sunshine gets in a lot of trouble and fights with a kid he calls horse face. But no matter how much time Levi spend with Eren, he still calls him Kuppuru. While Levi feels like the name has grown on him quite a bit, he didn't want Eren to call him that forever. I want him to say my name, my real name. It's been two weeks since Levi first met him and he realized that in all that time, Eren has never touched Levi in any way. He pours the milk and slides it over or pushes my food bowl towards him, but he never touches Levi. Why? Do I smell bad or look dirty? I clean myself daily so there's no way I'm dirty. So why? As of right now, the brat was sitting next to Levi's box, talking about his latest brawl and reenacting some of the moves he or the other kid made. The box he currently laid in was not the box he had when he first met Eren, it was a large styrofoam box that wouldn't get ruined in the rain, which Levi loved. Eren also brought a few toy mice and a blanket that smelled like him. Levi loved the blanket almost as much as he loved his scarf. And while Levi loved this new feeling of warmth and being surrounded by Eren's comforting scent, he noticed that Eren was getting sick.

He had to keep stopping mid-sentence to cough and sneeze, which Eren noticed had started a couple days after he came to see him. He looked really sick but his smile never wavered, he never came late either. He always came to give Levi food and tried not to cough or sneeze on the kitten. He must've gotten sick from when he stood out in the pouring rain. Stupid brat, he needs to take better care of himself. But sickness aside, Levi really wanted Eren to pet him. Which is an honor since Levi doesn't like anyone touching him. Right, this is the time to act then. If I get him to pet me and I act all lovey-dovey, then maybe he'll finally take me home! With that goal in mind, Levi mewled and look up at his beautiful little sunshine. Eren trailed off from whatever he was saying and looked down, only to see the feisty kitten studying him intently.

"What? Do you want more food?" He asked and leaned over the box to have a better view of the cute kitten. Levi meows again and starts rubbing against the box, back arched and tail in the air. C'mon c'mon... look at how cute I am dammit!

Eren just stared blankly at the kitten with a raised brow and internally, Levi was screaming. Fine. I'll have to step up my game. He meowed louder and rubbed up against the side once more, purring and looking pointedly at his thick-headed brat. It took a few moments, but quickly Eren's eyes sparkled as he realized what the cute kitty wanted and sighed sadly.

"I'm so sorry Kuppuru. I can't pet you. I'm allergic to cats." Eren explained and Levi stopped cold. All of existence halted to the cat, his body still and eyes wide in surprise. Is he for real!? Allergic to cats!? Then why the fuck is he taking care of me!? Eren seemed to understand that his statement contradicted his actions because he then decided to explain. "Just because I'm allergic to cats... that doesn't mean I can let one suffer and die. Even if I got sick... at least now you won't be." He said with a small smile and his words fully registered in the kitten's brain.

Got sick. Am I the reason he's sick? I mean if he was to get a cold from the rain then wouldn't he have had it the day after? He started sneezing a few days after the rain stopped, was I really the cause? This brat knew he was allergic but still stayed with me just to make sure I lived and was ok... even though I wasn't his problem? Even though he could just leave and never come back. He didn't even have to see me in the first place! But he still did. He did and he stayed even though it hurts him too.

Levi's little ears flopped, his disheartened expression was quickly noticed by the boy but all he could do was smile sadly. However, Eren quickly came up with an idea, a look of determination flared in his eyes and he gripped the edge of the box tightly.

"I promise, that I will get over my allergy to cats, so that I may pet you Kuppuru! I'll overcome it for you!" He shouted and smiled happily at the cute kitten he wanted so badly to hold, to comfort. "Just wait a little longer ok? I will get better and when I do, I will pet you as you've never been pet before!" He murmured, standing up before continuing, "But for now, I have to go. I'll see you tomorrow! Jyaa mata!" He waved happily before running off, leaving the little kitten to settle down in his scarf and reflect.

Was I... making the brat sick? But aren't allergies fatal? You don't get over them from exposure! You get over them with time right? And that's only sometimes. So... I could end up killing him, just by letting him stay near me. The horrific thought had his heart thumping heavily in his chest, the piercing he felt there no doubt heartbreak. Just the thought of his sunshine dying, sleeping with no signs of awakening... No. This must end. I'll leave, I'll take some of the food and make it look like someone took me home. I can't let him die because of me.

