A/N: Hello, guys! So, this is my first quincest fanfic, I hope you will like it! Please leave a review, thank you!

Chapter 1: Dark Come Soon

„Is she okay?", Lindsey asked me as we were getting ready for the show in Glasgow. Sara was in the other room, getting her make up done and I was spending some time with Lindsey, picking the right outfit for the show.

I shrugged and looked at the doors to Sara´s room. She´s been acting weird lately and it was starting to piss me off. I was okay with the fact that we were sometimes fighting, making jokes of each other, but it was never this serious. She was very angry and I didn´t know the reason. When you have a twin, it´s even harder, because when she´s angry, you´re angry as well.

Everytime I said something to her, she just shouted something back. She wasn´t able to speak to me in a normal way and it was annyoing. I am her sister, her twin sister and I love her, so why should we fight like this? It was stupid. We were fighting like this when we were little kids, but it didn´t last for longer than 2 days. This lasted for almost 2 fucking weeks.

„Do you have any idea of what happend?", Lindsey kept asking me questions, because she was also worried about her, just as I was. She noticed how was she acting, well, I guess everyone noticed, even the band mates. Everyone could saw that rage in Sara´s eyes, they didn´t even have to be her twin.

I thought about it for a moment. Did I something wrong? I would remeber that, right? Because everytime I piss her off, she let me know. So this wasn´t about me, it was about someone else. Maybe...it was Emy. Who knows, I don´t care, it´s her own motherfucking problem.

Okay, maybe I do care, because she is the closest person to me and I wont be complete without her, but it´s all her fault. She shouldn´t act like that. She should just tell me what´s the matter or how can I help her, not being a bitch to me the whole fucking time.

„I don´t wanna talk about it, okay? I have no fucking idea of what happend, but I hope she wont be a bitch to me the whole tour.", I told Lindsey. I didn´t mean to be mean to Lindsey and thankfully, she understood that and just smiled at me, knowing I was having a hard time with my sister. This is what I loved about Lindsey – she always understood mine strong relationship with my twin.

As I turned around, I saw Sara standing in the room and it surprised me.

I didn´t even know, how did she get in there, she must have been really quiet. I looked at her,together with Lindsey, who didn´t exept her to be there either. Sara looked devastated. Her eyes were puffy and she looked like she´s been crying the last three hours. It broke my heart, to see my sister like that. But she looked pissed off, she kept sending me negative vibes through our „twin radar" and I knew this wasn´t going to be okay.

Lindsey felt the uncomfortable situation, she knew thatwe were having our twin communication again and that we were about to talk, so she just said that she has some work to do and she left us there, completely alone.

Sara slowly walked closer to me, looking like a ghost and I started to feel weird. I didn´t know what she´s been up to, I just stared back at her, without saying a single word. Suddenly, she grabbed the hem of my black T-shirt and she pulled me closer to her.

„So I am a bitch to you, huh?", she asked me in a low voice, but I saw she was getting really angry each second she was looking into my eyes. I swallowed and raised both of my eyebrows.

„You know I didn´t mean it like that. I just don´t understand why are you acting like this, what have I done to you, Sara? You are being a bitch to me the whole time!", I almost shouted and right after that, she just explode.

She was about to punch me in the face with her tiny arms, but I quickly grabbed them and I turned her around, so her back was pushing into my chest and I tried to calm her down, even though it was hard, because she started kicking me and she didn´t want to calm down.

„FUCK YOU TEGAN, OKAY?! EMY BROKE UP WITH ME AND I AM FUCKED UP AND YOU THINK I AM A BITCH!", she screamed at me and that broke my heart , but suddenly, she escaped from my arms and she slapped me across my face. I wasn´t expecting her to do that at all.

I don´t know how, or why, but that slap made me so angry, that I couldn´t help myself and I slapped her back. I should know it wasn´t the right thing to do. All the anger left our bodies after that and we just stood there, looking at each other in disbelief and pure pain.

