Stay here, wait for me

She chuckled as she held it up.

"Oh. Hey, that's my phone." Derek replied and he and Meredith kissed.

Then they parted and Meredith said: "You know, I wish you could stay or I could come with you or something." Derek already opened the door. "I'll be back soon. You know that." Derek assured her. "I know, I know." Meredith followed him to the door. "I just feel like I just got you back, and now you're going again, and I just have to stay here…" Meredith rambled a bit.

Derek loved her rambling. It was adorable.

But instead of saying something, he just pressed his lips against hers and for a moment it was just them. Meredith felt Derek's arms embracing her and she breathed in his scent.

Love.

But even that moment got interrupted. Derek has a flight to catch.

A meeting to get to.

"You're right. You do. You have to." He said while flashing his McDreamy smile she fell in love with.

"Stay here. Don't move. Wait for me."

Neuroscience tells us it activates the same parts of the brain as habit-forming addiction.

Derek was walking on the ferryboat deck, he was on his way to SeaTac Airport, enjoying the ride with the ferryboat over the Sound.

It was a bit windy but okay, Derek didn't mind the wind. He could hear seagulls cry, somewhere in the distance a ship tooted loudly. It was probably just about drive off and now wanted cast off, leaving the docks behind and with using the horns it wanted to make sure that other ships, small tourist trip shipping companies and sailboats, release the shipping passage.

He wished Mer was here and the kids. He leaned against the railing and looked out of the ocean.

It makes us feel like we can do anything, be anything, achieve anything.

He pulled out his cell phone, he wanted to call Meredith and hear her voice. Only a few other people were outside too, enjoying the view of Seattle skyline. He smiled, he was on his way to Washington D.C. and about to resign to live with his family again. His family, it was in Seattle with Zola and Bailey. Meredith was there, his gorgeous wife whom he almost lost on so many unthinkable occasions, partly due to his stupidity.

Also, Amelia, his little sister was now working and living in Seattle (in Meredith's and Derek's house but they were glad to have there) … He was elated about coming back. He waited for Meredith to answer the phone but she was probably busy getting the kids ready which can be a very hard job sometimes.

So he let it ring for a few minutes, maybe she would answer his call (which would make him, in fact, very happy). If she won't answer it, he'll be forced to leave her a message on voice mail.

But he still had time.

He still had a few minutes before they would reach their destination, which was the other side of the sound. But then, like magic, his wife answered her phone. Derek smiled happily as he greeted her with a soft: "Hey, Meredith. It's me."

Meredith was about to leave the house in the woods with her kids.

But Zola wasn't ready yet. She refused to put her shoes on and Meredith was trying, really trying to be patient. Although she was happy that Derek was resigning. They are going to be a family again and that was nice. That is great.

Derek will come back and everything will be as it was before Washington D.C. came into the picture.

"Come on, Zola. Walk a little faster 'cause we are late and who can never be late?" Meredith asked her oldest child as she shouldered her bag. "Surgeons." Zola answered in a sweet voice. Meredith had Bailey on her arms and she was looking forward to Derek being home this evening and them lying in their beds, discussing their future (baby).

And once we taste it, we want more.

"What happens if surgeons are late?" Meredith searched for further information and Zola could answer even that.

"People die." She said, walking a little faster.

In this moment, Meredith's cell phone went off and started ringing loudly. "Oh, I forgot to pack my cell." She called. "Wait here, Zo. I'll be right back." Meredith told her as she already opened the front door. Maybe it was Derek calling her, who else could it be? Maybe Cristina, but she doubted that since it was in the middle of night in Zurich, Switzerland.

Meredith walked back quickly and grabbed her cell phone. Her gaze wandered over to the Caller ID and her heart skipped a beat due to happiness.

The caller identification told her it was Derek calling her.

Call from: Derek.

It was her husband, a smile appeared on her face. Her heartbeat fastened. It really was Derek. She clicked on a button and soon she heard Derek's voice greeting her through the phone. She still couldn't believe that he was actually coming home after the meeting with the president.

"Derek. You're calling me while driving?" She asked surprised but also worried.

She still remembered the nightmare she had when Derek and she took the first *steps* in their relationship - him moving in. And then: Your driving is something you can control.

"I am not, actually. I am on a ferry in the middle of the Puget Sound. I wish you'd be here with me. I could have come with you." Meredith reminded him, still smiling. "But you have to stay here. Wait for me, I'll be back soon."

"Yeah, I wish I was there with you. But I am about to leave with the kids for the hospital. You know, to sign on my shift." Meredith explained, hearing her husband's voice over the cell phone.

The thing about love is, when it's good, it's so very good, and when it's bad, it hurts so much.

"I just wanted to tell you that I love you, Meredith, whatever happens, I love you. Please remember that." He said, looking out of the sound.

Why does this sound so like goodbye?

"I love you too, Derek. I am happy that it's going to be us again. Please come home safe, Derek. Don't do anything risky, like talking on the phone was driving. It could end badly and you know it. You see car crash victims every day." She reminded, she was scared of losing him. "I don't want you to show up in your ER all bloody and injured."

"I'll be careful." Derek promised. "Good. Now take care, Derek. I will see you soon." Meredith said.

"Yeah, I look forward to it. Give Bailey and Zola a kiss from we." Derek replied, he smiled as he looked out of the Sound.

Meredith chuckled.

"Will do." Then, a bit quieter: "You're gone about thirty minutes or less and I already miss you Derek. How do you that?" Meredith asked him. "I'm McDreamy, Mer. You and Cristina named me that way. Also, I have certain ways … But I miss you too."

"Maybe I should have come you. I feel like I should have. I can't pinpoint it." Meredith said, obviously thinking about what could happen, already imagining the worst.

In that moment, the ferryboat was about to land. "You know what, Mer. I gotta go, we have to get off of the ferryboat. I need to get to my car. I running freaking late and I don't want to miss my flight."

"Yeah, sure. I love you, Derek." Meredith sighed deeply.

And if you can't find a way to balance all those ups and down, it will make you crazy.

Somehow she had a bad feeling but she just couldn't place it. "I do too." Derek told her and then they ended the call. Meredith went over to her car to get to the hospital. In this moment, her pager beeped. It was the Emergency Department. Plane went down in the middle of the city.

"Okay, we have to go now." Meredith told them, trying to calm her racing heart.

"I see you when I get home." Derek said softly. "Wait for me."

Meredith smirked slightly but of course he couldn't see this. "I will wait for you, Dr. Derek Shepherd."