This is my FIRST story I have ever written in my ENTIRE life. I have NEVER done anything like this before . . . . trust me, if you knew me you would be shocked to know I of all people wrote an actual story! I am fifteen years old . . . so hopefully this will sound more mature to your likings. I have FINALLY worked up the courage to right a story. This just came off the top of my head so...... Hope you like it.

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Detective Olivia Benson goes home to her lonely apartment yet again. Its 1:00am when she arrives home, But that's a normal hour for her in her line of work.

Its quiet in her tiny apartment as always. Her apartment is very clean and spotless . . . Its so perfect its as if no one even lives there.

She sits down on her ivory couch and mindlessly turns on her TV but not really paying attention to whats on.

She wonders where she fits in in the game of life. She never has had time for a real life, she is just there to help people,to help victims. In the end who will be there for her? Its pretty sad if you think about it, but she never complains.

She feels emotionally drained so she goes in her room and searches for her tank top and Victoria secret sweatpants so she can feel more comfortable, she changes and brushes her teeth then hops in her queen size bed alone.

She lays there awake in her bed wishing there was someone to fill the empty space next to her to comfort her to make her feel like she was wanted and loved.

Olivia has never had any luck with guys cause she has never been able to commit to a relationship and was only there half-heartedly and the guys she was with could see it too.......because in all truth she is in love with Elliot Stabler. . . . . . Her co-worker . . . . . Her partner . . . . Her best friend . . . she knows it is wrong because your not suppose to have a relationship with your partner and she knows he will never leave his wife Kathy and five children for her, yet she still had some form of hope that he would one day choose her. Selfish...I know...but all in all very true.

She has never felt like she has been loved, except for when she was with Elliot.

Her mother has never loved her before because she was to drunk to even notice she was there . . . she only noticed her when she was blaming her for all the bad things that had happened to her in her life and when she was beating her uncontrollably and also she never knew her father . . . . all she knew about him was is that he raped her mom which resulted in her being born.

Its almost like she was stuck in limbo waiting for something to happen and living off of hope for something she can never have.

Of course he does not love her love her she thinks because if he did he would have not of gone back to Kathy, or maybe he would have if it weren't for Eli . . . or . . . or . . . this is just to confusing she thinks to herself.

She will keep on going on with her life as a single detective (like many others who worked in svu) waiting for something she can never have. She wonders if he feels the same way? But how will she ever know? Olivia wonders if Elliot knows that he is the reason she has never had a good relationship because she felt like she was cheating on him? She wonders if he knew that when she kisses another man she was wishing it was him she was kissing. She wonders if he knows he holds the key to her heart? She wonders if he knows he is her everything?

Elliot is her best friend and the only one she would trust with her heart . . . . she feels safe and protected when she is with him and she feels like she can let her guard down when he is around.

The bottom line was Olivia would do anything for Elliot even if that meant taking a bullet for him.

So for now she will just play the waiting game, living on hope for something she knows she can't have but can't live without.

*Ring* *Ring*

Olivia- "Hey El, Whats up?"

Elliot- "Hey Liv, sorry to wake you but we have another case"

Olivia- "Thats fine, I wasn't asleep, I had to much on my mind. see you there"

Elliot- "Okay, see ya"

THE END

Thanks for taking the time out of your day to read my first story......it means more to me then you will ever know:)!!

Please . . . . Read and review . . . . Your reviews mean ALLOT to me. Your reviews let me know if I am a good story maker and if I should make another fanfic (someday)

-EOforever94