This wasn´t okay. We fought a few times and Sara was using her karate skills on me, but most of the time, it was only for fun. Typical sister fights. This was different. This time, it was a real fight without an actual reason. She was heartbroken and I hurt her even more.

Her whole body started shaking and when I saw the first tears running down her face, it broke me inside. I never wanted to slap her, but I did it. Now, when she needed me the most, I did this to her. I crossed the line and we both knew it. Her tears made me the weakest person in the world, I felt my knees shaking and I couldn´t make it stop.

„Sara, I-.", she didn´t let me finish, she just ran out of my dressing room to her own and she locked herself in there.

„FUCK!", I screamed at myself and I punched the wall. Really, Tegan?! You are so stupid! You should help your sister, not slap her! Look at yourself, look at what you did to her! You are such an asshole!

I kept cursing at myself. I hated myself so much. Even more when I heard Sara crying through the locked door. I knocked at them, but she didn´t respond. She didn´t wanna talk to me. She hated me probably, because I was a terrible sister. I was the worst twin in the history.

Sara was so vulnerable. The memory of her standing in front of me with tears in her eyes rushed to my mind and it was like a knife in my heart. She was always the one, who was weaker. She wasn´t as strong as I was, even her body was tinier than mine. Sara was always the small one, and I was supposed to protect her. My mom gave me my name, because she thought I was stronger and I will take care of my little sister. But now I´ve done such an mistake.

After 30 minutes of sitting there and listening to her and my own crying, I slowly got up from the ground, where I was sitting with my back layed on her door, and I realized we were about to have a show. Shit, I totally forgot about it!

„Sar, I am going to tell them that we are not going to do the show tonight.", I said softly against the door, trying not to cry, but it was hard for me. Suddenly, the door opened and I saw Sara standing right in front of me, with red eyes and tears all over her face.

„No. We are going to perform. I can do this.", she told me in a weak voice and I sighed. I wasn´t going to complain about it, because I knew it will only make another problems that I would regret for sure.

„I am just not sure if I can do this.", I whispered more to myself than her as she walked past me, grabbed her Gibson guitar and left my dressing room.

When we walked on the stage, everyone were screaming our names and it made me smile a bit. I always loved our fans, they were just so crazy about us and they were about to do anything for us. But even though they were so amazing, I couldn´t help myself. I still felt terrible and I was so emotional, that I was just holding myself not to start crying or something.

I didn´t dare to look at Sara. I just hoped she would be okay. My little sister...I couldn´t think about anything else but her in the moment and that´s why I forget what were we about to play. Dark Come Soon. One of the most emotional songs we had. Shit.

I sighed and started playing, together with Sara and then I started singing. I closed my eyes and tried to forget about everything that happend, and just think about the song. For a split of a second I really forgot about everything, I forgot where I was, I forgot about all those crazy lesbians in the crowd, I forgot about the fight between me and my other half...

But suddenly, when I came to the chorus, I opened my eyes and I forgot the words and I knew I was fucked up, so I turned around, not wanting to face all those people in the crowd, but then something happend. Sara continued singing instead of me and that shocked me.

I thought she would just cancel the whole show because of my stupid mistake, or she would just yell at me, but no. She continued singing and I couldn´t, but started crying like a little baby, still playing guitar, to support Sara at least a little.

It was too much for me to take – all those things that happend + being with her on one stage + singing this emotional song. I knew some people in the front row noticed what was happening, because I heard them doing some curious noises, but I didn´t give a shit about it. All I cared about was Sara...

After the show we went to our hotel together with the band. Lindsey didn´t go with us, because she had some work to do, so it was only two of us in one car and the rest of the band in the other. We were sitting next to each other, speachless.

We were like that the whole ride to the hotel. I didn´t dare to talk to her, I was just looking out of the window, or looking at my tattoos on my arms. I looked at her a few times too. She looked exhausted and sad. I wanted to comfort her so much, but I didn´t have the courage to do so.

