SUMMARY-

This is the way I imagined Last Sacrifice to happen. Dimitri is still denying his feelings towards Rose and she can't take it anymore. She leaves her life behind and she figures, while she's got nothing to do that she will find the other Dragomir. Rose figures, that even though she doesn't like the queen, helping Lissa is what counts, and the Queen will be grateful when Rose sends back the illegitimate child. All while Rose is on her search, she knows Dimitri, Lissa and Christian are searching for her and discovers shocking news from one of Adrian's dreams about the chaos the royal court had become. So it seems she has another task on her hands while having to stay in hiding from the authorities.

Is she found? And by who? Well read and find out :D and then you can review, tell me what you think hehehehe

I promise its better than it sounds :D

Love georgiie

CHAPTER ONE

"This isn't over. I won't give up on you."

"I've given up on you" he said back, voice also soft. "Love fades. Mine has."

I stared at him in disbelief. All this time he'd been rejecting me his excuse had been he wasn't capable of love and I refused to believe it. Every living thing is capable of love. But this time, this time he said his love had faded. Before the tears started to well up in my eyes, I stood up and backed away to from him, towards the door of the church, but my eyes never left him. As soon as I was outside, I turned around and bolted towards my room, locking the door and not letting anyone see me cry. I'm not exactly sure how long I stayed in my room bawling for, but every now and then there would be a knocking at my door and people yelling, but I couldn't concentrate on who they were or what they were yelling. I just wanted to hole up in my rooms by myself and drown in my sorrows – no one was going to get me out of my room, not until I was done mourning for the part of my heart, the part of my soul that would never be returned.

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While packing my suitcase I vowed to myself I would never let another person rip me apart the way Dimitri did. I don't think I could handle it again. I would do my duty, kill the strigoi that constantly put a threat to the people I loved and I would not let myself get caught up in a fairytale. I packed my stake, the photo I had of Lissa and I one Halloween, – both of us dressed ad fairies – a few changes of clothes and the credit card Adrian had given me, knowing he would probably cancel it once he realised I was gone and still using his money. But it would have done its purpose by then and gotten me far, far away from this horrid place they call a royal court.

I couldn't just leave without any goodbyes, but I couldn't say goodbye in person either, they would convince me to stay – and I would. I decided to write Lissa a letter, knowing she would show it to the others, so they all got the same story and I wouldn't give any hint as to where I was going. Which would be easy, because I didn't actually know, I was just... going.

Lissa,

I'm sorry I have to do this, but really no one has left me any choice. Dimitri doesn't love me anymore and you, you believe him. I've lost my best friend and the man I love to each other and I can't do it. Despite what everyone may think, I do have feelings and this time, I just can't handle the feelings. I'm not strong enough. I saved the man I love and it was exhausting. The only comfort I can take from anything that has happened in the last six months is that everybody I love is safe and protected, and hopefully, it will stay that way – I'll make sure of it. Unlike Mason, you're the people I can save and that's what I'm doing.

I'll always love you and you'll always be my sister, even though it hurts me every day to think that Dimitri is eternally grateful to you after everything I did. But that's ok. Give my love to everybody.

I'm going to miss you all, but this time, just this time I come first.

Love Rose.

I grabbed my duffel bag, the letter and wiping the last tears from my eyes set off to find Ambrose. I'd give him the letter. I found him in the foyer outside his Aunts office. I vaguely remembered she told fortunes, but I didn't plan on going back for another reading, not after the last one.

"Ambrose." I smiled at him and gave him a quick hug.

"Rose, it's good to see you" she said flashing me a thousand watt smile. He really was very good looking.

"You too" I murmured. "I need you to do something for me. Can you give this to Lissa, say in about an hour's time? Please?" I handed over the letter and he just nodded, as if he knew what I was doing.

"You're going aren't you?" his words confirmed my thoughts. He knew. It was my turn to simply nod. "Well, then I should probably give this to you now. I hadn't planned on it until the Queen told me to, but if you're leaving I guess I really don't have a choice." He handed me a letter of his own and I tucked it away into my duffel. "I'm going to miss you Rose." He hugged me again, this time longer and harder – a goodbye hug.

