Luxury Denied

by YMFaery

PostGoldenEye. Circumstances and duty kept James from indulging in one dearly desired luxury. Two 100 word drabbles, even if the site doesn't agree on the word count.

"You were supposed to die for me."

The Alec I knew would have known, given a choice, I would have.

But death was a luxury I could not afford. Dying at Arkangel would have meant failure of the mission, and that the enemy -- Russia -- Ouramov -- won. And that could not happen. For our sake, for England, he could not win.

So I completed the mission. Escaped. And left behind my shattered heart, dreaming of the day I would gun him down as brutally as he did you; the day I could finally follow you.

But I was denied even that.

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Oh, Alec.

Did you honestly believe I planned to survive our antenna altercation? I only wanted to delay you long enough to ensure there was no time to reset GoldenEye's course.

That was all I owed England. And on that tiny platform, your hands on my throat, we were so close..

Then Natalya arrived with a hostage helicopter.

I had promised to protect her. And if she had stayed hidden, she would have been safe. Instead, she risked herself to help me.

For one moment I hated her with every fiber of my being.

Then, I performed my bitter duty.