They were never supposed to happen and when they did it was supposed to be one time but once turned to twice and suddenly he was breaking her heart and she was making him go mad. It was supposed to end once they graduated but soon she was buying a house and giving him a key. Then she was gone and he was alone with too few memories of her and too many regrets as he sat in the room they used to laugh together in the only sound now being the small blows of air he made blowing smoke from his mouth as he took drags of his cigarette.

Marlene McKinnon was the definition of beautiful. Long wavy golden blonde hair that was never frizzy or un-kept, a perfect figure, not too thin or too large, a dazzling smile and eyes the colour of the ocean. Marlene McKinnon walked down the corridors of Hogwarts conveying an image of confidence and intelligence.

Boys would go weak at the knees when she walked by and if you'd gone on a date with Marlene McKinnon then you were one of the lucky ones. For very few boys did get the chance. It wasn't that Marlene was picky or that the immense attention she received made her self-indulgent it was simply that she had not much interest in boys or getting toyed with.

Marlene, although she seemed the exact opposite, did not enjoy relationships or feeling dependant on someone else. Marlene McKinnon would much rather spend her night cuddled up in the common room with a good book and a box of Bertie Bots Every Flavoured Beans than get all dolled up and go on a date with some sixth year Ravenclaw she barely knew who spent half the date trying to impress her with the same silly lines she'd heard about a billion times before.

Sirius Black was every girl at Hogwarts dream date. He just had that vibe. His 'bad boy' persona made girls swoon at the sight off him and that was not even taking into account his good looks and charming personality. Sirius had long black hair and piercing grey eyes. Both features he was well known for.

Sirius had gone out with many girls during his time at Hogwarts but no one had ever really peaked his interests. Although that suited him just fine seeing as Sirius had no real interest in getting 'serious' with some girl in school. Sirius was much more interested in spending his nights with his friends playing a game of exploding snaps than hanging out with some girl wearing so much makeup that if she were not wearing any he'd barely notice her.

(Marlene)

Marlene woke up late, as she usually did, making this morning not much different from any others. Although what she didn't know at the time was that today would be much different from other days but Marlene McKinnon did not know that yet.

"I hate Mondays!" Marlene pouted tossing through her drawers until she pulled out her Hogwarts robes.

"It's a Tuesday sweetheart," Lily reminded her only causing Marlene to scowl.

"I hate those too," she said slipping into some proper clothes before brushing out her golden waves and rushing into the washroom to claim a mirror that she could apply her light amount of makeup at. When Marlene slipped into the washroom she found Pandora Thompson already occupying one of the two mirrors.

"Morning Marlene" she said nodding towards the blonde who had just enetered the washroom. Marlene smiled at her politely before taking the mirror beside hers. "Did you finish your potions assignment? I completely forgot it was due today and I was spending time with Kyle last night..." Pandora said biting her lip nervously. Marlene sighed heavily. She knew Pandora could have easily done her potions assignment last night but had opted not to knowing Marlene would have hers finished and she could copy of it the morning of.

"Fine. But I need it back by the time I'm finished breakfast! And stop messing around with Kyle and get your homework done next time Panda" she added to her friend. Pandora just stuck her tongue out at Marlene finishing up in the washroom and leaving. When Marlene was done as well she headed down to the great hall for breakfast.

Lily, Pandora and Mary were all already seated at the Gryffindor table eating breakfast, and for Lily, reading the Daily Prophet. Marlene joined them grabbing herself a slice of toast and smearing jam across it smoothly.

"Hey McKinnon!" Marlene looked up to see Sirius hurriedly moving towards her across the Great Hall.

"Morning" she greeted him.

"James wanted me to tell you to let the other's know there's a Quidditch practice today at four." Marlene groaned unhappily.

"I'm going to miss my dinner again aren't I?" she asked Sirius with a frown who just grinned at her in response.

"Let the others know" he said turning to walk away.