"I know, and I'm going to miss you too." We hugged for about a minute before I finally pulled away. "Remember, one hour." He smiled sadly and nodded. "Bye Ambrose, maybe I'll come back and fill you in on all my wacky adventures one day." I laughed without humour and left just as I heard him whisper,

"I hope you do."

I didn't run into anyone I know on my way to the front gates and for that I was grateful. I didn't need one of my friends nagging on me, asking where I was going or begging me not to go. Surprisingly enough, getting out of the court was easy, all I had to say was that I had a business trip to take. The guardians at the gate were surprised that the court hadn't supplied me with a car, so they leant me one of their few they had sitting out the front. I thanked them and took the keys, feeling bad that I wouldn't be keeping the car for very long. I got in the car and drove, in no particular direction, just driving. Tonight I would stay at a small motel and I would figure out where to go from there.

It wasn't long before I found a small motel. I checked in using the small amount of cash I had – it was a small enough motel that it accepted both cash and credit cards – and as soon as my head hit the pillow, I was asleep, only to be met by Adrian.

We were back at the academy, sitting in the garden just outside the church. He didn't dress me up tonight and when he appeared, he looked, well, I didn't know how he looked. He looked like a mess.

"Do you have any idea what you've done this time?" he asked me, not looking at me, not sitting beside. He was standing as far away from me as he could within speaking distance.

"I've done something for me this time. Not Lissa, not Dimitri, this time I did it for me." I knew he was angry, his hands were shaking.

"Dammit Rose!" he yelled. "Do you know how worried we all are? Lissa is close to having a mental breakdown. Her aura is close to being black, you've broke her. Not to mention what you've done to me, or, as much as I hate to admit it, Belikov." He was looking at me now, with sadness, anger and desperation in his eyes.

"Do you think any of them stopped to think about what they've been doing to me, how both my best friend and the man I love pulled and tugged at my heart leaving it broken for me? Do you think they stopped to think about all the times I've done things for them? Because I don't!" I was yelling back at him but I didn't care. "My best friend and the man I love chose each other over me. Look at my aura and tell me, tell me what you see, then you'll see what all of you have done to me." He didn't say anything, he just studied me and I knew he was taking my advice and looking at my aura.

"You have to come back. There are people here that need you." His voice was soft as he walked over and sat beside me, taking my hands into his. He knew I was right about my aura.

"They sure have a funny way of showing it" I muttered. "Look Adrian, do you honestly think things are going to change when I come back? Do you think Lissa will stop being all motherly over protective of Dimitri? Or that he'll stop running to her whenever I'm within 50 feet of him? I don't think that's going to happen and I'm not going to lie to myself anymore and say that you can fix me because you can't. I kept my promise, I gave you a chance, but the only one who can fix me is the one who caused me to be broken and he doesn't seem too interested in fixing me." Adrian interrupted me before I could say anything else.

"They might have a funny way of showing it, but they do need you. Did you even think of you bet friend, your charge?"

"She will get a better guardian than me, she deserves a better guardian, no matter how much she's hurt me lately, she deserves the best, and that's not me." I pulled my hands away from his and started walking away, and he followed. "It's not that I wanted to leave, because I didn't. It's just that I couldn't deal with all the pain everything caused me. I don't want that feeling. I don't want to feel at all. I just want to go, kill and not feel. Think of it this way, everybody's life will be less complicated." He grabbed my hand and spun me around.

"There's nothing I can say to change your mind?" I shook my head. "Will you ever come back?" he sort of choked on the words, but not completely.

"Maybe, one day" I whispered, knowing it was probably not true at all.

"You know I love you and I'm going to miss you." He pulled me to him and I hugged him hard, trying to control the tears that threatened to spill. I nodded into his shoulder.

"I love you too and I wish it was enough." He gave me one last squeeze before letting me go.

"Can I still visit you, to make sure you're safe?" I nodded and he smiled, as if gaining a small victory from all this. "Well then, I'll see you soon little dhampir." He kissed my forehead and the dream world he'd crated faded and I was left with nothing but a numbing blackness, and for that I was thankful.

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DISCLAIMERS –

Me: Richelle Mead owns all Vampire Academy characters :(

Adrian: HA HA!

Me: * sadface*

Dimitri: don't be such a dick Adrian. *pulls me into a hug (Y)*

Me: *pokes tongue out at Adrian*