What Goes Around Comes Around
Isabel Night
May 5, 2002
It is May 5th in the Nether Realm and the Children's Day festivities are in full swing. Cale, Sekhmet, and I attend all the ceremonies, but I hate it. I wish I didn't have to watch the children play on the grounds or the priests pray for a bountiful spring, but it is my duty, and it eats me up inside. But what hurts me the most is seeing the children playing on the castle grounds. Those innocent boys and girls running around, playing, and laughing together, without a care in the world, makes me want to cry. Their innocence reminds me of Anubis. It's strange, that someone who has the virtue of loyalty can remind me of innocence. But even now, as I watch the children play, I remember all the innocence I stole.
Anubis had killed before he met me, but it was on the battlefield, and never in the quantities that we accumulated over the centuries. I remember killing his innocence, never thinking or believing that it would come back to haunt me. All four of us killed so many innocent people, and destroyed so many families over the centuries, but in our ignorance, we thought that we were would never lose one of our own. Nothing was going to tear us apart, we would stay a family forever, and we didn't care that we tore other families apart. We thought we were better than everyone else, and Talpa encouraged that belief. I guess we needed what the mortals call a "reality check," and that's what the Kami gave us when Anubis died. Sometimes I wonder if it was the Kami's justice that tore us apart? Or was it our victim's vengeance? Maybe it wasn't justice or vengeance, but a lesson that Anubis was trying to teach us.
Even now, I still don't know if Anubis' death was a lesson, vengeance, or justice. I just try not to remember that horrible day. The mortals say that if you bury the pain you might not feel it. The catch is from that lesson: the pain comes back stronger, and harder to deal with.
400 years ago, we thought we could do anything we wanted, and not face the consequences. Now, on the day of Anubis' birth, everything that we've done has come back to haunt us. I guess, as the mortals say, "what goes around comes around."
Isabel Night
May 5, 2002
It is May 5th in the Nether Realm and the Children's Day festivities are in full swing. Cale, Sekhmet, and I attend all the ceremonies, but I hate it. I wish I didn't have to watch the children play on the grounds or the priests pray for a bountiful spring, but it is my duty, and it eats me up inside. But what hurts me the most is seeing the children playing on the castle grounds. Those innocent boys and girls running around, playing, and laughing together, without a care in the world, makes me want to cry. Their innocence reminds me of Anubis. It's strange, that someone who has the virtue of loyalty can remind me of innocence. But even now, as I watch the children play, I remember all the innocence I stole.
Anubis had killed before he met me, but it was on the battlefield, and never in the quantities that we accumulated over the centuries. I remember killing his innocence, never thinking or believing that it would come back to haunt me. All four of us killed so many innocent people, and destroyed so many families over the centuries, but in our ignorance, we thought that we were would never lose one of our own. Nothing was going to tear us apart, we would stay a family forever, and we didn't care that we tore other families apart. We thought we were better than everyone else, and Talpa encouraged that belief. I guess we needed what the mortals call a "reality check," and that's what the Kami gave us when Anubis died. Sometimes I wonder if it was the Kami's justice that tore us apart? Or was it our victim's vengeance? Maybe it wasn't justice or vengeance, but a lesson that Anubis was trying to teach us.
Even now, I still don't know if Anubis' death was a lesson, vengeance, or justice. I just try not to remember that horrible day. The mortals say that if you bury the pain you might not feel it. The catch is from that lesson: the pain comes back stronger, and harder to deal with.
400 years ago, we thought we could do anything we wanted, and not face the consequences. Now, on the day of Anubis' birth, everything that we've done has come back to haunt us. I guess, as the mortals say, "what goes around comes around."