"Can't you talk him out of it Black!" she called after him desperately. "You're supposed to be best friends!" Marlene watched Sirius all the way out of the Great Hall a smile etched on her face. He was a charming guy there was no denying that. Marlene could definitely see why he was such a ladies man with that killer grin of his and the way he walked.

"Marlene?" The distracted blonde jumped a little startled by the sound of Mary's voice from beside her. When she turned around her friend's eyebrow was raised curiously as if to ask what it was Marlene had been staring at so interestedly.

"What?" she said snapping a little at Mary who had a small smirk on her face now.

"Nothing" she replied almost sounding triumphant. "Nothing at all."

Marlene's last class of the day finished at 3:10 giving her just fifty minutes to get up to the girls dormitory, gather all her Quidditch gear up and head down to the pitch. Marlene figured she'd be one of the first people there but she didn't mind. She rather liked getting to fly a bit on her own just the wind blowing through her hair and her thoughts.

By the time Marlene had made it to the pitch it was three thirty. She opened the change room door a calmness washing over her as she realized she was the only one there. She tossed her gear down getting ready to change when she noticed a figure on the bench across from her.

"Bugger, I thought I was on my own," she said smiling at Sirius. He nodded at her in response.

"I came early I like to get out flying before anyone else is on the pitch." Marlene chuckled as she began changing into her Quidditch gear.

"The solitude is nice" she replied. Marlene could feel Sirius's eyes boring into her back as she changed. Marlene had never been insecure about her body. She knew it was nice. Not in a self obsessed sort of way but in a way that meant she loved herself and was happy anyway she looked. But now with Sirius staring right at her she couldn't help but hope he thought she was beautiful, that her body was beautiful. Marlene had absolutely no idea why she felt this way and brushed it off as just wanting to impress a guy. Once she was all changed and had pulled her long hair into a ponytail she turned to Sirius, broom in hand.

"Care to fly?" she asked him with a grin that he soon returned. Standing up quickly and grabbing his broom as well chasing Marlene out of the Change Room.

The rest of the team came not long after Sirius and Marlene had shot up into the air and begun chasing each other around the pitch. The practice lasted until six thirty and by the end of it Marlene's stomach was growling uncontrollably.

"Good practice everyone!" James said to the team as they all stood around changing. "If we play like this Saturday afternoon we'll beat Ravenclaw no problem." Marlene was rushing to get ready so that she could hurry up to the Great Hall and grab supper before it was too late but fate had different plans.

Just as Marlene was making her way out of the change room she heard a familiar feminine voice call out her name. "Marlene!" she cursed herself internally for not moving faster and slowly turned around to see Charley Hayes standing there with a smile spread across her rosy red lips. She decided that she needed to start asking Marlene questions about their Arithmacy homework right then and there keeping the impatient blonde stuck there for an extra twenty minutes.

"Thank you, thank you, thank you!" Charley chimed after Marlene had explained the work over to her who faked a smile. "You're a life saver Marlene what would I do without you!" Charley said happily as she practically skipped out of the change room. Marlene let out a heavy sigh and collapsed on the bench behind her. She was never going to make it for dinner seeing as she desperately needed to take a shower first and still had to put away her Quidditch gear.

"I thought you were dying to get up to the great hall?" Marlene heard someone ask. She looked up to see Sirius sitting across the change room once again, the two of them were the only people left. Marlene got up and walked over to Sirius sitting beside him on the bench pouting.

"I was planning on it twenty minutes ago before Charley Hayes needed so desperately to bother me with her Arithmacy troubles." Sirius laughed at her a little while Marlene tried not to think about the very delicious food Hogwarts students were currently enjoying in the Great Hall.

"You know I thought it be a good idea for me to bring some food just in case..." Sirius started to say pulling food from his bag and setting it out in front of them. He had with him two ham sandwiches, two chocolate caldrons and a bottle of Firewhiskey. Marlene looked up at him in dismay. How had he managed to get all this food?

"You just store food away in case James has a late practice?" she asked in disbelief. Sirius just chuckled shaking his head.

