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Spirit

Betray

Do you know how it feels when you hurt the person you love the most. When they think they can trust you and you just turn around and destroy them. I promised that I would protect her from the dangers of the world, but I ended up being the source of her greatest pain. Now it seems that karma has gotten to me and I'm the one feeling the pain of a loved one destroying you. She asked me if I could help her with her homework, I lied and went out to get drunk.

She asked me if mommy could help, I lied again and said that mommy was busy; in reality she was divorcing me. I just wanted to tell the truth and play with her, make her laugh as I pushed her on the swing. Then I wanted to kiss her mother; her beautiful mother who I loved so much. Now that I'm gone from her life she can finally smile and be happy and not worry about anything. I wish I could just smile at her and have her smile back

Every night I have the same dream, a dream of a little Maka. Only in my dream she knows what I do every night and she wants me to stop. She says that Mama cries at night because of what I do and I listen shocked and confused. I promise her that I'll never do it again but she screams and says that I'm lying again. I tell her I'm not but she knows I am. Suddenly I'm at the door ready to go out again only this time she's there trying to stop me and I just push her away and leave to go get drunk and get laid. She throws something at me, a picture of the three of us smiling and playing. But as I look back she's gone and I'm surrounded by woman who want me and all I could do is give it to them.

I tell her to leave with Mama and live happily together leave me behind because I don't deserve them. But she screams my name, she wants me to come. I tell her things are better off this way she doesn't believe me she believes I can change. I tell her mother to take her and she screams and holds out her hand. I reach out pretending to try all she does is cry. It makes me feel empty inside, it makes me feel like a monster who hates his own daughter.

My dream continues as the woman continued to advance on me offering me drinks. It's just then that I think about getting away but as I get to the door Maka is there angrily yelling. "Daddy I hate you, Mama hates you and she's crying right now because of you." I ask her how she found me she says that I left a trail a trail of lies. "Goodbye dad, Mama is sad and I am so mad." "I wanted to love you dad I wanted to give you another chance, but you'll never change." "All I wanted to do was love you and be a good daughter, but you're a lousy father."

I can't believe she's talking to me like this and she continues. "Go ahead dad those women want you, they want you to drink and not think. They want you and they'll have you because you're a bad man a bad father and a bad husband." She walks away and turns around one last time, "don't worry dad if you get sad just drink some more you'll forget all about it. Just like you forget anniversaries, birthdays parties, and to pick me up at the nursery."

I wake up and I'm sweating while the clock is ringing. I walk outside and I see Maka swinging while her mother pushes. I walk towards them kiss them both and thank them for staying with me. I'm a different man now, I remember, I love them, and I don't drink anymore. They smile and believe every word I say, but to my dismay I wake up again.

She isn't here anymore and my own daughter hates me. I tell her to forget me and move on with her life because I will never change. I will go through every phase of her life staying the same and I won't do anything about it. Though I remind her that I love her and like I said through every phase that will always be true.

The End

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