Konnichiwa! ^_^

So new story here... Hope you'll enjoy it! Just a thought that have been on my mind for a while, needed it out. Hehe.

Himura Kenshin is a known writer of the great book series about Hitokiri Battousai who lived through the Meiji war.

The Meiji war tales.

-The break of dawn.

-Birth of a swordsman

-A shattered fate

-As the snow colors red

-The promise

-Finding hope

-Fighting the past

-A lovers embrace

-End of wanderings

-A promise fulfilled.

Yes, I'm aware that two of the books are named after two Kenshin episodes. ^_^ Very fond of both of them. That's why...

Anyhow. Him and Kaoru have been best friends since kindergarten and they have been in love with each other

since forever. But he does something kind of stupid and different events keep them from contacting each other, and the next time he sees her he get's quite the surprise. The story starts up about five years into it, after a night neither one of them can forget. On the night of Kenshins return to Tokyo, when after a wild night out he decides to visit her.

Rated M for future chapters.

I DO NOT OWN ANYONE FROM RUROUNI KENSHIN!

Kaoru woke up groaning to the sound of something loud. Something banging. Okay, now it was ringing. Damn it! There was someone on the door! Who the hell knocked on someones door at 4 in the morning?!

She threw on her sweatpants and hurried down the hallway, throwing a worried glance at the second door to the right from her bedroom as she rushed by.

"Kaaaaaoru!"

She knew that voice, she had heard it before. Even in the same state it was in now: Drunk. Totally hammered.

Five years ago on the very same doorstep as now. She got chills up and down her spine.

'Dear Kami, not now...!'

"Kaaaaoruuuuu, open UP!" he laughed.

She unlocked the door and threw it open, pushing him backwards in the process as she stepped outside. She shot him an angry glare,

"What?!"

He cupped her cheek, gently stroking it with an amused look on his face.

"No need to be so snappy koi..." he mumbled and smiled.

"Oh really?"

"No."

"It's 4 in the morning! I was sleeping!"

"What happened Kaaaaoru..? You used to be so fun. Wild and freeee!" he laughed.

She clenched her fists in anger. He had no idea what she had been through, so how dare he just waltz in here and...and...Ah screw it! She took a sharp breath and stared him in the eyes.

"What happened?! You left. You left me here alone to pursuit your career as a writer. After that I got to manage my own time."

His face grew serious and his body tensed up. Kaoru took a step back showing clearly that she didn't want to be touched. With narrowed eyes he sought hers.

"I wanted you."

"Don't make me laugh Himura, I wasn't even worthy of your time! And besides, I've read all about your engagement with your fiancé. So that kind of means that your busy, ne?"

He sighed deeply and shook his head.

"I thought it meant something to you Kaoru."

"It did. That's why I'm so angry at you! You know what? Leave. Just Leave, and don't come back until morning, then we can talk. When you're sober that is. Now go!"

She turned around, went inside and locked her door. Kenshin sighed and slumped his shoulders. Oh man he had that coming. But he really didn't understand a thing she was saying. That night had meant everything to him, and he thought that she felt the same way. Apparently not...or? Fiance...Hn. About that... They had to talk about that.

Ever since they parted, memories of her moans and movements had followed him. They taunted him every time he closed his eyes. He had needed her so many times, but never had he sought comfort in someone else. He could never do that. That was five years ago. He withdrew a light breath and began the short walk home.

The sun was rising, and on the inside Kaoru watched him leave.

She rubbed her eyes in her sleep deprived state, turned around and walked slowly upstairs. She stopped outside the second door, before reaching out to the doorknob and slowly turning it. Light streamed into the room and she tip toed into it and smiled warmly at the little 4 year old red head that was spread out in his bed. He had tossed around so much that it looked like a hurricane had thrown his sheets around. She gently tucked him in and stroke his hair. With a small peck on the cheek, she turned and walked out.

After their night of passion, she had tried to reach him, only to find it utterly impossible. So she had to go through the pregnancy alone, and when she finally did give birth to Kenji, she ended up staying in the hospital because she wouldn't stop bleeding. Tired and alone she got home and managed to be a mother after a few trying nights.

But she never gave up and she knew that she would always be there for him. She knew now though that there was a chance that Kenshin would now of his existence. She wouldn't mind that, more like welcome it. He was probably coming over tomorrow so she had a phone call to make. She yawned again and set her alarm before drifting of to sleep again.

Kaoru woke up abruptly as her whole bed shook of Kenjis weight, jumping up and down. She whined and hid her head in the pillows smiling.

"Mama! Mama wake up! I'm Hungwy!"

She laughed as he pulled the pillows of her head, before assaulting her covers.

