One Weakness Chapter 1, a sons of anarchy fanfic

"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel."

Chapter 1 - Intoxicated

Happy Lowman was known as the Tacoma Killer, a man with very few words to share. A glare that would make grown men piss themselves. He lived for his club, brothers and family, especially his mother, who was ill with cancer. He had been NOMAD for some time, but when he found out that his mother was fighting breast cancer, he decided to get patched in to the SOA in Charming. He was never a one woman type of man, hell he didn't know the first thing about being a 'old man'. He had slept with hundreds of sweet butts and crow eaters that would throw themselves at him, but never cared to remember their names. Hell, he didn't even give them a chance to speak after he had gotten off, and kicked them out of his bed. He never spoke about emotions, nor did he care to, he did what needed to be done as the club's assassin.

After being on a month trip up to Canada, he was finally back in Charming after enjoying a much-needed shower, and a bottle of beer. He sat down at a table with a cigarette in hand and a beer in the other, wondering where everyone was at, since it was a friday night, the clubhouse was in full swing with hang-arounds and crow-eaters, who would causally try to get him to take them back to his dorm room, but he just wasn't feeling it. He had stopped to see his mother before he arrived back in town, and she had mentioned that she would love a daughter-in-law and grandchildren, something Happy had never even thought of. Sure, he got lonely, but he'd usually grab a sweetbutt and take his frustrations out on, but it wasn't the same. He could never find a woman that knew how to handle the club, and what he did. He never knew what it felt like to wake up with a woman wrapped in his arms. 'Damnit Ma..' Happy thought to himself, she had always seen right through him.

Happy was lost in thought when he saw Jax walk in with Tig, Chibs and Opie. "Hey brother, how was the trip?" Jax asked and Happy nodded his head, "Smooth man." Happy replied and Jax nodded his head. Jax was about to say something but his phone went off, and he answered it.

Happy was in the middle of talking to Tig and Chibs, and Opie sipping on a beer when Jax hung the phone up. "Okay, so Ma is with Tara and Asher at a bar, and need it was requested that we come and join the party." Jax stated. "Ash is there? I'm in." Tig smiled widely. Opie laughed, "How many times does she gotta tell you, you ain't her type brother?" Opie joked and Chibs spoke up, "Aye lad, Asher has standards." Chibs laughed when Tig looked offended. "Who the fuck is Asher?" Happy asked completely confused. "Oh she's doc's friend, she's fuckin' gorgeous. Like model gorgeous, but has brains." Tig explained. "She started to work at St. Thomas right before you left, and some how she managed to charm her way into Gemma's good gracious. She's a tough bitch too." Jax explained. "You in?" Jax added as he stood up. "Ah why the hell not." Happy said finishing off his beer, and standing up.

The guys piled onto their bikes, and headed out to the bar where the three ladies were. Happy wasn't sure about this Asher chick, but if Gemma trusted her, then she must be something. He wasn't up for sticking around the clubhouse, and figured hanging with his brothers was better than sitting by himself drinking and pushing crow-eaters off of him.

Pulling up to the bar and parking their bikes, Happy stored his night riding glasses in the pocket of his cut. Walking in behind Jax and Tig with Opie on his side, they scanned the bar that was filled with college men, and Happy mentally rolled his eyes. "There over there." Opie pointed out to Jax, and Happy followed his finger in the direction and saw Tara and Gemma hollering and smiling, but Happy didn't see this Asher woman as they swaggered their way through the bar up to their table.

"Where's Ash?" Jax asked after he kissed Tara, and his mother.

"She's getting ready to sing, hey guys." Tara smiled at the men who sat around the table, taking up the empty seats as Jax gestured to the waitress to bring a round of beers to the table.

"Man, wait til you hear her voice, it'll shock ya." Tig said to Happy and he just looked on to the stage.

