This Love Is An Obsession
Chapter One: Forbidden Fruit
Rin x Len Fanfiction
(Twincest + Incest)
If you don't like my writing style or incest, don't come reviewing with your hate like "it's disgusting", "revolting". If you do not like it, don't read it. Find something that suits your taste.
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"We tasted the Forbidden Fruit. Times and times again. It has become addicting. We may have lost our wings to heaven, we may have to suffer an eternity through hell. But as long as we're together. It will forever be our heaven."
Love.
Some women can't live without love, they must have a man by their side. No matter what the cost, they'll get the man with them. But not me. I never thought I needed a man. I had my friends, my teachers, my home, my secret hiding places and of course... My Len. The Len that belonged to me from the day I was born, the Len that protected me for all my life, the Len that I loved from the day I opened my eyes.
I love my twin brother. Len. Not in the brotherly, sisterly love that most siblings should possess. But in the incestuous way. I long for his touch, our skin brushing, our bodies forever being connected. I yearn for his strong arms to embrace me tightly and never let go. Such a strong yet gentle embrace that should be neverending. I wish for his heart to belong to me and only me. For him to stare at me and whisper those words into my ears in his mild voice with burning passion. For those cerulean eyes to only be fixed onto my ocean blue eyes and nothing be able to taste his potion and his miracle again and again, experience his burning sweet honey. I want our bodies to melt into one another's, again and again.
This wish of mine is too big, not even a miracle will allow the two of us to be together. Not even the miracle given by God. For our love is not meant to be.
The fantasies of being able to be holding hands with Len, laughing and smiling with him. Being close and bodies touching, hearts, souls and bodies becoming one, is impossible.
This love of mine is Forbidden.
The ultimate taboo of siblings.
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Unwillingly stirring from a peaceful dream, I slowly opened my eyes and adjusted it to the darkness of my room. I could make of the figures of the objects in my room, the warmth on my back told me the sun had rose. Sunlight seamed through the transparent sunset yellow curtains, warming my body. Glancing at my bright yellow digital clock, it's sunshine colored digits printed: "SUN 8:43AM." Not wanting to get up, I remained still and quiet, hearing someone stirr beside me. Realization hit me like a tsunami, glancing down at myself, I only saw bare body. Flushing like a tomato, I glared at the sleeping figure who was comfortably rested close, a few centimeters away. The white blanket sheets were sticking to my body, I couldn't help but to lean closer to examine him, a way a scientist does to a new creature.
Len. His usual cheeky shades of cerulean eyes were closed, his beautiful dirty blonde hair was messy and unruly, like the rebellious self that most people see him as. Not me though. I smiled to myself as I brushed some loose strands of hair from his face, a wry smile told me he was pretending to be asleep. Pouting, this time, I gently pulled his cheeks which made him whine. "Ow."
I was watching admirably at his lithe shape, his decent muscles and of course, I locked eyes with that deep cerulean, those eyes reminded me of the seductive depths of the ocean. Another quirky smile made me roll my eyes.
"You don't sound hurt." I pulled a bit harder until I felt his warm hands touch mine, the moment our bodies made contact again, I felt our worlds had a quirky, mischievous smile on his fair face and skin. Pushing me over with ease because of his size and weight, he nuzzled my neck with his nose. His body was cool, he too, was nude. I refused to give in to the temptation of connecting with him again as I scrunched my eyes shut, if I catch a glimpse of those cerulean eyes, he will once more take me to that heaven-like sanctuary, to a universe where only the two of us existed. If I went there again, I wouldn't want to return to this reality.
His moist tongue travelled up my neck, making my body tremble with desire, anticipation, wanting him to continue. He seemed to sense this desire too, as he nibbled at my ear and breathed on my cheek. My stomach was overfilling with butterflies on rampage, we had done this so many times, but each time, was treated like my legs were touching, intertwining, so close yet not close enough to taste, I felt my mind go blank and my body grow numb. A silent gasp escaped my mouth when his fingers traveled down my body. He has swept me to the ocean of love and lust, to the depths of it, unable to return. Moving the last half inch so that our lips could touch, softly, lovingly. I breathed. His kiss was hard but soft, firey but cool, the split second but also forever. Every kiss he planted on my lips were different, I had lost control of my desires then.
His tongue stroked my teeth as I gave in, arms slowly creeping around his neck, pulling him closer. He set my desires alight, as I breathed out his name. His cheeks were flushed and his breath hot on my lips as he pulled away. The moment I lost contact with him, it felt as if the whole world crumbled. He avoided eye contact and murmured apologetically, "Let's... Stop here okay?"