"Oh really?"

"Yeeeeah!" he grinned.

"Well then. How about breakfast?"

"Pancakes?"

"But off course, duuuuh." She smiled and grabbed his hand. And coffee, lots of it. She could hear the doorbell ring, and he ran away from her to open the door.

"Uncle Sano!"

"Heeeey there kiddo!"

"You want pancakes?! Momma's gonna make'em!"

Sanosuke laughed and lifted him up on to his arm.

"Sure, why not!"

"Momma, make it threeeee!" Kenji laughed happily.

"Okay then!"

"Hey sis." He kissed her on the cheek before tailing her to the kitchen. He sat Kenji down in his chair and turned to her.

"So what's' up with calling me in the middle of the night?"

"I need a favor."

"Work?"

"No. I need you to take Kenji for the weekend, I'm sorry I know it's short bu..."

He shushed her with his finger smiling.

"Don't worry, I'd love to! This little hurricane ain't much noise ya know."

"Thank you!"

Kaoru poured milk and eggs into a mixing bowl. Sanosuke grabbed the coffeemaker.

"But why then? Isn't weekend usually 'your' time, ne?"

"Hai. Ano... He's back in town Sano."

She could feel the tension in the air. She knew how he felt about Kenshin. He leaned back against the counter and looked at her.

"You're gonna meet him?"

She nodded quietly.

"He's probably coming over today, and I don't want him around Kenji. Yet."

"Yet? Kaoru, he abandoned you and..."

"I know that Sano, okay? But he should know! I would have wanted to know if I had a son! Wouldn't you?" she said shakily as she pulled out the first pancake and landed it on Kenjis plate.

"Momma! Straw..."

"berry syrup, I know, I know..." she teased and did as he wanted.

"Domo Arigato!" he grinned before chugging the pancake down.

Kaoru sighed and turned around. Sanosuke pulled her into an embrace and kissed her forehead. She leaned in for a few seconds before mumbling.

"He's got a check up at Gensai-sensei's today."

"I'll take him, just give me his papers nee-chan. And I know you can handle it. I'm sorry. I guess I'm just overprotective about you. So if he ever hurts you again..." he finished cracking his knuckles.

"I'll hurt him!"

She laughed.

"Sit down now and have your pancakes Sano."

He happily did as she said and they ate, laughed and enjoyed each others company. While Sanosuke helped Kenji get his shoes and jacket on, Kaoru packed his bag and after that she walked them to his truck to wave them of. She blew kisses and waved happily as they drove away. She could hear Kenji laugh hysterically as Sano turned up the music and she smiled. She knew he was in great hands so she turned around to go inside.

Then she saw him. He stood a bit down the street, looking at her smiling. Sighing Kaoru moved herself from the curb up to the doorstep and waited for him.

Flashback.

Kenshin looked into her eyes and leaned forward. The moment was perfect, and he wanted to remember it forever. He knew that he had to leave for his book-tour tomorrow and be gone for a few months, but he wanted her. Needed her.

'Kami please tell me that she feels the same...'

"Kaoru..."

She breathed heavily and grabbed his neck and pulled him closer. He leaned in and captured her lips. Soft and swift. Then he pulled back and looked her in the eyes.

"I..."

She kissed him again and pulled her hand through his fiery red hair. She wanted him. With smooth hands he pulled her sweater over her head, the rest of their clothes followed that way until they were tangled up in each others arms, moaning the other persons name over and over again His lips against hers, her arms wrapped securely around him.

When it was over Kaoru hoped he would stay with her forever. How wrong she was when she awoke the next morning alone.

"Kaoru?"

She snapped out of her haze and looked at him rather confused. Kenshin waved his hand in front of her face.

"Eh..? Nani?"

"Gomen. You seemed to space out a bit."

"Happens sometimes. Please come on in."

He followed her into the kitchen and pulled out a chair.

"Please sit down. Would you like some coffee?"

He nodded courtly at her.

"Yes please."

She fetched two cups and served him a cup before sitting down. She played with the ear of her cup. The silence between them was too much so she looked at him.

"So how's life?"

"Good. Can't complain."

"How's the fiancé?"

He looked at her smiling vaguely.

"I'm not engaged."

"What? I'm pretty sure that you have a ring on your finger there Himura."

He laughed and twirled the ring around on his finger.

"I know that anata. Ano..."

"Don't call me that."

"I'm not engaged, it's a fake."

Her eyes widened.

"Nani?"

"I got tired of womens advances against me. So I got a fake engagement with my manager. Tomoe."

She nodded and looked away. He smiled and put his hand on hers but she withdrew hers. He sighed and looked at her.

