I failed. At least that's what the voice in my head was saying. I failed him as a partner, as a friend, as a lover. "Screw you Elliot Mcbigass!", I shouted to the empty apartment as I stood up staggering to the door way to grab my coat. I'm hot. He'll forgive me because I'm hot. I got to the bottom of my apartment steps and started walking the well worn path to Elliot's house. Within the first two blocks I was soaked to the bone and shivering. I rang his door bell bouncing on my toes trying to warm up. He opened the door, old gray sweatpants hanging loose on his hips, shirtless of course, his hair was a mess, I woke him, fuck fuck fuck. "Olivia." His voice drawled on my name and made me feel warm inside. "Listen here stabler. You're going to let me inside because it's raining and I'm cold and drunk and ... And .." I started crying mid sentence and sure enough I was being picked up bridal style and carried into his apartment. I shut my eyes tight burying my head into his chest, taking in the familiar musky scent but all to soon I was put down. He was taking my coat off and pulling my shirt over my head, his quick fingers undid my bra behind my back and I didn't try to catch it as it slid off my torso. Elliot's gaze faltered over my skin and his hand traced my collar bone as he leaned down placing light kisses on my neck and up my jaw line before he settled on my mouth. His hands tangled in my wet hair but all to quick he broke away. "You're drunk." "That I am detective." My cheeks instantly got hot. "Finish getting undressed" he said tossing me a tee shirt, " I'll be right back" I stripped down to my panties which we're soaking wet so I threw them across the room laughing as they landed on Dicky's picture. Eliot came back in and started towel drying my hair, I just nodded along with it. He dropped the towel and directed me to bed as he held me close to his chest I managed to say.. "Mcbigass?" "Yes Olivia?" "I'm sorry." "I forgive you." "I love you, carrot." "I love you too, Livvy Love." I could hear the smile in his voice as I drifted off into the most peaceful sleep I've had in a long time.