The First Time
This was the first night Peeta has slept the whole night since the Quart Quell. The air coming for the window is ice cold and the sound outside is sad and quiet. District twelve has never been the same since this war broke out and ended. Not a day goes by that I don't miss Prim, not a day goes by that I don't have a nightmare about her. I can't sleep most nights because these thoughts run through my head. Peetas arms were tight around my body to make sure he doesn't lose me again. I run my fingers through his hair to sooth him while he sleeps. Every day Peetas melt downs get a little worse, but some days he doesn't have them at all . He sometimes hits me but I know it's not my Peeta that does it; it's his flashback that makes him. He tries so hard to control himself.
The sun finally peeking through the window, I slithered out of Peetas arms and down stairs to find Haymitch passed out at our kitchen table with a bottle of whiskey in his hand. I open the fridge to find a skinned squirrel I pull it out and set it in the pan. I took out another pan went back to the fridge and got out some eggs. When they were done cooking I laid a plate in front of Haymitch and nudged him till he woke up. He groaned and went back to sleep. I carried up a plate to still sleeping Peeta, I set the plate down. I kissed his forehead, I pushed the hair out of his eyes when he awoke. He pushed me back hard, I hit my head against the wall I felt the hot blood starting to drip down the back of my head. He jumped up from the bed
"Katniss, I'm sorry! I had no control." He wrapped his arms around me.
"I'm sorry." He pushed my head into his chest. He looked at his hand which was full of her blood.
"Oh God Katniss I'm so sorry!" She started to cry from the pain.
He let go of her and ran to the bathroom he came back with a damp towel, Neosporin, and an ace bandage.
"I'm so sorry Katapiller." That's what his nickname is for Katniss.
It always made her smile. He picked her up and laid her ever so gently on the bed and kissed her forehead. He made her rest in bed for the whole day, he made her soup and her favorite kind of bread with cheese in the middle, every other hour he would go get some more snow from outside to ice her cut. When she woke up the next day he was sleeping in the chair next to the bed, his fingers intertwined with hers. His eye's shot open when she tried to pull her hand away from his.
"Morning." She smiled at him.
"Morning, beautiful." His voice was horsed.
He got up from the chair and took off her bandages, "The bleeding stopped and it looks fine.
How do you feel?" he sounded very concerned.
"I feel better now." He kissed her forehead.
"I love you." He said for the first time. "I love you too." She said for the first time as well. He softly peck a kiss on her lips, he moved down to her neck and sucked giving her a light hicky. She moved over on the bed so he could cuddle, they were nose to nose.
"Katniss, lets have a baby." He begged.
"Peeta." She began to say, but he knew exactly what she was going to say.
"Katniss the games are over. We are free now." He put his hand on her face.
"Peeta… I'm afraid. I'm scared. I can't be a mom, I don't think I can. I'm sorry." He could see he was bringing tears to her eyes so he said "We'll, talk about this another time." and wiped away a little tear that fell from her eye.
"I need to go to the bakery this morning, do you want to come?" she kissed his lips and nodded her head. She got on pants, her boots, a long sleeve black shirt and her father's leather jacket. Peeta wore a short sleeve shirt and pants because he says "The cold doesn't bother him." The walked down to the bakery is sad the bones of people they knew lay there unburied because of them. Katniss gets sick every time she thinks about this, she tucks her face into Peetas shirt so she doesn't have to see it, but Peeta is strong enough to bare it. When we got to the bakery and open the door a burst of cold air brushed on them as they walk in. There's a lot of bad memories here for Peeta, he walked over to the counter and stood still. He gripped the sides, that's how I knew he was having another melt down. I ran over to his side and he scream "Get away!" but she wouldn't. She won't let him to be alone during this. She wrapped her arms around him and whispered "I love you." Over and over again and he slowly came back to her. He collapsed to the floor in her hands, his head in her lap and her hands clenched to his.
"Promise me, you'll always be with me." His back was arched from the flashback of the pain.
"Always, I love you." She whispered
"Real?" he asked.
"Real." She answered.
He had tears in his eye's from the horrid flashback, she feels so guilty that she can't do anything to keep them from coming back. He decided that it was a good idea to come back another day. They got home and dressed down to their underwear and cuddled up in bed together, she was kissing his neck when she mumbled "I'm ready."
His eyes shot open. "Are you sure?" he questioned.
She nodded her head, he got on top of her, she wrapped her leg around him. His hard rubbing against her sex made her wet. He licked his fingers and rubbed her clit through her underwear. This was their first time, they have ever had sex before. She started to moan as her hips bucked in ever direction. He stopped rubbing her clit to take off his boxers, so she took off her bra. He laid soft kisses between her breast and all the way down to her belly button. He slipped his fingers in the waist band of her panties and pulled them off. He put her legs over his shoulders and started to lick her clit. He slid his tongue all over her folds, when he slid his tongue in her entrance he hummed "You taste so good." She was moaning so loud that she barely heard him. "I'm going to put two fingers in to loosen you up." It hurt her at first but then she started like it so he rapidly slid his fingers in and out of her while licking her clit. She reached her climax and came all over his fingers he lapped her up with his tongue and then sucked his fingers. He came up and kiss her slipping his tongue in my mouth, she could taste herself on him. He stuck his tip in her entrance and then slid all the way in she screamed in his mouth because he was so huge. He took it out and apologized. "It's going to hurt at first." He slid it back in her and she screamed again. After a while she started to moan in pleasure, so he thrusted harder. "Your so tight." He moaned out. "You feel so good." She moaned out after. He rested his head in her shoulder and chocked out "I love you's." She reached her climax again and came all over him, moments later he too.
He pulled out of her and laid breathless next to her. He pulled the blankets over their bodys and kissed her forehead. She wrapped her arms around his stomach and nuzzled her head in his chest and whispered ever so softly "I love you." She quickly fell asleep.
When she woke up the next morning Peeta was gone, "Peeta?" she softly yelled. She got up from the bed and put on a shirt and panties. "Peeta?" she yelled again, then she heard a big thud downstairs. She bolted out of the bedroom and down the stairs to see Peeta having a melt down on the floor. She knelt down next to him and he pushed her back. She got back up and fought his arms down, and whispered "It's going to be okay." She tried so hard to stay tough for Peeta. After minutes he finally calmed down
"Katapiller…. I don't want to hurt you anymore." He said looking up at the ceiling.
"You're not hurting me." She lied.
"I think I need to stay with Effie and Haymitch for a while."
She let go of his arms and leaned against the wall. "No we're fine." She said.
"Katapiller I love you." He got up and walked upstairs. She furiously followed after him.
"So that's it you're just going to get up and go."
"I'm just going next door. Kat it's not like I'm going a district away."
"Can I come see you?" she wiped a tear away from her eye.
"Of course you can." He hugged her briefly and then continued packing.
Before he walked out the door he said "I love you."
"Real?" she asked
"Real." He half smiled and she watching him walk away.