"No please!" she screamed, a touch of plead and desperation in her voice. Tears streamed down her cheeks when she begged him to stop a second time. She fought against the ropes on her wrists but failed once more. She closed her eyes shut when he removed his pants and was now coming towards her. Tied up in the bed, there was nothing she could do to stop him. When she felt his palm on her upper thigh, she opened her eyes just to see him being on top of her. The panic settled in when she felt his palm on her pants, now opening the zipper. "-noo.." she cried out in fear and wiggled beneath him. But he wouldn't listen, instead he just smirked at her. When he slowly pulled her pants off her, she screamed once more. Her worse nightmare was coming true now. Her eyes showed pure fear by now, she tried to squirm away from him, but the ropes on her wrist didn't let that happen.

She wouldn't held back a shudder when she felt his fingers trailing up to her breasts. The feeling of his hands on her made her sick in the stomach and she tried hard to held back an other shudder when his hands arrived at his destination. She shocked her head no and squeezed shut her eyes for a second. The fear and disgust was written down on her face. Again she cried out when he gave her breasts a squeeze. "Please, stop it.." she breathed, "I-I..I will do whatever you want me to.." she said, nearly in a whisper and took a shaky breath, "j-just stop.." she pleaded. The tears had stopped now and she found a part of her coming back to senses. He just laughed at her, stroking her cheek in the process. He unbuttoned the first button of her blouse, while taking a look at her breasts. Then he smirked and bent down to her.

She could feel his hot breath against her cheek at first, then it wandered against her right ear. "You are already doing what I want," he whispered in her ear and before leaning back up, he plant a light kiss on her forehead. She immediately flinched back, pressing her head back in the mattress but he caught her anyway, "-just keep going like this beautiful!" he said and smiled at her. She moaned at his comment and turned her head a bit, looking directly at the picture of her and Eric on the dresser. It was taken just a few days ago, and she couldn't stop a fresh tear that rolled down her cheek and hit the pillow underneath her right away.

That moment didn't get unseen by him, and he climbed off her with a sigh, and walked around the bed and took the picture in his hands, "no.." she chocked out, fearing his intentions for a moment. She didn't want him to touch it, to even look at the picture. His face seemed emotionless for a moment and he didn't care about her comment. After a few seconds just staring at the picture he put it back and turned around to her, "I'm sorry Calleigh, but I think he won't be here in time." He just said and smiled at her, turning the picture around so she couldn't see the picture by itself any more. She stared in the nothing for a moment, once the picture was gone she had nothing to look at. More tears ran down her cheeks, caused by the hurting memory of their fight just a few hours ago.

"Eric that's dangerous!" She shouted at him, after hours of talking she was getting impatient. Why wouldn't he understand that being undercover by the mafia was dangerous. And being a snitch for the department wasn't going to help him there. She had lost Jake already. Suddenly hurting memories hit her mind and she abruptly stopped thinking about him. She had seen what a mess it was when Eric tried to help his father, and played double agent. Not again. "Eric, you have a daughter and a wife now!" she said and took a shaky breath, "You don't know the mafia, you don't know to what they are able to." She said in a much calmer voice than she had started with. "I..-" she paused and narrowed her eyes to the floor, "-I don't want to lose you.." she said nearly in a whisper.

She finally looked up at him, and he met her eyes. Seeing the hurt, desperation and fear in them it nearly broke is heart to see her like this. "Cal.." he started and took a step forward, touching her arm. "You won't lose me, you both won't!" he said, and sighed. "I will take care of me, and-" he paused and narrowed his eyes just above her head on the wall. He wasn't sure how to continue, "-and it's just one time. I just have to give the FBI a list of names, then I'm out of it." He said, and almost smiled at her. Hoping she would understand now.

"No!" she raised her voice again and took a step backwards, out of his reach. Almost missing the contact immediately. She crossed her arms above her chest, "You don't understand," she stated and shocked her head, "You have- we have a daughter now. You can't go through life and risking your life for your job!" she hissed, and almost shouted again."Don't you understand that I fear your life? That I fear our life!" she said, she didn't let him comment this and continued, "Do you really imagine you walk up there, asking everyone for his name and walk out of there without a bullet in your head?" she screamed now. She stared doubtful at him, waiting impatiently for an answer. She looked in his eyes, searching for any emotion in them but found nothing. So she took a step forward, and needed to withstand the temptation of letting herself fall in his arms. "Eric.." she started and blinked away the tears in her eyes, "I can't lose you again for our job. Please don't do this to me again." She finished.

"Cal," he started again and reached out for her arm again, sighing when she flinched away he continued, "You won't lose me okay? I'm here for you, I'm sorry." He said and reached out for her again, this time she didn't flinch and he took her in his arms. Silence filled the room for a moment and he couldn't stop the feeling of guilt, that he did this to her. "Cal, listen okay?" he said and made her look in his eyes."I know you don't understand but I feel like I need to do this." He said, and sighed heavily, "I won't get hurt, I promise." He finished and feared her reaction for a moment.

She backed up, away from him. She took a few steps backwards and looked at him for a moment. "I don't understand you any more, you're right." She confessed and took an other shaky breath, "You know what Eric?" she paused for a moment, "-Do what you want!" she spat out."Do that what you think is right. I guess you are grown up enough to make the right decision." She said, tears formed in her eyes but she didn't care to blink them away this time. "Please leave now." She said with a haunt of plead in her voice, when a tear ran down her cheek. Turning her head away, so she didn't need to look at him when an other tear made it's way down her cheek.

He ducked his head, and looked at the floor for a moment. "You want me to leave?" he thought out loud. "Calleigh, please understand.." he tried to explain but she cut him off mid sentence.

