Hello who ever may be reading this. Just want you to know that this is my first ever fanfic, so please be kind when reviewing but still tell me where I need to improve (writing is not my strongest point but something I like to do.) Also the characters are a bit (more like a lot) out of character. Takes place after Eclipse.

Disclaimer: Stephenie Meyer owns Twilight

Edward's point of view

Past Love

Chapter 1: awakening

"God gave us memory so that we might have roses in December." J.M. Barrie

There she stood. In her thin, white night gown. The gentle breeze blowing her honey brown hair. The moonlight making her pale skin glow. Her violet eyes shimmering, tears ready to fall. Her face giving every emotion away: sadness, anger, and hurt. He just knew it was her fault as to why her heart was shattered in to a million pieces.

He tried walking towards her but his feet wouldn't move. Those broken eyes put a name in his mouth put his mind was blank. He soon realized he couldn't hear her thoughts.

Suddenly she began to fade. Desperate to make her stay he called out to her but to his dismay nothing came forth to match the screams in this mind.

As quickly as it had come, it had disappeared. I had been awoken from my beautiful nightmare. Unfortunately by none other then Alice, who was sporting a more then pissed face.

Crossing her arms and narrowing her eyes into a glare she began to speak.

"What the heck Edward, I've been trying to talk to you for the past ten minutes. And what was up with that, spacing out is usually my thing."

She's got a point it's her thing. And since hearing other people's thoughts is mine, I'll just keep my 'dream' to myself.

"Sorry Alice, don't know what came over me. Maybe I'm just hungry." The lie came out smoothly.

"Hmmm….you should go feed today. We don't need you to go all crazy and eat Bella," she gently teased.

Fixing my stare into a glare, I change the subject.

"What did you want Alice?"

"Oh right! I just wanted to tell you that we need to take some more measures for your suit on Friday. " She smiled and left.

As she walkes downstairs to join Jasper in the living room, I hear her frustrated thoughts.

'What in the world was wrong with him? It seemed like he was seeing something horrible. He looked like he would brake to pieces. Why would he lie to me?'

Blocking the rest of her thoughts, I tossed myself onto my bed. I had no need for it but Bella did. I turned to my side and caught the faint sent of her.

"Edward...Please stop, it hurts. How many times will my heart shatter?" tears roll down her heart shaped face.

She wraps her arms around herself. As if, to keep her self from breaking. The wind whips around her shoulder length hair around her face.

Pulling myself from my 'dream', I jump back and land on the floor with a loud thud. A sense of fear and guilt begin to fill me.

My family soon files into my room to see what was wrong. Esme was by my side in a heartbeat (if we had one).

"Are you okay Edward?" Esme asked while gently rubbing my back.

"Yeah, I'm fine. I just ... I don't know…"

"What do you mean?" Alice prided.

'Ha! Now you have no choice but to tell the truth! Come on, let me help.' She pleaded in her mind.

"Umm… Well I've been spacing out lately. I guess I'm just worrying about everything."

All the thoughts from my family were jumbled and I couldn't even comprehend one thought. It was making my head throb.

After an awkward silence and giving me strange looks, they left me alone once again.

Knowing that I was causing her pain made me want to do everything in my power to heal her heart. Yet I knew my love of Bella's sent was causing her pain. And what surprises me is that in my heart I know I would never think of Bella again if it would cease her pain.

Deciding that Bella would have to be kept away from my room …and our house; I got up and resumed staring outside from my window seat, losing myself in my own thoughts.

I hoped you like it. Hopefully with enough encouragement I will continue.