Game of Love
Chapter 1
I love you, but do you love me? I want to be with you, only you! I want to feel your warmth against my body, feel your strong and protective arms around me. I want to see that glow in your eyes when you smile. I want you to know what you mean to me! I want to tell you that you're my everything, but I'm to afraid, I'm to afraid to tell you. I just can't do it, what if you say no what will I do then? Will I ruin our friendship if I tell you? Will you hate me?
I don't want that, I don't want you to hate me, I love you to much.
So please give me an answer, give me a sign that you love me! Because I can't let you go, I can't get you out of my head. I love you and I can't live without you! You saved me from the monsters that wanted to hurt me, you saved me from the loneliness. So please tell me, do you love me?
I sighed as I looked out the window. The sun was shining brightly high up in the sky and the flowers and leafs moved in harmony with each other, back and forth, from the wind.
'What should I do, no, what can I do?' If I could only find the answers to these questions, then maybe I could tell him. Because I want to tell him, so badly it almost hurts but, how? I'm afraid, I'm afraid of losing him, of losing my best friend and of love, love has always given me problems. You see, I was in love with Tea before I knew about Yami. Before I meet him and started to know how funny and smart he really is. How much he cares about other people's well being, high over his own and how he always knows what to say when you're sad or down. But best of all, his smile. A beautiful, gorgeous, smile that could lit up the whole room.
But I always ignored those feelings, the feelings I got every time I looked at Yami or saw him smile towards me. That's why I turned to Tea, I've always had a crush on her and so I decided to ask her out. But she rejected me and threw me away like if I was some kind of trash. She really hurt me that day, she didn't even care to say it nicely.
I can't help but feel scared about Yami doing the same thing. Even though I know he wouldn't. No matter who it would be, he never hurt anyone like that. I also know that if I said that I loved him and then asked if he loved me too, he would say yes. Even if he didn't love me would it still be that answer. Yami just want's me to be happy and would gladly seal away his own happiness for mine. I know that and that's why I can't ask him.
It's so hard. Sometimes I get this feeling that I just want to hold him and never let go. That way he won't leave me and I can always be near him, stay with him.
I just... Can't let him go. But I don't want to force him to love me, that's not what I want. I want him to love me for me. Not because I asked him to. I want to be with him forever, but I don't ever want it to be that way, that's not love.
I must see, see if he loves me. But how? I can't come up with anything, but, maybe my friends could help me, Joey got Seto right? He must have done something to get Seto's attention, and since Yami isn't home... This is the perfect opportunity. He can't ask where I'm going and if he asks when I get home then I could just pretend to be to tired to talk about it. To make things even better, mom and grandpa aren't home either, they're in Cairo I believe or was it, doesn't matter.
I jumped up from the chair i was currently sitting in and walked down the stairs towards the back door. There I put my jacket and shoes on before I headed out towards KaibaCorporation. I know Joey's there, where else's would he be? Kaiba is there.