Happy scanned the room and saw several men chatting and a few woman trying to get their attention, but it was soon impossible when a woman walked onto the stage. She was about 5'6, wearing a white short dress that clung to her body, and showed the swell of tits at the top of it. Her tan skin glowed, and Happy noticed how toned her legs were, with red bitch heels. Her hair was dark, almost like chocolate and flowed down her back. Her piercing green eyes shined from across the room. Happy couldn't help but to feel his jeans tighten at the sight of her, wanting to feel her hair through his hands as he rammed himself into her, and her legs wrapped around his waist. Shaking his head from the thoughts, he heard Tig mention that woman was indeed Asher.

The table began to wolf whistle and cheer for Asher, and Happy could see her cheeks blush, and a few men make a few inappropriate comments.

He watched as Asher turned to the man on the stage and nodded her head, and he began to play the piano.

I heard that you're settled down
That you found a girl and you're married now.
I heard that your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.

Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light

Her voice blew him away, he shocked to let a woman have this affect on him. She sang with so much passion, a passion that he wasn't sure most people carried around with him. Happy looked around the bar and noticed that every single person in the bar was almost hypnotized, and Tara, Jax, Chibs, Opie and Tig had a smile on their face, while Tig would whistle once in a while, but what was most surprising is that Gemma, the Queen of the MC had a proud smirk on her face.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited.
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I'll remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"

You know how the time flies
Only yesterday was the time of our lives
We were born and raised
In a summer haze
Bound by the surprise of our glory days

Happy was more speechless at the fact he couldn't pull his dark eyes away from her, how she would close her eyes and belt out the lyrics, as if she had expierenced the situation in the song. As if her heart hurt, and she was using this song to release what ever demons she was caring. Her soft facial expressions seemed to calm him down, as she held the microphone close to her lips. He couldn't understand why he couldn't look away, he had tried multiple times but couldn't. It was if he was the only one in the room.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I'd hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I'll remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."

Nothing compares
No worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes
They are memories made.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I'll remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead".

Once the song was done, the bar whistled and cheered and her voice was absolutely beautiful as she said a thank you and a soft smile danced across her lips. Happy watched as Chibs got up and ushered to the stage, and grabbed her waist and helped her down, and spun her around, causing her to laugh. Something ignited in Happy when he saw his brother with dark hair beauty, the way her hair flowed as she spun, the smile on her face as she was sat on her feet by Chibs. Chibs walked behind her slightly as she made her way to the table, and Happy smelled her delicious perfume and the shampoo in her hair as she stood next to him.

"That was amazing dollface." Tig tipped his beer with a cheeky smile towards her. "Thanks Tiggy." Asher smiled at the blue eyed man. Gemma gave her shoulder a squeeze, and Jax nodded his head and Tara was beaming with a smile. "Oh Asher, this is Happy..Happy this is the infamous Asher." Jax smiled and Happy turned to look at the woman. "Hey, nice to meet you." Asher smiled, and Happy looked at her plump lips, and had to force himself to not crash his onto hers. "Nice to meet you." Happy managed to say with a nod.

"I'm gonna go get a drink." Asher stated and everyone gave a nod and Happy watched as she walked off, with a swing in her hips. Happy managed to keep his eyes on her as she stood in line at the bar, and noticed two college men walk up behind her, and he was sitting at the edge of his seat waiting for one of the fuckers to cross a line.

"So, what's her story?" Happy asked.

"She moved here about three months ago, bad relationship, needed a fresh start. She's originally from Maine, she's a ER doc at St. Thomas." Tara explained sipping on a bitch drink.

"I think someone is on the killer's radar." Gemma smirked, noticing how Happy couldn't take his eyes off of the women, and Happy glared at the Queen.

"Good luck brother, she doesn't trust a lot of people. Luckly we were able to swing her to hang out around us, we're persistant little fucks." Tigs laughed and Happy took a drink of his beer when he heard Asher shout out something causing the table to turn their heads. Happy saw the two men corner her against the bar to where she couldn't quite get out of reach, and immediately stood up when he saw one grab her arm tightly. Chibs and Tig were close behind as they walked over to the bar.