The scent of Eren clogged his senses, soothing the sad kitten as well as filling him with a renewed determination. The scent of Eren would soon fade, just like Eren's memory of Levi. While the thought pained him enough to let out a whimper, he knew it was what had to be done. I'm doing him a favor by leaving. He won't have to buy me food anymore and he won't die. I'm not being overdramatic, am I? No. No, I'm not. Eren can die from an allergy just as well as anyone else can. I wouldn't be able to handle it if he died, especially if I was the cause. I've grown very fond of Eren over the last two weeks, it saddens me to leave but… it was for the best.

Goodbye… my sunshine…

~ HRoH ~

"Kuppuru?"

Where's Kuppuru?

The only thought that went through Eren's mind as he looked down at the styrofoam box that he had become so familiar with these past few weeks. It was completely devoid of both his beloved kitten and of the food for the said kitten. Even the scarf and blanket he had given him was gone.

"No… no… no! Kuppuru where are you?!" He called out, looking around frantically in the hopes that his Kuppuru was merely hiding beneath a soggy newspaper or behind the dumpster. The kitten… no… my kitten was gone. Eren choked back a sob as he searched high and low for his beloved kitten. In all the time he had spent with the cute little thing, he realized he had fallen in love with him. Eren wanted to touch and pet him and take him with him instead of leaving him in the godforsaken box but he couldn't. He couldn't and it killed Eren to see how skinny Kuppuru was and how cold he must've been. How no matter what Eren always found him where he left him. Always wrapped so perfect and snug into his red scarf and it made Eren so happy to know it kept him warm. That Eren actually helped his little kitten have a somewhat better life. It made him happy to know he was making a difference. But now he's… he's gone. Did he leave? Did someone come and take him?

The thought of anyone touching him, let alone taking him away, sent a wave of fury and sorrow rushing through him. He's my kitten! I took care of him when no one else would! Why does someone care now? Why did they take him when it was obvious that someone was taking care of him!? 'Maybe he left you. Just like your parents did.' A voice whispered in the back of his mind and it made his insides twist painfully. No… he… he wouldn't run away, right? I mean… why leave when you have someone to feed you and warm you?

'Because you couldn't be there completely. Because he doesn't care about you. Because he found someone to do it better!' The voice screamed in his mind and he fell to his knees, hot tears starting to roll down his cheeks as he looked into the empty box.

"Am I really that worthless…? First my mom…" He choked out and continued to stare at the box. Memories of his mother's death flooding through his head. Images of her blood-soaked hair and skin, the way her eyes seemed to stare into nothing, the way her guts spilled onto the pavement.

"Then my dad…" He sobbed, images of his father laying on the floor, the shotgun that he always kept under lock and key laying by his side. The evidence of what he had done to himself splattered on the walls behind him. Eren remembers the way Mikasa sat there, having tried to convince him to stop before it was too late, to put down the gun and get some help. A black bruise on her cheek and a scarred childhood dipped in death were what she got for the effort.

"And now you… Kuppuru? You left me too?" He whispered as he continued to stare. I shouldn't be crying, he was a cat that I happened to feed and talk to. That's it. Why do I feel so sad? Why does it feel like my heart is breaking? Why do I love that cat so much? Was it his beautiful blue-gray eyes? Or the way they lit up when I came? Or maybe the way he purred when he slept or as I was talking to him. Eren will never know if Kuppuru realized that he purred whenever he talked to him, but it was the cutest thing in the entire world. No, he was the cutest thing in the entire world. He was mine, for that short amount of time… he was mine.

But now… I'll never see him again. To be realistic, if someone took him in then I'd definitely never see him. That made him even sadder and he finally burst, crying into his hands next to his box shaking from the sobs that wracked his body and the frigid winter air. He took a few gulps of air and looked up at the sky when he felt something cold hit his neck. The sky was gray as it started snowing lightly, sticking lightly to the ground in a pure white blanket. Eren cried harder and soon found himself laying on the ground.

"Have a nice life… Kuppuru…" Eren managed to say through the gasping breathes of air. He stayed there the rest of the day, only going home when his left arm stopped working properly.

He went back the next day and the day after that. Falling into a routine of going for about an hour and talking to the box that once held his precious kitten, hoping that maybe one day, he would return.