Someday I will Too
Chapter 1
For my help -HaydenCalvin
Something was wrong. Why wouldn't he talk. She hadn't tried to talk to him, everytime would ask someone to find out. No one had achieved so she decided to man up and do the dirty work.
'Bellamy ?' She entered his tent even though she was scared her eyes would burn if there was something she didn't want to see.
'Nobody's allowed to enter' Bellamy said in a low voice but when he saw it was Clarke, just rolled his eyes and started preparing himself for bed.
'What's going on with you lately?'
'Nothing in particular, why?'
'Bellamy, you can tell me.'
His eyes couldn't believe. So it was her idea to make people go and ask him all those stupid questions.
'Why are you so persistent ,princess? Can't find anyone else to heal?'
'Don't do this. I came here not to fight , but to ask you how you feel?'
'Wasn't I crystal clear that I was fine?'
She wasn't kidding. And this was beginning to upset her. Not because of his attitude but because of his feelings. He wasn't at peace with himself. He was punishing himself for something and she knew she had to heal whatever wound had found its place in his heart. He wasn't his usual self. Even the lines he used weren't strong enough to offend her. He was losing it slowly and the most terrifying thing was that he was dealing with his demons on his own. He wasn't arguing with anyone , he was nothing. She knew he felt like that.
'Bellamy, I'm here. Okay?' She came closer. Then she stopped, fearing it would just stress the situation.
'I know, I see you.' He said taking his shirt off and laying on his bed.
She couldn't fight him like that so she decided to do it in more drastic way. She kneeled down and slowly slipped under his blanket.
'Clarke, what the hell?' He jerked back.
'You are going to tell me what's bothering you, I'm not leaving this bed, nor am I leaving you to sleep. We can stare at each other like idiots all night, but no other girl is entering this tent before you tell me.' She found his hand under the coverlet and gently started caressing it.
'I care.' Was the only thing she was able to say.' I do fucking care, you selfish bastard. Just let me help. What' s so wrong in that?' Her eyes were pleading again.
Not that look. He didn't want to see it again. It was one of her "tell-me-i-am-wrong-and-i-will-leave-you-alone" looks, to which he just couldn't bring himself to lie to.
It was stressing. Nobody had ever cared about him except for his sister. He stared at her, eyes not able to blink not even once. He fought it. Fought the feeling . He didn't know what was happening with him. He just felt …
'Hopeless' And scared, and useless, and small but nothing of these came out of his mouth.
'You feel hopeless?' She asked carefully.
'It's stupid.'
'It's not stupid. Don't think for one second that any of this is stupid. Just tell me what's wrong.'
'I . can't .tell . you .. i've no idea. STOP'-He shouted the last word but then his voice changed into a low whispering. ' Questioning me , okay?'
She knew by this moment that he really didn't know what was going on with him. As she had thought, he was lost. He just needed to ask for help. But ,of course, this was Bellamy the Rebel Prince, he would never do such thing. It was low of him.
'Okay.' She whispered before laying fully on the bed turning her back at him.
'Why are you doing this?' His voice was weak, he felt weak beside her. He didn't like that feeling. He should be strong and … it shouldn't be like that.
'I'm helping you.' She murmured still not turning to him.
'How exactly?'
'By not allowing you to break down.'
He should've known better . He would never cry in front of her. And that was her, here , reading him like an open book. Taking every single morbid thought out of his soul. Replacing every unshed tear with gentle stroking on his hand. Her finger almost touching his for longer than a few seconds. He was beginning to relax under her touch. Soon he fell into the world of dreams.
The last thing she heard before hearing his even breathing, was 'Someday , princess , I'll do the same for you'