A/N: Well, this is my first attempt at phan fiction, (so please be kind!).

Basically this is my interpretation of Erik and Christine's thoughts after Christine had her rendezvous with Raoul atop the Opera House.

I tried to make it both book and movie friendly. There are a few quotes from the book and the movie that I used in this to more closely link it to both the book and the movie.

So, here it is hope you like it! Please review, feedback is really appreciated! (",)

The Angel Sees, the Angel Knows

Erik's POV

I can't breathe! Here at the very pinnacle of my chosen domain, caught between Heaven's stars and mans' crude, artificial lighting, (where air should've been the least of my worries!), I can't breathe!

I can hardly form words. I, whose knowledge is limitless, have been struck dumb by Fate's most cruel intervention. Why did I follow her? Have I not suffered enough?

Never did I believe that there would come a day when her golden voice, my proudest creation, would torture me so unmercifully! A day when I would give anything to make her fall silent forever so I would never have to hear her speak those wretched words of betrayal! Those sickening words of unjust truth to that unworthy boy…

Oh Christine…My Christine…You were mine…Why?

God, the rage, the blinding rage and the crushing sorrow!

You do not know what you have done to your poor Erik, your poor, foolish Erik.

Don't you see all that I have done for you? You were a mere child when I came to you, a lost child discarded by Fate just as I had been.

Had I simply ignored your desperate cry for help, grief at the unfulfilment of your Father's promise and your failure to achieve your dreams would've destroyed you. But I could not ignore you, you clawed your way into my heart, inch by agonising inch, and so the Angel of Music was born.

Perhaps I should not have fooled you, my dear, but you were so desperate to believe in something again that I found I could not regret my decision too fiercely. And so with Your Angel's guidance, even though he was just a man, you ascended; no longer were you a lowly worshipper of Music, you had become Its Goddess! And I worshipped you did I not? Unworthy to touch you, yet you allowed me to touch, unworthy to love you and yet, oh bittersweet agony, I loved!

I would cut out my heart should you mention, in passing, that it may please you! I would give you my soul, tarnished though it may be, if you would only surrender your love to me! Why do you fight the darkness I know you crave in your most secret of dreams? Everything I did was for you, in your name!

But I declare my all-consuming love in vain, for you would declare it unrequited. I see clearly now! A harsh, unrelenting light has been shone on your deceit and it is there, illuminated so beautifully for me to see! But what you have done is not beautiful, is it, my dear? Oh no, not at all! Erik will show you just how ugly you have made things, for Erik knows all about ugliness, wouldn't you agree, Christine?

You let fear and a handsome face whisper lies in your ear! You followed in meek resignation as that damned Vicompte led you astray. You have forfeited your heart to a mere mortal and now you can no longer remain divine! Your heart was to be mine and I would've loved you forever!

But, oh dear, you forget, you ignorant child, that your soul was mine long ago! He can never have that! Your immortal soul will share eternity with me just as it longs to, and you cannot change that…we cannot change who we are in the depths of our souls…

I was a fool, a pathetic fool to believe that you would love a ghost, a monster instead of a man, a White Knight. But, oh Christine, I could've been a man again for you, anything for you! This nightmarish face would have ceased to haunt you after a time had you only opened your mind to the wonders I could've shown you.

But no, no, no you would rather marry a child who will never understand you as I do now, never allow you to become all that you could be! A Prima Donna the likes of which the world has never and will never see again? No, not you, not anymore. Now you will be a beautiful porcelain doll, painted, dressed and put on a shelf for all the elite to see. Look but don't touch…

My heart clenches in disgust at the thought! You have destroyed it all now in your heartlessness. My God, I love you so much that I believe I could hate you for it! You have broken me! I will never be able to sing without hearing your Siren's voice, never be able to compose without seeing your cruelly lovely face! I could've died for you, I could've killed for you…I could kill you!

No, NO! I must stop this wicked madness! Not you, never you! But the boy…yes, yes, the boy! I could kill him; I could kill him and keep you forever and a day! His death will fix it all; he'll have no hold over you then.

He deserves to die, he has dared to taint the purity of a Goddess and steal the Angel of Music's bride. Or perhaps now I am the Angel of Doom once more?

Vengeance, my blood screams for it!

Ah, I find that I can breathe a little better now, now that I have embraced the darkness within. Like the Phantom I am so aptly named, I shall rise from the shadows and bring death to my enemies. I will teach them all that my wrath is to be most profoundly feared! Raoul de Chagny, your insolence has angered me for the last time! Death has marked you and will come soon, to claim you from my murderous hands.

And Christine, sweet Christine, don't think that your betrayal will be overlooked. I find that I cannot forgive you that easily. My trust has been broken along with my heart, but soon you will have forever to make it up to me. The kiss you bestowed upon the boy was the kiss of Death, did you not realise?

You may have left long ago, to plot and hide with your young lover, but don't think that you can escape me, don't think that that is what you truly want, my deceitful little love. The Angel sees, the Angel knows…

I will show you not to toy with me so; I will show you that you belong to me. You were always mine. Then there will be no more tears, no more pain. Your dear, loving Erik will be with you always.

And he'll always be there singing songs in your head…he'll always be there…singing songs in your head…