"No. The house elves in the kitchen are quite fond of me you know and sometimes after practice me and James stay back and eat here so I bring it just in case." Marlene nodded her head gratefully taking the sandwich he passed her way and taking a large mouthful of it.

In less then an hour the two wizards had finished two sandwiches, a chocolate caldron, and half a bottle of Firewhiskey making them slightly tipsy.

"So who was your first kiss?" asked Sirius. The two were now sitting on the floor of the change room their backs leaning against the bench as they passed the bottle of Firewhiskey between them. Marlene smiled at the memory that came to mind.

"Finn Coxwell, fourth year" Marlene could still smell the cologne Finn had been wearing that day. It had seemed like a big deal when her boyfriend of a month had finally leaned in and kissed her. Sadly the two fourteen year olds broke up two weeks later and that was one of the few kisses they ever shared.

"Finn Coxwell?" Sirius asked obviously trying to hold back his laughter.

"What!" Marlene snapped at him. "I'll let you know Finn Coxwell was very attractive! And he smelt brilliant" Marlene said with a grin. "You could take some points from him." Sirius raised his eyebrow curiously.

"Are you saying I'm not attractive?" Marlene shook her head a sly smile on her face.

"I'm saying I've smelt you after Quidditch practice and you most definitely do not smell anything close to brilliant." The two laughed at her comment for a moment before passing the slowly emptying bottle of Firewhiskey again.

"How about your virginity?" Sirius asked her curiously. Marlene felt her stomach twist uncomfortably. Although you'd think it was a lie seeing how gorgeous Marlene was and the fact that she had piles of boys yearning for her affection, Marlene McKinnon had never lost her virginity. The truth was she'd never been serious enough with a guy to consider it and she wasn't really a believer in emotionless sex.

"Still present" she said hoping Sirius wouldn't mock her for it. He looked a little surprised and after taking another gulp of Firewhiskey proceeded to ask his next question.

"Why not?" he asked her. "I mean don't take this the wrong way McKinnon but your hot and you've got almost every guy in this school wishing he could sleep with you?" Marlene shrugged her shoulders.

"That's just it isn't it? I don't want to waste my first time sleeping with some guy who's only interested in me cause' he thinks I'm hot and likes my tits. I want the first person I sleep with to actually be someone who gives a shit." Sirius looked impressed by her little speech and nodded approvingly.

"I see. I suppose you'll get it better than I did. I lost my virginity in a broom closet to Marina Mikelson." Marlene had to throw her hand around her mouth to stop herself from bursting into laughter. Marina Mikelson was as stupid as stupid got. The only things going for her were her large breasts and Barbie doll features but besides that she didn't have much substance to her.

"I really expected more from you Black," she said giggling a little. Sirius just shook his head dropping it into his hands dramatically.

"I was drunk" he chuckled. Marlene looked down at the bottle of Firewhiskey in her hands only a gulp of it left. She was starting to feel the affects of alcohol on her feeling slightly light headed and extremely impulsive.

"Do you even know what time it is?" She asked passing Sirius the finally bit of Firewhiskey. He shook his head and Marlene just laughed. She knew the minute they left this room she'd have to head up to the common room and finish her shit load of homework that she was terribly dreading. She didn't even know how she got through it sober let alone finishing it up while drunk.

"I really don't think I live enough you know?" she asked Sirius who obviously did not understand her feelings at all seeing as he constantly lived too much. "I hardly date. I finish all my homework, always. I never break the rules. I've had only one detention...did you know that?" Sirius smiled at her, quite amused by her drunken banter.

"So live a little McKinnon" he said to her mischievously. "Do something crazy and impulsive that no one will see coming." Marlene felt the 'liquid courage' kicking in and without much thought leaned in and kissed Sirius. He didn't respond at first, taken by surprise, but within a few seconds their lips were moving in chorus and she had wrapped her arms around his neck as he lay her down on her back across the cold, hard, cement floor of the change room.

