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Short Drarry fic, sad, angsty. Written quickly, but I enjoyed it. As I hope you do!

I don't understand alot, but I understand the nervous glances you shoot at me. I understand the stutter and the rosey blush you get around me. I understand your affection. I just don't understand why I can't show any feeling back towards you. Some would say I'm just the cold-hearted Slytherin I was supposed to be. But it's not like that at all. I was raised like this. I wish you'd understand this. I didn't choose this path, it was etched out on a blank canvas the day I was born. My father told me love was for weaklings and half-breeds. Squibs and muggles. A pure-blood had no time for 'love.' Every time he brought the whip down upon my bare back, he'd remind me of this. I often stare at you and wish I had it as easy as you, sometimes. At least you had parents that loved you, even if it was once upon a time. I've never had a loving hug from my mother, or a gentle pat of reassurance from my father. Sometimes I long for it. But now I've grown adjusted to this pain, this emptiness, this...this whatever this is. I've grown accustom to slandering you and your red-headed friend and the brunette. I've grown accustom to the glares full of malice directed towards me from your companions.

I don't understand alot, but I understand fate. I understand that fate doesn't allow someone as distorted as me to taint such a beautiful soul as yours. So as I'm leaning out of the Astronomy tower window, looking down upon your beautifully scruffy black hair, walking side-by-side with your two friends, I want you to know that I'm defying all Malfoy logic.

I love you... I yell into the cool crisp air, leaning forward, letting my hands slip off the stone wall, letting go of everything that could never have been. I see you look up, and your beautiful emerald eyes go wide. Wide with fear, wide with passion, wide with...understanding. And a smile graces your perfect lips and I close my eyes and bask in your love in my final moments.

I let go of something that could never be. And you understood just as I did.