New story! Don't worry, I haven't abandoned the others...I'm just stuck. But I have this one mostly written out. Hope you like!

It's like you're a drug
It's like you're a demon I can't face down
It's like I'm stuck
It's like I'm running from you all the time
And I know I let you have all the power
It's like the only company I seek is misery all around
It's like you're a leech
Sucking the life from me
It's like I can't breathe

[Addicted-Kelly Clarkson]

"Bella, why do you always do what he wants?"

"Alice, drop it. He bought me this dress and I am going to wear it."

"It's not your style. He should know your taste by now. I mean, how long have the two of you been together? Almost two years? That's long enough to know what you like. I knew your taste the moment I met you."

"I agree, Bella, it's not healthy. He's always ordering you around and demanding you not hang out with us."

"Leah, Alice, I know it seems that way, but he knows what's best."

"He's pretentious."

"And stuck-up," Leah chimed in.

I knew my friends meant well, but they just didn't understand the relationship Edward and I shared. He was older and he assumed he knew better. I didn't want to start a fight so I just did what he said. It was easier that way.

"Well, Angela, what do you think?" I asked the quiet girl sitting on the bed in my room.

"You love him, right?"

"Right," I said. I didn't know if I actually meant it.

Lately, Edward and I have been drifting apart. He's getting ready to graduate a semester early and I'm still a sophomore. He wants to get married as soon as he graduates, but I just feel like I am too young.

"That's a lie, Bella, and you know," Leah chimed in.

"No, it's not."

"Yes, it is. When I see the two of you together, it's not love I see. It's obsession on his part. He looks at you like a fucking breakable doll. You are not breakable. You've been through more things than he cares to realize."

"He just cares about me, that's all."

"Stop it. You just keep making excuses for him. I'm tired of it, hell, Jasper is tired of me talking about how I am tired of it."

"Well, Alice, leave Jasper alone. Don't bother him with my relationship."

"Bella, I don't want you to be mad at us. We all live together, that'd be horrible! I agree with Leah. You don't love him. He's like a drug to you."

"Whatever, I'm leaving. I need to meet Edward."

I stomped out of my room and out of the apartment that we shared. It was always the same old thing. Edward-bashing. It's like they made it into their own personal game. Well, at least Alice and Leah did.

The three of them were my very best friends. Angela has been through the most with me. She has been my best friend since kindergarten and helped me get through my mom's passing. She is the sweetest person I have ever met. She is tall and thin. She may be quiet, but her eyes say a thousand words. And then there is Alice. We met the first day of orientation. The University of Washington had a lot of students and I was blessed that I met Alice. She has been an amazing person in my life. She's extremely tiny and always has her hair cut super short. It makes her look like a pixie. That leaves Leah. Leah is a Quileute from La Push. She was the only one to go to Forks High. We weren't exactly the closest of friends until I found her crying in the bathroom at our senior prom. She thought she was pregnant and didn't know what to do. A few days later it turned out she wasn't but she never forgot the kindness I shared. She is now one of the fiercest protectors of me. I've always been jealous of her dark skin and her perfect curves. Out of all four of us, she is the one who gets the most looks from the guys. However, ever since her pregnancy scare, she just hasn't had much time for boys.

I get mad at them when they talk bad about Edward. Yet at the same time, I agree with some things they say. I am addicted to him. And it's scary. I use to be super independent when I was younger and now I'm just letting some guy take over my life. It bothers me. My grades are slipping too. And when I tell him, he just suggests I get a tutor. He never offers to help but he runs at the chance to tutor Tanya.

And everyone that I knew in high school has told me that I've changed. That I have lost the spark that makes me Bella. They say that Edward has sucked my spirit out. That he's draining the life from me. Like he's a freaking vampire! And I do listen to what they say, it's just how can I give him up?

I finally arrive at the restaurant Edward has picked out. It's our two year anniversary and he says he's got a special surprise for me. He knows I hate surprises.

I scan the dining room to see if I see him. And then I do. He's sitting at a corner table, looking handsome and dignified. And the waitress is giving him the eyes. I'm so used to this that I don't even care anymore.

"Bella, dear, come sit," he says as she sees me approaching. He gets up and pulls the chair out for me. So chivalrous. I hate it.

"Hello, Edward. How has your day been?"

"Good. Happy anniversary. I already ordered for us. Mushroom ravioli for me and a salad for you."

I don't know what it was, usually he ordered for me all the time, but tonight it was plain irritating. I was ravenous and he only ordered me a salad?

"Thanks. Happy anniversary to you, too."

We sipped our drinks and continued to make small talk. It was dull. The waitress brought our food, all the while ogling my boyfriend.

"He has a girlfriend, you know," I said as she set down our food. She just looked at me before turning on her heels and walking off.

"Isabella, that was awfully rude."

Thanks for making me angrier. Way to use my full name.

"I'm sorry, but when a man is sitting across from a woman, it's impolite to stare at said man like she wants a quick fuck in the bathroom."

"You've been hanging out with Leah again. Why can't you find some nice friends, Isabella?"

"Stop using my full name. Let's just eat."

The dinner continued on in silence. The waitress brought us our check, while checking out my boyfriend. Some nerve.

"Bella, I want to ask you something."

My stomach instantly dropped. If he does what I think he's going to do-

"Isabella Marie Swan, will you marry me?" he said as he dropped to his knees in the restaurant. Of course everyone is looking at me, expecting a yes to fly out of my mouth.

"Let's just go," I say.

He drops way too much money on the table and we head out. He looks so disappointed that I almost regret saying what I'm going to.

"I can't. It's too soon."

"Dear, my parents were married within four months of meeting. We've been together for two years. That's not soon."

"It is for me. I'm barely twenty and you want to get married?"

"Yes. Isabella, you know how you've been pushing us having sex lately?"

"Yes. And I still don't know why you won't."

"I want to be married first. I'm an old fashioned type of guy and I want our first time to be as a married couple."

"Your first time wasn't."

He looked at me with anger in his eyes. I knew he hated being reminded of that. Which is exactly why I did it.

"Isabella, you know that I don't like to bring that up. And that's exactly why I want to be married first. So, marry me or no sex."

"I don't like ultimatums. So, no. I will not marry you."

"I'll get you to change your mind," he said as he came closer to me.

He pushed me against the car and leaned into my neck. He began to place soft kisses on my neck and face and he gently bit my ear lobe which caused tingles to run down my spine. He placed his hand on my knee and pushed his way up under the fabric of my dress. I knew this game all too well. It doesn't mean I wasn't falling for it. Soon, his hand had made its way to my thin cotton panties. He played with the waistband before dipping his fingers inside. He brushed up against my folds and my breath caught in my throat. Sure, we'd messed around a few times but never in public. It was exciting in so many ways. But, as soon as he started, he stopped. He released me, went to the driver's side of the car and got in. I was so caught off guard that I just turned around and got in my car.

I sped off. I was so turned on, like I was many times after leaving Edward's company. I pulled off at an adult video store and rented one that looked good. Yeah, it looks like it turned into a Bella pleasing herself night. And the tall, muscular, Native American guy on the cover looked like he would do the trick.

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