Marlene didn't know what was happening as Sirius pulled her t-shirt over her head but it didn't really bother her either. She wasn't sure whether or not she'd regret this all in the morning or if the alcohol wasn't affecting her quite as much as she thought it was but all Marlene McKinnon knew in that moment she was happy and she wanted Sirius to be removing her clothing. And kissing her up her neck just the way he was.

When Marlene McKinnon woke up in the morning she was greeted by chirping birds and small rays of sunlight making it through the very small windows in the change room. Marlene let out a small groan holding her head in her hands as it throbbed. She'd definitely had too much to drink last night.

Marlene sat up after a few minutes taking in her surroundings for the first time since she'd opened her eyes. She was wearing nothing but her bra and the only thing covering the rest of her naked body was her t-shirt. Marlene's neck ached from the uncomfortable sleep on the cement floor. Her memory felt fuzzy as she tried hard to remember what she was doing in the Quidditch Change Room naked and alone.

Slowly in tiny pieces the night came back to her. The Firewhiskey and sandwiches, Sirius's prompt for her to live a little, her impulsive kiss. Marlene felt her stomach clench unpleasantly but she couldn't be sure whether it was from the memory that had just resurfaced or the large amount of alcohol still in her system.

Marlene couldn't help but feel dirty. Her hair was a tangled mess and as she put her scattered clothes back on she realized what was probably bothering her most, Sirius had left her. He'd gathered his stuff up and left her lying in the middle of the Change Room naked.

"Pull yourself together" Marlene instructed herself and she did exactly that. Marlene McKinnon changed back into her clothes, grabbed her abandoned Quidditch gear and walked straight up towards the castle her head held high and a feeling of confidence surrounding her. She would not let herself fall or seem uneasy. She was Marlene McKinnon every boy in Hogwarts wanted her. Sirius Black would not falter her confidence.

As Marlene walked back through the castle she caught a few kids on their way to breakfast who sent her questionable looks. If anyone asked she'd just say she had gone to the Quidditch pitch early in the morning. Marlene's strong feeling of confidence lasted until she finally walked up the stairs to the Gryffindor girl's dormitory and walked in to see her roommates all getting ready for class. Everyone froze at the sight of her obviously having noticed her absence last night.

Lily was the first to speak. "Marlene-McKinnon-where-have-you-been" she said between clenched teeth. "I was worried sick about you last night and then James tells me you never came up from the Quidditch pitch! I had no clue what happened to you!" Marlene looked down at her feet too embarrassed to meet Lily's eyes. What was she going to tell them?

"Lil I'm sure Marly has a perfectly good explanation for why she didn't come back last night, don't you?" Asked Mary with an understanding smile. Marlene still didn't say anything her bottom lip starting to shake.

"Did you sleep in the common room?" Brooke Douglas asked her. "I mean sometimes I come in late, start doing homework and just fall asleep in the common room..." Marlene just nodded her head even though it was a lie.

"Yeah" she said trying to keep her voice steady. "Excuse me I'm just going to go to the washroom..." Marlene quickly rushed of closing the washroom door behind her and running to one of the toilets falling to her knees in front of it and throwing up. Goddamn hangover. She cursed in her head sitting back against the wall once she was done, trying to catch her breath.

"Marly?" Marlene looked up to see Lily approaching, her expression having changed from one of anger to worry.

"I'm just a little hung over," Marlene said to her friend winking at her. Lily sighed taking a seat beside her Marlene. "Panda thought you might be so she went down stairs to mix you up her famous remedy and Mary and Brooke went to go eat so I thought maybe now that we're alone you could tell me what really happened last night." Marlene knew Lily would be the first one to get it out of her. In the seven years Marlene had known her never once did Lily fail to get needed information out of someone.

"You can't tell anyone," Marlene said sternly to her friend. "Not even Potter!" Lily nodded her head staring at Marlene expectantly waiting for the news she was about to lay on her. Marlene bit down on her bottom lip nervously preparing herself for Lily's response.

"I slept with Sirius Black" she finally spat out.