"I said no you fuckin' idiot." Asher growled out and tried to get her arm away from the man's hold. "You uptight bitch.." The guy sneered, and stopped when he saw the three men in cut approach. "I suggest you let go of her right fuckin' now." Happy said through clenched teeth. "Man, she ain't worth it." The other guy mumbled. "Asher, come er' darlin'..." Chibs stated calmly when the guy let go of her arm, and Happy felt her brush past him and stood behind Chibs. "If I ever fucking see you near her again, I will fuckin' kill you." Happy stated stepping a bit closer.

Through out the evening Happy couldn't get enough of Asher's talking, usually he would want to cut his own ears off with his knife if a bitch did nothing but talk, but for some reason Ash was different. She could hang with the guys, joke around, and make sexual enduido's that left Tig with his jaw hanging open. Happy found himself laughing at the dark haired beauty's jokes along with everyone else.

"Well, it's getting late, we should probably head home to relieve Neeta." Jax spoke up and Tara nodded her head. "Tell my love I said hi." Ash smiled. "You have my kid wrapped around your finger, I'm pretty sure that he is using the Teller charm to win you over." Tara laughed, and Ash nodded her head, and pulled out her phone. "I'm gonna go outside and call a cab." Ash spoke up. Happy didn't like the idea of her being in a cab so he spoke up, "I'll give you a lift." Happy put a gentle hand on Asher's hand and felt a bolt of electricity run through him and she looked up at him but nodded. "I'll take Gem." Tig stated and Gemma got her jacket and purse and everyone said their goodbyes, and headed outside.

Happy walked behind Asher some, and couldn't help but to watch the sway of her hips as he directed her to his bike. He grabbed the helmet and placed it on her head and strapped it. "This should be real classy, chick on a bike in a short ass dress." Asher smiled and Happy felt a reason to smirk. He had been wondering what she was wearing under that dress. Happy climbed on the bike, and Asher put a hand on his shoulder, and gracefully got on the bike, and he waited a moment to make sure that she was situated, and wrapped her arms around his stomach, and held on, as she pressed her chest against his back. He knew that she had to at least have a nice size D rack, and feeling her chest against him made him hard. "Hold on." Happy said and started up the bike.

Asher had pointed which ways to turn and ended up at her house. Happy knew the neighborhood, it was close to the clubhouse, and the hospital. As Happy killed the engine to his bike, he didn't want Asher to let go of him, but felt dissapointed when she did, and gotten off the bike. Happy noticed that she was looking around, almost checking her surroundings, as he took off the helmet. "Thanks for the ride.." Asher smiled up at him, "No problem." Happy said casually as she leaned forward and kissed his cheek. Which he was surprised that he didn't pull away from the gesture. "I'll see ya around." Asher smiled as she walked up her drive and to the front door. Happy waited until she was inside the house before he left. He needed to head back to the clubhouse and find a dark haired sweetbutt.

It had been about a week since Asher had last seen Happy, and she couldn't get him off of her mind. His dark eyes sending a chill down her spine, making her center ache. His raspy voice gave her goosebumps, something she wasn't used to. But she felt safe with him, just like she had with the rest of the members of the club, but for some reason, she felt it even more so with him.

Gemma, Clay and Chibs along with Tara knew about Asher's past, her abusive relationship she was in, and why she ended up in Charming, to get away from him. The four vowed to protect her, and she knew that she could talk to them about it. It was as if Gemma had taken her under her wing, and Asher couldn't of been more grateful.

She had been engaged to a man, who she thought was the right one, but ended up being a complete psycho. He would show up all hours of the day at a hospital she worked at in Maine, accuse her of cheating, and anything in between. She eventually learned that he was abusive, and when she tried to get away, he would come for her. He would tell her how much he wanted children with her to the extent of replacing her birth control pills with a version of horomones, but thankfully she had caught on right away when he didn't add up the dates right, and considering she was a doctor she knew and went and ordered a new prescription, and was thankful he was out of town for a week and decided that she was leaving. She had managed to let the hospital know of everything that was going on, and swore that her relocation wasn't going to be given to him if he had came to ask.