When we arrived to our hotel, we both got to our rooms. I sighed as I walked in. I doubted I would sleep tonight. I took a quick shower and put my PJ´s on and then I layed down on my bed, looking into the ceiling and thinking.

I couldn´t stop thinking. Those thoughs were running through my head and I knew there was something I had to do. I couldn´t leave it like that. I was afraid that Sara would do something stupid during the night, I couldn´t leave her alone, so I stood up and I slowly walked to the doors of her room and I knocked on her door, not sure, if she would open them or not.

She didn´t. But I wasn´t going to give up so easily, so I tried if the doors weren´t open and thank God, they were. I walked quietly inside, closing the door behind me and I saw Sara laying on her bed under the sheets. I saw only her back, so I didn´t know, if she was asleep or not, but I decide to take a step to her.

„What do you want, Tegan?", she asked quietly, not looking at me and I sat up on her bed, next to her and I sighed, trying to find the right words for an apology.

„I-I came to apologize. Look, it´s all my fault, I should be by your side and-...I am really sorry, Sasa. You know I am. And the only thing I want to do right now is being next to you and comfort you. I want to make you feel that you´re no alone."

She didn´t reply, so I climbed under the sheets next to her and I hugged her tightly from her behind, with my arms around her hips and stomach. It felt weird at first, but it was the only thing I wanted to do right now. I held her really close to me and felt tears falling down my face. It was nice to hold her, actually. I loved the way she smelled – like my home.

„I am so sorry, Sasa, I really am.", I whispered into her ear and she tried to shook me off of her at first, but after a while she gave up.

„I know you don´t like touching me, but please...", I said to her and she sighed and then she turned up in my arms, our faces just inches apart and I suddenly started to feel nervous.

We were there, in her bed, laying next to each other, my arms around her and our eyes locked. It sounds like we were a couple, right? Well, it felt like it and that´s what made me feel weird and nervous, but I pushed these thoughs away for a moment.

Sara snuggled to my chest without saying anything and that surprised me. The old Sara I knew would kick me out of her bed, she would scream at me, telling me that I am stupid and that she doesn´t like it when I touch her. But this Sara, was actually glad I was there with her. She wrapped her arms around me and I was staring at her with my mouth wide opened.

„This is what I needed from the beggining, Tee Tee.", she whispered to me and it shocked me, that she called me that. She wasn´t calling me that very often lately, only in the times she wasn´t angry at me.

„You should have just told me. I would understand.", I said and rubbed her back.

She sighed and snuggled even closer to me. I remeber those times, when we were sleeping together like this when we were little kids. It just felt so right, to be together like this. Yeah, we were pretty close and I always took care of Sara. And right now, I was doing it again.

„Thank you, Tee Tee.", she said after a few minutes in comfortable silence.

„Don´t thank me. I should have been with you from the start. I am your big sister and I was suppose to be with you in your hard times, not slap you.", I said, anger raising in my voice, because I was truly blaming myself for what I did.

„Tegan.", she said and she got on top of me, our faces just inches apart, she was looking straight into my eyes and I just swallowed hard, my mouth slightly opened.

„I was being a bitch to you. I know, that if I told you what was happening, you would help me. I slapped you first, it´s not your fault, okay? You are an amazing sister, Tee.", she said in a whisper and I felt really really weird because of the position we were in.

And then, out of nowhere, Sara pecked my lips and I felt my whole body burning because of this one little moment, because of this stupid little peck we shared. Her lips lightly touched mine for a second and then she pulled away and she layed back on my chest.

„Goodnight, Tee Tee.", she said and after a while she fell into a restful sleep.

And my mind went crazy.

DID SHE JUST PECK ME ON MY LIPS WHAT THE FUCK?! Okay, cuddling and stuff was okay, but this? This never EVER happend between us. And I would NEVER expect this from Sara!

But...the worst part is...that...I actually...felt something.

And that was the moment, when Tegan realized she was fucked up.