5 years earlier
JPOV
"Jace! Please! It's not like I have any other choice! I have to go!" Clary pleaded with me like there's no tomorrow but I don't care, I'm still mad at her.
"You HAVE to go? It's more like you WANT to go! I mean, who would want to pass an opportunity to go training with the Clave huh?" I'm too hurt and mad to care if my words stung her.
"I don't want to go Jace! I have to go bec-"
That's it, I'm mad.
"BECAUSE WHAT CLARY? BECAUSE IT'S MORE FUN IN IDRIS? BECAUSE IT'S MORE INTERESTING IN IDRIS? BECAUSE YOU GET TO LEARN MORE ABOUT YOUR RUNE ABILITIES WITH THE CLAVE? BECAUSE IT'S NICER IN IDRIS?!" I was panting by the time I finished my rant.
"No Jace, that's not it, I don't want to leave! I have to if-"
"JUST STOP IT CLARY OKAY! I ACCEPT IT! I ACCEPT THAT IZZY'S COOKING IS NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU! I ACCEPT THAT ALEC IS NOT GAY ENOUGH FOR YOU! I ACCEPT THAT MAGNUS IS NOT INTERESTING ENOUGH FOR YOU! I EVEN ACCEPT THAT SIMON IS NOT WEIRD ENOUGH FOR YOU! I accept that I'm not enough for you."
I added that last line in a very hushed tone that I'd be surprised if Simon could hear it. Clary looked like that night when she went to Idris when I asked her not to, she looked sad, shocked and broken. But I don't care, she hurt me enough that I could throw her out the window. Tears are already spilling out of Clary's eyes in full force, and it didn't look like it was going to stop soon.
"Jace, you don't understand, if I don't go the-"
"JUST GET OUT CLARY! GET THE HELL OUT! GET THE HELL OUT OF THIS ROOM AND GET THE HELL OUT OF MY LIFE!
After those words came out of my mouth, I instantly regretted it, she just looked so broken that I want to go to her and wrap her into my arms, but I can't do anything about it now, it already came out, next thing I knew Clary ran out the room as if Hell was chasing her.