As she got off the tube, Abi slung her bag over her shoulder, in her spare hand she held her lunch box which she had been forced to prepare that morning in front of Ben and Jay. Opening the lid, she emptied its contents into the nearby bin, all of them had remained untouched. Of course, it hadn't always been like this. Abi hadn't always had trouble with food, but that all changed a few months back, everything had completely gone down hill, her father had been having an affair with Lucy Beale of all people, a girl not much older than herself, who was the same age as Lauren. This had made her completely sick to her stomach, and even then after all of that, things between her and Jay began to fail and start to go wrong, but it wasn't on her part. He started to look elsewhere and even though she tried to deny the signs over and over again, it took Ben coming back to open her eyes to it all - Jay was in love with Lola. Lola, her best friend.

To say it was a kick in the teeth was an understatement, she felt completely heartbroken when they had finished, Jay was her first love, and she loved him more than anything. To make matters worse on the very day they had finished, she had ran over her dog in the car by accident, poor Tramp was gone and she was partly to blame, if not fully. Her and Ben had been closer than she had ever though in months following that, and they had ended up in a relationship, but despite people telling her that he was gay, she hadn't wanted to break up with him, in all honesty, she didn't want to be alone.

Her trouble with food had started after her and Jay finished, at first she'd skip a meal, soon enough, she found herself researching drastic weight loss and comparing her body to those of celebrities, to models, to Lola. Her body compared to Lola, made her feel even worse. Lola had, had a baby, and she was in better shape than her. That was when she had decided; she, Abi Branning was gonna make a change. She wouldn't be fat anymore. She would be someone, boys wanted. She would be pretty and she would feel better in her own skin.

No matter how hard she dieted, nothing worked quick enough, sure she lost five pounds, and her size 12 jeans were starting to slip down when she walked. But it wasn't enough. It never would be. Using her bank card, she ordered weight loss tablets off amazon, along with Laxatives. She had heard from Bernadette while they were still in school that a woman lost 3 stone just from using laxatives as the body doesn't have time to absorb the carbs of the food you've eaten. Abi skipped meals, limiting herself to just 500 calories a day, and that was just bran flakes, which was like eating cardboard, along with porridge. But it was worth it, because nothing would taste as good as skinny feels.

She began to drink water constantly, and went for a run twice a day, joined a gym and it all began to pay off, because she started to see results, her body was changing, she could feel her ribs, and she didn't see that this was alarming. Her collarbones stuck out and she didn't have a lot of energy most of the time.

As she got back to the house, she opened up the Mitchell's back door, stepping inside, she removed the earphones out of her ears, slinging them in the bag and looking around.

"Hello? Anyone in?" She called out, she heard a faint call back.

"Up here."

She knew straight away that it was Jay, Ben must either be up there with him or he was out. A smile lit up her lips.

As much as she enjoyed Ben's company, he wasn't Jay and he never would be, but he did make her smile, even if she knew he was gay.

Hanging her coat up, and her bag on the banister of the stairs, she steadied herself, a head rush coming on and making her feel slightly dizzy. She breathed quickly through her nose and tried to calm down so it would pass. It was a result of not much food intake, but she was so used to it by now. Walking up the stairs, she walked toward Jay's room, sticking her head around the door, she came face to face with Jay, who seemed to be enjoying playing the xbox.

"Alr'ght? Where's Ben?" She asked, her eyebrow raising as she looked around the room but found no trace of her boyfriend.

"Gone out with Phil, and then they're gonna get some chips for dinner for us all, you hungry? ...How was work?" Jay questioned, he briefly took his eyes off the screen, but she was glad of that.

She had to refrain from her eyes widening. Not chips, she couldn't eat carbs, not today after she was doing so well. A size 8 was starting to get big on her, of course she hid it with clothes that were big on her just in case anyone got suspicious.

"No, no, I had a roll from Greggs on the way home from town. Thanks anyway though. Work was alright. A bit slow, but good I guess." She paused for a second, knowing she was gonna get changed for a run. "I'm gonna jump in the shower, if you need to use the toilet, knock and let me know it's you coming into the bathroom." She didn't mind him going into the bathroom because he'd seen all of her before when they dated, and the shower wasn't seen through, so it wasn't like he could actually see her full body. But it wasn't like he hadn't seen her body before. Of course, she looked a lot different now.

"... Okay, no worries, Abs."

Her heart skipped a beat when she heard him call her 'Abs', he hadn't called her that in so long, it had just been Abi, or he had avoided talking to her all together because of the awkwardness.

She gave him a smile, which she was surprised he retured, before walking into her and Ben's room, she shut the door slightly, leaving it ajar without realizing. She pulled her top over her head, placing it onto the bed along with her skirt and tights which she slipped off, so she was left in just her black bra and underwear. She looked at her body, her eyes scanning over her stomach, and legs, it was visible that she had lost weight, but she couldn't see it herself, in fact she couldn't see how dramatic her weight loss actually was. She still had her C cup boobs, but she was losing the girth of her behind and her legs.

"Hey, Abs, have you seen that DVD, me, you and B-" She jumped, trying to scramble to grab something to cover her body out of instinct, but it was too late, Jay was already by the door, and he apparently had already seen her body. It was too late.

"Bloody hell, Abs. You're tiny." He murmured, his voice quiet, like he was trying to process this. His eyes were wide. "What have you been doing to yourself?"

Now she had really done it.