A big nightly surprise

Told by Sarah

Hello to all of you.

I have a true story to tell all of you and I hope that you are all interested in a new story for 2009.

Well here it goes.

I am Sarah and I am thirty years old.

I have a lower back injury with severe chronic pain and also I get really bad legs and feet pain.

I also have been having a lot of really bad nights with the nightmares I have at night.

I also have a lot of stress in my life right now.

I have been dry for a few nights now.

Until l last night I woke up from having one of my really bad and scary nightmare.

I was so very scared I had woken up to find myself having a hard time calming myself down.

So after two hours of calming myself down I went back to sleep and I was cold so I put the heating blanket to six on the dial and I went back to sleep.

I was really scared and I woke up to find that I was soaking wet.

I did not even know that I had wet the bed I did even feel myself going at that.

I got up and changed the bedding and changed my clothes and put on a diaper for the rest of the night.

And once again to my findings in the morning I had wet the bed again but the diaper had leaked so I had to change the bedding again before I left for church.

I was so afraid that my ex-husband would come into my room and find out that I had wet the bed and continue with his teasing of saying "you are just like your internet friends " or "I should buy more diapers for you so you would stop peeing the bed at night."

Then he would tell me this was gross and "go in and change the sheets and yourself and so the house would stop smelling like pee."

Thank God he was not home when it happened if it did happen while he was here then I would be very embarrassed and not even know what to tell him.

I remember one night that it happened and I remember telling him "it is not my fault and I cannot control it and if you do not like it then get out.

You do not have to tease me about me wetting the bed at night."

I told him that the doctor told me that it was part of my lower back injury and from the stress in my life from the nightmares that I have on a routine nightly basis.

I also told him that when the pain in my lower back and legs and feet get really bad and I cannot even walk because of the pain being so bad.

I would literally be crying over and over again "please make it stop."

"Make it all go away."

At least I tell my friends about my problem, the ones over the internet.

At least they understand and at least they do not make fun of me.

The only bad thing is that he is coming home tonight.

So I pray the diaper does not leak or I do not wet the bed I will be very angry if he does wake up.

Because he will start in with the teasing.

Which is only making a worse for me.

It is not going to make me stop wetting the bed, it will make me do more of it.