"GO!" she screamed, "You are going to be late at work." She stated and he realized that she was right. He cursed inside that she was right. Damn, bad timing! She caught him off his thoughts with her next words, "I've tried everything Eric..but you won't understand." More tears streamed down her face now, "You promised it me that you would never hurt me again..but you do it anyway." She hissed, "Please, leave now." She begged again, and tried hard not to start sobbing. "Lock the door behind you." She said while turning around and walking up to their bedroom.

"Cal.." he tried, and made an attempt to walk in her direction.

She spun around on her heel, her face mixed with hurt and fury. "Don't Eric!" she threatened. "I have made everything for you. I let you in, showed you my real feeling and you.." she took a shaky breath, "-a-and you wouldn't do me this easy favor? To stop risking your life?" she let out a laugh, but stopped her fake laugh just after she'd started. "Seems like I really deceived myself in you. You are really not better than the others.." she said and did regret it at the same time. Her face froze, "Oh my God..Eric I..I didn't mean..-" she wanted to apologize but he stopped her.

"No..-no I understand. Say it Calleigh!" he was the one who raised his voice now, "Tell me I'm a bastard." He yelled, "Tell me that I broke your little heart!" he screamed and came near her again, not caring that she made an afford to back away. But before she could do so, he grabbed her by the arm and just a second later he grabbed the other. He did squeeze with such a force that she couldn't held back a quit whimper. But he didn't care, he didn't even hear it. "You always act like you are the victim, getting hurt from everyone and then shutting out everyone! Do you think that's good? Do you really think that's an adult behavior?" he yelled and shocked her slightly, while talking.

"I do everything for you, because I love you Calleigh.." he said more calmly and let go of her, backed away by himself this time. "I'm trying my best to make you happy, to make you laugh. I'm trying my damn best not to hurt you like the others did, because you don't deserves this!" he said, and put his hands above his head, "But I'm failing every time. I'm just not enough for you, you deserve much better than me." He confessed, " Someone who's able to make you happy, the way you deserve it." He finished and tried to make eye contact to her again but she refused to look in his eyes, "Calleigh look at me.." he pleaded finally, but she wouldn't.

She had backed up against the wall, pressing her body against it she led herself slid down the wall. Forgetting that Eric was still there, watching her. She touched her arm where Eric had hold her just s moment ago, and winced at the pain that shot through her body in this moment. New tears formed in her eyes, and she realized that he was right about his first statement. "Eric.." she called out softly, and finally looked up at him. "Y-You hurt me.." she said shocked and sad at the same time. "You never..-never did this before.." she thought out loud. She heard him coming towards her, reacted quickly and stood up. "No one did this except..except.." a tear ran down her cheek and she didn't felt strong enough to continue.

He realized now too, his eyes widened and his gaze went to his shaky hands. "Oh my.." he started and looked up to her again, "I..-I didn't mean to-" he started to explain but she cut him off once more.

"Go now!" She said firmly and sounded much stronger than she really felt. In this moment she heard her daughter calling out for her and she made her way upstairs and left Eric in the now dark living room.

She hadn't followed his movements 'til now, and was caught off her thoughts by his voice. "But don't worry, he will get the chance to watch us," he paused and searched for the right words, "-ah..-having fun." He finished and gave her a huge grin. It took her a while to understand what he had just said because her mind was still by the fight, that she and Eric just had. But before she could deepened her thoughts even more his voice caught her again, "I'm sure he will be absolutely desperate seeing you like this, after you both had such a nice fight. Aren't I right?" he said, and gave her a smile. He turned his head back towards the camera that stood in the corner of her bedroom, directly facing the bed she was laying on. She hadn't noticed the camera standing there yet, and a second wave of panic settled in.

She cleaned her throat before speaking, "What-What are you planning?" she asked, not sure if taking her on tape and having some fun with her, were his only thoughts. He turned around to her and faced her for a moment, but then he just turned back and worked on the camera. She was just going to ask him again, when he finally turned around to her and walked up to her bed, once he reached the bed he climbed on top off her and stroked a strain of her hair out of her face. She flinched away, disgusted by his touch. "What do you want?" she tried again, her voice sounded much stronger now.

He smirked at her, "You will find out soon enough Calleigh." He simple said and wanted to continue but a familiar cry let him forget about this, and his face lighted up with joy from one second to the other. An evil grin made it's way to his lips and Calleigh froze, fearing once again his intentions. She had just one thought: Kate. She prayed inside that he hadn't heard it, -that he hadn't heard her crying out. She just hoped that Kate would be quit but all that didn't seem to get true.

"Mommy!" Kate cried out once again and Calleigh couldn't stop the fear that was showed on her face. "NO!" she whispered, "Please not my daughter." She pleaded, "You can do everything you want with me. I will do what you want but..but don't touch her, please.." she begged him. "I will do everything!" she spoke hastily, "-I..I won't put up a fight.." she promised, "But please leave her alone, she's just a kid!" she said, looking him pleading in his dark eyes. God that couldn't be true!

"Oh don't worry Calleigh," he laughed at her and climbed off her, "I have already my plans, just wait and you'll see soon enough." He said, and took a last glance at her, "I will be right back," he said, and turned to leave out of the door. She screamed after him but he wouldn't listen, he disappeared out off the door and in the dark hallway.

A/N: I wasn't sure whether or not to upload this story because of my other two storys. And I think this story is way too dramatic; I wish this would be an one-shot so I wouldn't need to worry about the second Chapter, 'cause to be honest I have no idea how to continue by now. I hadn't planned to put Kate in the drama too, so you will see what will happen. Something similar is happening in my life, so I wrote this today. I hope you like it; Please review and tell me what you think. melx3

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