Being the bad actor I was, I looked at him with disbelief, disappointed and unsatisfied. "Why?" I glanced at him as he began to dress himself without speaking. He pulled on his jumper and tugged on some boxers and jeans. It made me feel rather pathetic to have had such a hot, firey night then get dumped the next morning. My body craved for him, his honey and his feelings, when we were connected, it all flows into me. I want to feel that.
Grasping onto his sleeve before he could go, I looked at him with betrayed, hurt eyes. "You can't just kiss me then leave. It's not-" His finger pushed against my lips gently, as he smiled coyly. Which is rare for him. He smiled again, "We're out of protection and I need to go part-time too." He glanced at the clock, "Promise you tonight, kay?" There was no way I could say "no" to his tilted head and alluring smile, as I nodded reluctantly, watching him jog to the door and shut it gently. I heard his footsteps going down the stairs and the door opening and closing. He was gone. But his scent still lingered in the air.
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After lying in bed for what felt like 40 minutes, I finally urged myself up. Slipping into my usual plain clothes, I stretched before crawling out of bed and finding my way to Len's room. Feeling rather stalkerish, I slowly pushed the door to his room open. To meet a brightly colored room, similar to mine. His bed was messy and blankets crumpled, socks and unneeded clothes sprawled across the floor. I just let out a little sigh. His desk was the only thing that looked tidy, black colored desk with a computer, little working lamp, pencil-cases and erasers, all the things you would find on any student's desk. Except- that one photo that was set on close to his computer, it was a picture of me and him, when we were still kids. A small smile crept to my face but I quickly shook it off. Not wanting to forgive him that easily.
Cleaning up his room took longer than I expected but now it looked much more comfortable to be sleeping in. Not that he slept in his room. Glancing to the bin I felt my ears and cheeks burn with embarassment.
There were at least nine used 'you-know-what'. And he hadn't even emptied the bin. Which was bad. Because if mom came home and saw this she would be lecturing him on bringing another girl home and using it. When he really used it with me...
Picking up the bin, I quickly moved outside and poured its inhabinants into the large wheelie-bin that is emptied every Wednesday. Stretching again, I returned to my usual daily Sunday Morning routine. Which included: Brushing my hair, Cleaning my teeth, Making something to eat and just waste time on the internet. Which I did. Often.
The lazy afternoon approached faster than I could have predicted, so I just lay on my bed on my stomach reading some blog posts. I typed away on my blog and received instant replies. I was quite popular on the net. Not so much in real life. Not as popular as Len. Wherever he went, ever since we were small, he would always receive compliments of how manly and handsome he looked. And how he'll turn into a great man one day, which he has.
Both being Tenth Graders and this being the last semester, Len has really had some crazed girls. Mainly all the freshman and sophomores, the seniors and juniors really can't care. But occasionally, the most beautifulest women I have ever seen have attempted to go on dates with him. Len did agree but in the end turned all of them down. Which makes me feel very uncomfortable being his current love-interest, I'm not suitable on par with the rest. When it comes to looks, personality or academics. I'm just an average girl. I don't have a particular thing I excel in either.
I guess everyone has a thing for his dirty blonde hair and those cerulean eyes that captivate you, charm you and put you under his spell.
No joke. I still remember some homosexual males wanting to turn him bi. And what he said made me feel uneasy being his love interest.
"You can try if you want, I don't know if you'll succeed though."
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While I pondered on about this, my cellphone vibrated on the bed, lazily stretching out a hand to feel my way, I picked it up and put it on loud-speaker. It was Len's voice. Which immediately snapped me from my daze. "Rin~ I miss you so much~" I felt my heart pound like a drum in a rock concert, I heard his voice so often but not hearing it for a few minutes always made me feel uncomfortable. "I...Miss you too." I spoke aloud, softly. There was no reply, a few moments later Len's voice again. "Its almost 4! So late. Mom says we're going out to eat today with some of Dad's friends, so get dressed properly. She's gonna pick you up s-" before his sentence was finished, I could hear the pounding on the door, Len could too as he laughed. "Seems like she's there. See you at the dinner party tonight, I'm expecting something beautiful from you, my angel."
His last words made me stare at the phone, dazed, stunned, startled, wordless. I stared dreamily at my creamy yellow painted walls, wondering what will happen. But more, I longed for night to come. So that we could become one again.
I had completely forgotten about the pounding on the door.
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A/N: *phew* That took a LOT of guts. Reminder that this is my FIRST incest fanfiction so... I'm sorry if I wasn't able to come across the best words to describe every movement. And I'm a new writer on here, so hear me out and appreciate it kay?
The reason I started this was because I've been receiving some PMS from my reviewers on wanting an incest related Rin x Len, so... Omo, it's here. The first chapter, at least. Really short, I know I know, I'm writing this while coughing to death and dying of a spider bite (of some sort D:) so... R&R to make me feel better?
Next Chapter: Dinner Party