"...So you?"

"What?"

"Have someone?"

"No. I don't exactly have the time."

"But you seemed to wave someone of? Threw kisses and waved and...yeah." He said with a hint of annoyance in his voice.

"Oh that!" she laughed.

"No! Gods no! That was Sanosuke!"

He stared at her like she just had hit him in the head.

"You wave goodbye to Sanosuke like that?"

"No. I was saying goodbye to my son." she said quietly.

His eyes widened in chock and he just stared at her. She had kids? She didn't look like it! Who was the bastard who had touched her. Who?! Kenshin wanted to rip his heart out and beat him up for as much as even looking at her.

"Son?!"

"Yeah." she said nervously and looked down.

"I didn't want you to meet him. So he left with Sano for the weekend."

He grunted and looked away, his heart stung a bit by her comment. She looked at him. He looked like he was struggling with something.

"Kenshin?"

"So how old is he?" he asked.

She smiled vaguely at him.

"Four years."

He couldn't really blame her for moving on. Had he wanted her to wait for him her whole life..? Shamefully, yes. But she deserved better than what he had done to her that night. He had tried to call her a few time but it always ended at her voice mail, and he hated those things. Eventually he stopped calling. She obviously hated him, and by all rights.

"Do you have a picture?" He tried to light up the tension in the air.

She smiled brightly.

"I have several. Do you...Do you want to see one?"

"May I ?"

"Hai."

She went into the living room for a few minutes before coming back. She pressed the frame against her chest. As she sat down again her heartbeat was through the roof. He looked at her curiously and cocked an eyebrow.

"Kaoru? Are you okay? Did something happen?"

She turned the photo upside down and handed him the frame. When he flipped it she felt sick to her stomach.

Kenshin stared at the boy in her arms. He had red hair. Long red hair. Like him. The small boy looked exactly like him.

The chin, his face. Even the eyes. Like him. He looked up at Kaoru and down at the picture. It wasn't possible.

"How...?"

He looked up again, clearly confused and choked out:

"Mine?"

"...Yes. Kenshin, I..."

"Kami..." he mumbled before his rage took over.

" A son...? I have a son?!"

She nodded. He growled at her.

"Why didn't you tell me? Why didn't you call?!" he slammed his fist into the table.

"You weren't exactly that easy to get a hold of you know."

"Did you even try Kaoru?!"

She looked up at him clearly hurt.

"Of course I tried! What do you think of me?!"

"How should I know?! A moment ago I was convinced you had a boyfriend, and that the tw..."

"He's yours! His name is Kenji, okay?! Just yours!"

"Kaoru..."

"No! Don't give me this: Why?!-Crap, cause that's not going to work! I called dammit! I tried to reach you!"

Angry tears formed in her eyes, and all her pent up frustration came pouring out.

"I woke up alone in my bed the morning after thinking you didn't want me! That I was some one night stand that you used up!"

His face softened and he tried to reach out to her.

"Kaoru, no I..."

"Don't touch me!" she said and slapped his hand away from her.

"I went to your house and met a girl in the doorway. Your fiance. Well now anyway. She told me that you had left and wasn't interested in any affairs from 'home'." Kaoru grimaced.

"However, I told her that I really needed to talk to you but it didn't help. I called Hiko but he hadn't heard from you either. After two months I finally got an address to a house where you would be staying during your book-tour. When I knocked on your door they told me to leave, I wasn't welcome. You weren't home. So I sought some shadow under a tree when suddenly the gates opened and you and that woman came out in a limo, driving right pass me.

That's when I gave up. That's when I didn't care whether or not I saw you again. I had my baby and I decided that that would be enough."

"I'm sorry, I didn't even know you were there, no one told me. Tomoe..."

"Tomoe? So that was her name huh? Either way, I gave birth to Kenji, and ended up staying an extra week at the hospital because I couldn't stop bleeding. After that I came home alone and nursed him. Sometimes Misao or Megumi-san came over and helped me out so I could catch some sleep. Other than that I have managed fine. But don't come here and tell me that I haven't even tried!"

"I'm sorry...!" He tried again.

"I know it's a chock, I know that Kenshin. But before you accuse me of things you really should get your facts straightened out. I thought I could have this conversation right now but I can't..." Her tears spilled over and she sighed tiredly.

"I...think you should leave. Come back tomorrow or something. I can't talk to you right now."

He nodded and stood up.

"I understand you, and I truly am sorry. If I had known then what I know now I never would have left you alone I swear. However now that I know of him I can't leave the two of you alone, I hope you know that Kaoru."

With that he turned around and walked out of the house, leaving her alone in the kitchen, crying.