Asher had just finished her shift at St. Thomas when her cell phone rang, letting her know that she had a text message. When she opened it up, she felt as if the walls were closing in on her. He found out where she was, and vowed that he was coming to take her back, where she belonged.

She immediately ran to her car, and drove to the one place she felt safe. TM motors. She got there quickly under ten minutes, and didn't care about the fact that she was still in black scrub pants, and a black scrub top. She parked the car, and bolted to find Chibs, or Clay. She saw Happy looking at her confused but couldn't even bother to give him a second glance. She ran straight into the office and Gemma shot up out of her chair.

"What's wrong baby?" Gemma asked concerned at the paleness of Asher, the unshed tears in her eyes threatening to spill.

"H-he h-he fo-found me." Asher managed to choke out and she fell to the floor, and Gemma rushed to her and held her tight against her.

Happy was completely confused on why Asher stormed into the parking lot and looked as if she had seen a ghost. Happy heard Gemma yell for Chibs, and Happy knew something was wrong.

Chibs ran out of the clubhouse after a prospect went in to find him, with Clay following closely and into the office. Juice, Jax, Opie, Tig, and Bobby stopped what they were doing and walked in the direction of the office and Happy decided to follow. As soon as he had gotten close enough, he heard Asher's cries, and Chibs trying to calm down.

Everyone made their way to the door, "The fuck is goin' on?" Jax questioned, and Happy saw Asher on the floor in Gemma's arms and Chibs rubbing her back. "I'm gonna have to tell them sweetheart.." Gemma whispered to Asher who nodded her head.

" Church NOW!" Clay barked out the order and everyone shuffled into the clubhouse and straight to church.

Everyone piled into their respective seats and Clay ran a hand over his face. "Asher is like a daughter to me, and when she had first moved here she had informed Chibs and I of a man who had beaten her, and she ran while he was out of town on buisness." Clay started, and Happy felt his entire body tense. "I've seen some sick shit in my day, but Asher had trusted me when Gemma had finally gotten it out of her, and she explained that she documented the attacks so if something happened to her, someone would know who did it." Clay explained, and Happy's breathing increased as Clay explained every disturbing detail and assault that had happened to Asher.

"Apparently, Asher had gotten a message when she left for work, and the sick son of a bitch has found her, and has stated that he is on his way to Charming to bring her back to where she belongs." Clay shifted in his chair as the men around the table cursed under their breaths. "She is a friend of the club, and she has helped patch up plenty of members, and I'll be damned if we don't protect her. Anyone have any objections?" Clay asked, and Happy looked around and was satisified that no one spoke up.

"Juice, I want you to run the name of this man, find out anything and everything you can. She will have someone with her at all times, even though Chibs has been training her to fight, I still don't trust this guy. Any volunteers besides Tig?" Clay asked and Tig looked as if someone killed his puppy.

"I'll do it." Happy stated, and everyone turned their attention to him. "Alright, no one knows when he will show up, so I'll inform Ash that you will be staying at her house with her. I don't want to take any type of chance because that girl has grown on me." Clay stated and everyone nodded their head, and Clay dismissed church, and kept Happy in the room, and had Chibs send in Asher and Gemma.

"Ash, I know that you are afraid, but we aren't letting you run anymore. Happy here will be staying with you until this thing is handled." Clay stated in a stern voice, and Asher knew better than to argue, so she nodded her head. "Hap, take her home, and keep your eyes open." Clay stated and Happy nodded and stood up and followed Asher out of the club house. "Sorry that you are babysitting." Asher mumbled, and Happy shook his head, and titled her chin with his finger. "Ain't lettin' no one hurt you again." Happy stated with honesty and Asher nodded her head and mumbled a thanks as he opened her car door for her, and followed her to her house on his bike.