I was on my bed listening to a cd I just burned off the internet. There was a certain song that caught my attention. Irvine. I listened to it all the time when Edward left me. Some of the parts still relate to me. Sometime I would cry listening to this song. I closed my eyes and started to sing it.
Are you there?
Are you watching me?
(The part that relate to me the most)
As I lie here on this floor
they say you feel what I do
they say you're here every moment
will you stay?
Stay 'till the darkness leaves
Stay here with me
I could feel a bit of sadness. I felt so much pain when he left… I could feel the burning tears. I hope he doesn't see me
I know you're busy, I know I'm just one
But you might be the only one who sees me
the only one to save me
He does save me so many. Times actually! Emotionally and physically!
Why is it so hard?
Why can't you just take me?
I don't have much to go before I fade completely
Exactly, why couldn't he turn into a vampire? Why couldn't he just take me with him? Does it cause him so much disgust?
Can you feel how cold I am?
Do you cry as I do?
Are you lonely up there all by yourself?
Like I have felt all my life
the only one to save mine
well actually the first part reminds me of him. I wondered if he ever felt like me. He says he does. But I wish I was actually was there
How are you so strong?
What's it like to feel so free?
Your heart is really something your love, a complete mystery to me
How was he so strong? How could he even love me? His love was a complete mystery to me.
Are you there watching me?
As I lie here on this floor
do you cry, do you cry with me?
Cry with me tonight
please be here with me tonight Edward I need you. You…have no idea!
Are you there?
Are you watching me?
I opened my eyes. I stared toward the ceiling; it was a rare night tonight. I took a step toward my window. It was still very cloudy as usual. But in the middle of the sky there was an opening with a crescent moon and so many stars around it. I wondered how forks would look like if there were any clear night skies. I heard my door open. It was Edward. Then he says "Bella, love you sing very beautifully. I feel the same way." I couldn't bush at what he said. But tears were also brimming my eyes. Then he grabs my chin and makes me look at him. "Bella, not only does your blood sing for me but so does your beautiful voice." then he kissed me. It was very gentle, and light. Then I say "thank you. Thank you for listening."