A/N: In an attempt to make up for my lack of update and sudden inspiration, I bring you this! New chapters for My One and Only will come by the end of this week! And the next one the week after!
Disclaimer: I do not own Mai HiME or the characters Shizuru and Natsuki unfortunately.
Sin
By:
lonely bloodied rose
I've kept silent for so long, watching you from afar with a lustful yet loving gaze. You're so far from my grasp that even those new friends of yours had more chances to be closer than I ever could, but I'm the one who has been beside you for over three years. I ask nothing more than for you to open up to me.
The small secrets you keep hidden, I know who you are, worry me greatly; I decide to never ask your business, you say I don't need to be involved and that you're protecting me, in time I know you will tell me. I'm told to not get so close, but it's so hard when I already have. You've captured my interest, heart from first glance, dear Natsuki, and I am not releasing you any time soon.
I may have defiled, raped, your innocence and purity, but I could not hold back the temptation to touch you, feel you, and love you. Though I was secretive while you rested, Kikukawa managed to capture everything I had done. Shock and disgust etched on your features, dear Natsuki, forgive me. Kanin na…
I, ashamed, back away from how fearful you are of me and the mask I've held, calm and gentle, is broken. Imperfection is at hand, flowing through my veins, and bleeding out my heart, seeping into the real world unwelcome.
Do you see why I hide, dear Natsuki, how I really am? I would sacrifice everything for my dearest one…
Regret…I regret everything and nothing. For, raping, what I have done to you, but not for loving you. For you to forgive me, I will do anything it takes. Including destroying the people you despise.
Gripping my naginata and calling out Kiyohime, I proceed to my destination with one thing on my mind. Kill the enemies of Natsuki, eliminate who you hate and have had trouble with, those who hurt you, anything for you. Nao, HiMEs, and First District. …
Anyone who's in my way, in Natsuki's way, I will kill. The blood of these people stains my hands as I slaughtered them mercilessly, one by one they fall. The only sight they see before their deaths is my empty gaze and a wicked smile.
I love you Natsuki.
I love you in a sick and twisted way.