A/N: Thoughts and feelings of Kira Izuru when Gin Ichimaru left with Aizen. A relationship gone to ruin.

Friends

A person whom one knows, likes, and trusts

So what am I supposed to say?

I know you. I've known you for a long time.

Perhaps I've known you for too long of a time.

I know you. I know you all to well.

I sometimes wish I didn't know you.

I know you. I know how you feel about me.

I know I've felt that way too. I never thought it about you.

But I didn't know you felt that way so much.

So what am I supposed to say?

I liked you. I liked you for a while now.

Maybe I grew to like you too much.

I thought you liked me.

Truth is, you never truly liked me.

Or maybe, I never truly like you.

A dislike developed.

I dislike you. You dislike me.

I never knew you disliked me so much.

So what am I supposed to say?

I trusted you. I trusted you for a short time.

Once again, I trusted you too much.

I thought you trusted me.

We were supposed to trust each other, right?

But trust is broken.

With words, actions, and feelings.

Am I to rebuild this trust?

Even if I feel my trust was misplaced?

I never knew you didn't trust me.

So what am I supposed to do?

Know you? Like you? Trust you?

What are you supposed to do?

Know how I feel?

Like the person who I am?

Trust me to be a friend?

What is anyone supposed to do?

A slap in the face and an apology to hide behind?

What am I supposed to do?

Know exactly every thing to make you happy, even if I never get to be happy?

Like you for whatever you do, even if I feel it is wrong?

Trust you, even though I don't think you deserve that trust?

I knew you.

I liked you.

I trusted you.

But now,

I don't know you,

I don't like you,

And I don't trust you.

Friends.

A word I used to think of,

But then again, I've made mistakes before.

Time to correct it.